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FIC: Country roads
Apr. 28th, 2015 12:58 amTittle: Country roads
Author: Kali
Universe: Supernatural
Rating: +18
pairing: J2
A/N: I tend to think in the most absurd things while preparing myself for stress, this is something I'm actually considering on making amultiple chapter thing.
A/N2: tittles come from a country song Country Roads by John Denver (just don't ask me why)
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It came as a ONE time thing for the SPN Kinkmeme HERE
Sequel/prequel/follow up: country roads
***
Jared was the kind of man that’ll never forget someone who did something for him.
But before this he lived completely at the mercy of Zach and well… if you see at the fading bruises and still sore spots he had nothing now.
He dropped out of school because his boyfriend was jealous of the time he was away from him; he stopped working because his boyfriend wanted him home. He stopped talking to his friends after the first time Zach hit him. It all made sense, at the time.
Now here he was thinking about a home he doesn’t have anymore and doing nothing more than eating his protector’s food and sleeping on his
protector’s guest room. He could easily kick him out any second.
“Hey kid…” the gruff voice called offering him a glass of something. “Just orange juice, not sure you’re ready for something else.”
Jared mumbled a thank you and Jensen sat at the other end of the couch. “You want to leave… don’t you?” Jared looked at him surprised. “I knew it… you’re… ” Jensen made a noncommittal gesture. “Why would you want to be around me…” and then moved out of the room.
That night Jared was waiting for Jensen, the man entered smelling like alcohol and leather and blood, he always smelled like blood.
“I…” he started still not enough confidence to let his thoughts out without fear. “I thought we could talk about… about me, leaving…” Jared sat and Jensen followed him.
“I get it, but you told me you have nothing, so give me a couple days and I’ll have something arranged for you, have a word or two with some decent friends that can help you.”
Jared does not want that, he wanted to tell Jensen he’d rather stay with him, but was too afraid of being whinny and needy, Zach used to say he was useless and that he was pathetic when he showed any emotion. Instead of saying things out loud he just nodded.
Jensen nodded back and caressed Jared’s hand and went back to his food.
It was a matter of days until Jensen told him he had something arranged; it was minimum wage job at a diner but was a start. “The place is clean and safe; you’ll go back to school right?” Jared once when he was still healing expressed his intention to go back to school, he left college when he was about to start his second year.
“I myself finished business school.” Jensen said smirking under his unkept beard. “Just fitting for my line of work, huh?” Jared laughed. “So… you know… I’m setting things so you can go back if you finally decide to do so.”
Jared was speechless the other man had no obligation. “You don’t have to.”
Jensen looked at Jared’s eyes. “I don’t have to, I want to, I want to make sure you’re safe and that you have what you want.”
Jared felt like crying.
___
The day Jared started working Jensen was on a two days business trip with his guys, as usual Jensen didn’t say what his business were about.
It was only on day four that Jensen finally entered the diner and smiled at him from the door, Jared was wearing a cute apron and carrying plates of waffles to awaiting costumers. Jensen’s mouth watered at the sight, ad he was not thinking about food.
“When you’re done you can take a break.” Shouted his boss; a lovely lady who was already smiling adoringly to Jensen.
So he hurried and came back in time to see Jensen sitting on one of the stools. “Can I offer you something?” Jared asked fumbling with his hands not knowing what to do with them.
“Tell me Nina has some of that pecan pie she bakes herself…” mumbled Jensen while his hand was already traveling to Jared’s.
“Of course I do honey.” She was already placing a plate in front of him with a generous serving of the pastry before leaving the boys to themselves.
“Her son was my friend, you know? Her husband was my first chief, I survived because of him and his son died a year before I became the chief.” Jensen filled his mouth and made a face of blissful joy. “It could have been me.”
Jared’s entire body shuddered at the idea of Jensen’s death. “Don’t worry sweetheart, I’m here, and I’m not planning on going away any time soon.” Jensen winked as he offered a spoonful to Jared.
Day after day Jared went to work and at the end of his shift Jensen was there to pick him up. Once Jensen offered Jared his bike to drive and when Jared said he didn’t know how they spent two weeks of nights for him to learn. They joked and laughed and once when Jared finally drove by himself Jensen hugged him and kissed his lips.
One day they were walking on the street a a couple girls were openly staring at them. “They fancy you.” Jensen informed with his mouth quirked up around his cigarette.
“Me?” Jared blushed, “no… why?”
Jensen’s look was something else, as if assessing if Jared was fishing for compliments or if he really had no idea of how hot he was. “You really
think nobody would look at you?”
Jared blushed deeply not looking at his friend in the face. “I know I’m not disgusting, but you’re here, next to you I’m just plain.”
Jensen throwed his smoke and got close. “wanna change that? Believe in yourself.” Jensen got close and straightened Jared’s shoulders in one pull. “Carry yourself tall, you’re gorgeous, you don’t have to walk as if you were sorry you’re using someone else’s space.” Jared puffed his chest for half a second before he just snorted and slumped his shoulders back.
“The night I met you, you were confident and secure…” Jared looked at him with wide eyes.
“That didn’t worked well for me…”
Jensen smiled. “I couldn’t take my eyes off of you, not only because you’re hot, also because the confident man there… that was something else.”
Jared laughed. “no one ever said they liked me like that…”
Jensen assessed him once more. “Then you’re hanging with the wrong people.” He started walking. “Come on…” they passed next to the girls who couldn’t take their eyes away from them. “Ladies…” Jensen nodded and offered them a dashing smile and the group giggled.
“You see? They were looking at you.” Jared said. Jensen stoped on his tracks and walked back.
Jared felt something nasty inside, why the man he loved would do that? Go back to talk to some girls. Jensen offered his hand and the girls took
it in turns, two of the girls looked to Jared and smiled, mocking him- Jared thought- look what we can have and you don’t. All of them offered Jensen his numbers and Jared saw as his friend came back to him. “See? Three out of five were interested in you…” Jensen offered him phone numbers written on his hand.
“Really?” Jared saw the numbers amazed.
“Now smile to the lovely ladies… don’t be rude.” Jensen made Jared turn and wave to them.
It took another two weeks of hanging/going out that Jensen took him to a small apartment; it was clean and was close to Jared’s job. “This is clean and safe, and I believe you’ve saved enough for the deposit…” he offered. “and it’s close enough to campus…”
Jared heart fell to the bottom of his stomach, it was like weaning him, very day he was offered a little bit more independence, and it should be good, but it broke his heart. “do you like it?” Jensen asked in a hopeful tone.
“No…” Jared felt like crying, but he had to say it, he had to speak his mind or he’ll lose Jensen. “I don’t want to move out of your place… I don’t want to live away from you…”
Jensen smiled a different smile that brought stars to his eyes and crinkled his face. “I was hoping you’ll say that.” He moved crowding Jared to the wall and kissed him. “I’ve been scared shitless that you’ll be ready to leave me…”
___
Jared was nervous while waiting for Jensen, it was ridiculous, they lived together, and they spent nights making out in the couch or Jared’s bed, but Jensen always stopped, always waited for Jared, and Jared was having a hard time not flash backing to his attack.
Tonight was a mark because Jensen asked him out when they walked back from work the night before. “We’ve been going out for almost three months…” offered Jared as he tried to rein the butterflies in his stomach.
“No… I’ve been hanging out with you for over three months, but I told you once, I wanted to take you out on a date…. And I want to do it now… if you want.”
Jared had to bite his lips before he embarrassed himself jumping and thanking Jensen for remembering. “Sure…” he let out in a sigh, controlling as hard as he could his excitement, Jensen only smiled, said good in a nonchalant tone and held his hand all the way home.
Jared was now trying his fourth – and last- shirt, Jensen knew all his clothes and it frustrated him.
In a very bold move he wandered into Jensen’s room and opened his closet, hanging there were a couple black shirts, a button down plaid, blue and black he remembered from the first time he saw Jensen, he was covered in it when he was brought to this mere house and he took it. His boyfriend might get mad but he didn’t care.
There was a knock on the door and Jared finished with his buttons, let out a breath and moved to answer, there was a giant guy, blue cold eyes on him. “I’m looking for Jay, the chief…” he asked.
Jared felt like cowering inside but something made him stand where he was, this was Jensen’s house and he’d at least try to protect it. He stood tall and crossed his arms to hide the fact that he was shaking.
“Not here. Sorry.”
Another guy from behind asked what happened and the first guy only hollered. “Chief isn’t here, his new enforcer…” the question in his tone directed to Jared. “…Says so.”
Enforcer… Jared blinked a couple times trying hard to keep his face straight, no way these guys who looked like what you don’t want to find on a dark alley at night would think he was any kind of enforcer.
“Too bad…” said the other climbing back on his bike. “Tell him Kevin and Ty came to pay his respects… and give the same to his new partner.”
Jared nodded and went back inside looking himself on the full body mirror behind the closet door, wearing his dark jeans and Jensen’s shirt he looked different, the small scars on his face gave him character, he laughed of that, character… a way to say he looked badass. His hair was longer and his cheeks filled out a little in the last weeks. He stood tall; he knew he was good looking, not Jensen good looking but… who could be.
He snorted and puffed his chest out. Yeah, he looked different from the naïve idiot Zach threatened to share around. Far different from the soft guy who entered on the wrong bar and hit on the wrong guy. And he felt proud of himself.
Another knock on the door and he walked the few steps, he opened in one pull to see a nervous man there, short hair shaved face, and freckles… it was Jensen and he looked so different. “Hi…” he said breathless, without the stubble and the longish hair he looked different, in a good way.
Jared was speechless; Jensen gruff and dirty looked gorgeous but this guy in front of him? He was GQ material, he was scratching his head and his rosy full lips were forming an O “wow…” Jensen finally let out. “You look great…”
“This is your shirt…” Jared confessed and Jensen blushed deeply without the facial hair it was obvious now.
“That makes it a thousand times hotter.” He confessed and offered Jared his hand. They smiled and walked to the car, Jensen’s baby. He opened the door for his date and Jared fell hot all over.
“OH!!” Jared said when they were walking from the restaurant to the movies. “Two guys came to your place…” and giggled. “They thought I was an enforcer…”
Jensen laughed. “A guy like you??” Jared was waiting for the mock. “Sure they were scared…”
“Of me?”
Jensen looked at him once more, the same befuddlement he shows every time Jared doubts himself. “Yeah… if you haven’t noticed your height is enough to scare anyone away, and with that shirt your shoulders look…” Jensen licked his lips and Jared blushed smiling coy.
“Stop it…”
“If I didn’t know you and saw you dressed like that? I’d think you’re badass too.” He moved a hand to Jared’s hair when they parked near the theatre. “I like your hair now, long enough to…” and he pulled a little making Jared gasp, a flash of pain and arousal filling him.
None of them remembers a thing about the movie; they spent most of the time making out.
They went home and finally Jensen made love to him, it was different and Jared cried when he came, there was no pain, or humiliation, no fear at all; Jensen gave everything he could to make him enjoy himself leaving him breathless and sated. Jared came harder than in his entire life, blacked out for a couple seconds, to wake up with Jensen holding him close and kissing his eye lids. “sorry… was I too rough?”
Jared giggled. “no.. it was perfect… you’re perfect.. I love you…”
“I love you too…” that was the first time they shared a bed, and Jared swore he’ll never again sleep away from Jensen.
***
It was a couple weeks after their first date that Jensen had to leave Jared alone on a bar to tend his business, “it won’t take long… I’m so sorry…” he looked around. “The guys aren’t here yet and I better take care of this soon.”
Jared said for the tenth time it was okay. “I’ll be here chilin’” he pointed to his beer “you don’t have to worry, I won’t do anything stupid.” Jensen leaned and stole a quick kiss.
“You better…” the smile was something to behold and Jared smiled back. “or I’ll make you pay…”
“you promise?” Jensen made a wounded sound, called him tease and kissed him again before marching back entrance.
But things went wrong, neither Kevin nor Ty had arrived and Jared saw red and white patches hidden under someone else’s jacket, he knew Jensen was in trouble, he tried calling him but his boyfriend didn’t answer.
He got up and saw something else, Robb and Jon were there too, both agitated and nervous, he saw a flash of blonde hair. He tried dialing for Ty but the phone went to message, same with pretty much all the guys Jared knew from Jensen’s associates.
He got up, walked slowly, calmed and controlled to the car and took the gun he knew Jensen had under his seat and ran back. Jared had no idea of what to do, he had no idea of how to shot a gun, but he needed to back Jensen up.
He ran to the alley and saw an image he thought he’d never see, a guy in a Lakers tracksuit had Jason, the guy who hurt Jared, on his knees; Jensen was standing right behind Jason.
“Two birds with one stone…” repeated the guy in a heavy Latin accent.”
Jared was about to move when someone held his hand, it was Amelia.
“He has four men, we’re outnumbered, and if you want them to be safe we have to wait until Rob and Jon give us a sign”
Jared felt like time stopped while waiting.
***
Jensen had to leave Jared, he’d seen the white and red, colors that were his natural enemies, he had to take care of his business and leave, and he couldn’t risk Jared.
He tried calling associates but nobody was around, he even made a formal call for backup and all Jensen had to do was wait.
“It’s gonna be fast, Sir…” offered the latino guy, “I just want three packs and if my boss is pleased we’ll be making business more often…” but something on his greasy ways made him suspect something.
Put of nowhere they heard the buzzing sound of a tazzer and Jensen looked around to see another latino still holding the tazzer gun in Jason’s direction, the guy who hurt Jared was about to die in front of him.
“Two heads, so easy to get two chiefs, huh? Horses and Mongols !!” shouted the latino guy while another one with a stupid tracksuit appeared pulling a 9 mm gun out of his pants. “Reyes will control everything around here now ese.” He turned to his companion. “tráete el auto, les vamos a cortas las cabezas y se va poner chingado aquí.” The other guy moved fast after just one nod. “Look at you guys, dos pajaros de un tiro… two birds with one stone…” he let out a disgusting laughter.
“You’re dead meat.” Jared appeared behind him pointing the .38 against his head. “Jensen?”
“Marco!!! Hector!!” shouted the man and Jared jolted surprised, he was ready to fly, but Rob appeared on one corner and Jon right behind both covered in blood.
Jensen smirked. “Don’t kill him, we’re gonna set an example.” Jensen moved to get the gun from Jared’s hand.
“Amelia said there’s still one man…” Jared let out and Jensen nodded.
Out of nowhere and screaming as if it were a movie a guy came running, gun drawn as he shot two rounds, Jared coiled behind Jensen and Jason moved a step away to the wall, from behind him a shotgun was fired and Amelia was walking toward them shotgun still in hands smoking barrel on her hands.
“See?” Jason pulled the wires out of the thick muscle on his chest. “She’s the best…”
Hasty footsteps were heard and Ty and Kevin appeared. “I’m sorry Jensen, I swear… we did what we could but Angels stopped us…”
Jensen nodded and turned to Jason and Amelia, their men standing right behind them, all in awkward silence, tense bodies and guns ready.
“Thank you…” offered Jared.
“Thank you, boy…” Jason’s arm was curled around Amelia’s middle. “It’s the second time you have my wife’s life in your hands.” he faced Jensen. “I might have to repay you this time.”
Jensen moved to hold Jared’s hand. “I might take that offer... and we might have to work together to get rid of that scum…” he pointed to the guy still standing there. “Ty, take care of it…”
In the distance the sound of a siren called their attention.
They only nodded to each other and everyone parted on their way.
Before leaving Amelia got close to Jared. “I’m sorry… we were very tight on money and… I know is not excuse… ” she offered in half words.
Jared knew what she meant. “Don’t worry, I’m okay now and happy, and Jensen… he’s good with me now.”
The girl smiled and nodded. “I know…” she looked at her husband. “I was a small little girl when he found me and he turned me into a dragon.” Jason stopped and turned looking for her; she moved to him smiling. The obvious dragon tattoo on her back was the exact place where her husband placed his hand.
Jensen didn’t say anything until they were back in the parking lot, right next to the car. He sent Kevin to warn the others about the angels saying there was no need to engage in fights. He pointed the other door to Jared and climbed in silence, Jared hardly closed the door before Jensen’s engine roared and he dashed away.
“I’m sorry…” offered Jared, but Jensen silenced him with one gesture.
He just parked at the side of the road and got out of the car, Jared followed, he knew that if he didn’t vent up once and for all, things will get uglier. “Jensen, please.…”
The man turned and stalked to him, making Jared cower in fear, when the hands held him he flinched knowing of the pain to come. “you stupid, stupid…” Jared gasped in fear as he was held by his shirt and pulled towards something hard.
“…Stupid boy…” and Jensen hugged him. “so stupid and so fucking brave…” Jared breathing was hitched in terror and he was stunned, why Jensen called him brave? And why the pain never came?
“I’m sorry…”
Jensen pulled him away looking into his eyes. “No… I’m sorry; I put you in a position where you had to risk your life…”
Jared smiled when Jensen closed the distance between them and kissed his lips. “don’t you ever put yourself in danger for me…” he hissed against his lips, beer and something bitter on his breath. “I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose you.”
Jared smiled faintly. “Even Amelia fights… ”
“Amelia can go to hell for all that I care… you won’t be risking yourself for me…”
Jared tried to move away and defend his point. “Amelia fights because Jason and she are a team…” Jensen swallowed audible but Jared pressed his point. “I just…”
Jensen moved close again and caressed his cheek. “Okay…” Jared did a double take. “Okay… you can be my team, but first you’ll start learning, guns and other stuff, and only when you’re not at school”
Jared let out a chuckle. “I’d be a weekend’s tug?” both laughed for a while before Jensen asked for his gun.
“You looked so damn fine there, all tall and dangerous pointing this to his face…”
“I felt damn badass!!” Jared let out.
It changed things, Jared started hitting the gym after that, and his confidence grew, Jensen was there every step of the way, he was stronger, braver, he felt taller and also he felt loved.
Jensen picked him up after school every now and then and they drove Jensen’s bike and everybody stared at them. Jared couldn’t care less.
The first Christmas they shared Jensen gave Jared a bike on his own and his first patch, even if Jared was just a partner not an official associate he was Jensen’s shadow, to the eyes of everyone; the one who kept him safe.
Jared started walking tall and muscles packed up very fast once the workout routine started.
***
Jared was watching TV, lazily sprawled on the couch waiting for Jensen, he still felt the dull sweet ache on his bottom from their love making that morning. And he closed his eyes remembering Jensen’s hands and lips on him and how good it felt having him inside.
“Look at you… ” Jensen growled from the door. “You’re fucking perfect…” the man walked towards him. Jensen kissed him and sat next to him taking the remote. “Jason and Amelia will meet with us later at Crowley’s ” Jared stiffened at the name of the bar, it was THE bar and he felt nausea. “Don’t worry; you don’t have to go… you don’t…” Jared moved closer to him, and Jensen caressed his side. “but… I’m starting business with Jason and…” Jared groaned.
“I... it still scares me Jay…” Jensen kissed his head as he rubbed his arms.
“I know, but you’re different now, you have to state your place among us by going with me in this kind of thing… but you don’t have to…” Jensen kissed Jared and moved so he was partially on top of his lover.
Jared sighed. “You’ll be there with me right?” Jensen nodded against his lips. “And I’ll be safe no matter what right?” Jensen nodded again as he planted an open mouthed kiss on his Adam’s apple. “Let me get a shower first…” and he left Jensen hanging while he ran to the bathroom.
“God…” Jensen groaned frustrated.
“You not coming?” teased from the door and tossed his boxers to him.
***
Jensen opened the door and Jared walked in behind his boyfriend, his hair was longer, and he didn’t felt like a prey, the first time he was scared and grossed out for the working girls and guys, now he felt different, everyone moved to a side for him to pass, and voices lowered, just few eyes turned to him. The guy behind the counter nodded at Jensen who held his lower back, a voice whispered on his ear. “Wait for me at the bar babe…” Jared nodded and saw Amelia, looking at him startled. He smiled and moved to her hugging the small woman. “ma’am…” he crowed after Jensen offered the same greeting.
“Look at you gorgeous!! You look awesome!!” she said while Jason and Jensen were making business on the back. They were talking about nothing and everything when someone sent a drink to Jared. Amelia smiled at him knowingly.
“Thanks Crowley, but no…” Jared pushed the drink away. The bartender shrugged and kept on his business. A second drink was sent while Amelia was discussing Jared’s bike. “I had one for a while… but I rather ride with my husband….” Blue eyes moved behind Jared as someone appeared there, the cold stare of the woman made Jared tense and look around ready to protect his new friend.
He saw brown eyes, eyes he knew well. “Zach…” he let out, as the man’s eyes traveled over his face, some small marks on his skin but mostly everything was gone, he had the same pretty face he obviously recognized.
“Wha… How.” Zach stammered as his hand crept on his back.
Jared wanted to cry, to smile to punch him in the face, he stood as tall as he was, Amelia was there and he couldn’t start a fight, Jason would kill him for risking her.
“Sorry, I gotta go…” Jared turned around and found Jensen was there smiling. It was poetic he just knew what to say. “I found another guy who likes me.”
Jason and Jensen shared one glance that had him nervous for a couple seconds, but once outside Jensen kissed him making him forget everything.
***
Jared was on the couch, it was summer already and he was lazily switching channels looking for something to watch until the red checkered shirt on the CSI guy’s hand called his attention, it was a news flash about a body found on a dumpster, brutally murdered and on top of him were a wad of bills. *Police reports states that this could be a mob crime..* Jared gasped for air, he knew the shirt, he had seen it few weeks before. *the evidence links this murder to the gang members killed last year since the bullet came from the same gun used in the murder of several members of the …* Jared didn’t heard the rest.
When Jensen entered Jared wanted ot ask, wanted to know. Jensen held him close. “What’s wrong?”
“Zach…??”
Jensen held his breath for a second. “He won’t touch you or anyone else ever again.” Jared let out a sob. “I did what I had to do to keep you safe forever…”
“I know.”
“I told you… I’m rotten…” Jared shook his head no. “you’re free to go if that creeps you out… ” Jared shook his head no again.
“I’m not going anywhere… ” Jensen smiled.
“Good…” he said as he wrapped his boy in his arms.
“Good” Jared repeated, he was safe, and as much as he wanted to he couldn’t even feel sorry for Zach.
The end.
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Author: Kali
Universe: Supernatural
Rating: +18
pairing: J2
A/N: I tend to think in the most absurd things while preparing myself for stress, this is something I'm actually considering on making amultiple chapter thing.
A/N2: tittles come from a country song Country Roads by John Denver (just don't ask me why)
****
It came as a ONE time thing for the SPN Kinkmeme HERE
Sequel/prequel/follow up: country roads
***
Jared was the kind of man that’ll never forget someone who did something for him.
But before this he lived completely at the mercy of Zach and well… if you see at the fading bruises and still sore spots he had nothing now.
He dropped out of school because his boyfriend was jealous of the time he was away from him; he stopped working because his boyfriend wanted him home. He stopped talking to his friends after the first time Zach hit him. It all made sense, at the time.
Now here he was thinking about a home he doesn’t have anymore and doing nothing more than eating his protector’s food and sleeping on his
protector’s guest room. He could easily kick him out any second.
“Hey kid…” the gruff voice called offering him a glass of something. “Just orange juice, not sure you’re ready for something else.”
Jared mumbled a thank you and Jensen sat at the other end of the couch. “You want to leave… don’t you?” Jared looked at him surprised. “I knew it… you’re… ” Jensen made a noncommittal gesture. “Why would you want to be around me…” and then moved out of the room.
That night Jared was waiting for Jensen, the man entered smelling like alcohol and leather and blood, he always smelled like blood.
“I…” he started still not enough confidence to let his thoughts out without fear. “I thought we could talk about… about me, leaving…” Jared sat and Jensen followed him.
“I get it, but you told me you have nothing, so give me a couple days and I’ll have something arranged for you, have a word or two with some decent friends that can help you.”
Jared does not want that, he wanted to tell Jensen he’d rather stay with him, but was too afraid of being whinny and needy, Zach used to say he was useless and that he was pathetic when he showed any emotion. Instead of saying things out loud he just nodded.
Jensen nodded back and caressed Jared’s hand and went back to his food.
It was a matter of days until Jensen told him he had something arranged; it was minimum wage job at a diner but was a start. “The place is clean and safe; you’ll go back to school right?” Jared once when he was still healing expressed his intention to go back to school, he left college when he was about to start his second year.
“I myself finished business school.” Jensen said smirking under his unkept beard. “Just fitting for my line of work, huh?” Jared laughed. “So… you know… I’m setting things so you can go back if you finally decide to do so.”
Jared was speechless the other man had no obligation. “You don’t have to.”
Jensen looked at Jared’s eyes. “I don’t have to, I want to, I want to make sure you’re safe and that you have what you want.”
Jared felt like crying.
___
The day Jared started working Jensen was on a two days business trip with his guys, as usual Jensen didn’t say what his business were about.
It was only on day four that Jensen finally entered the diner and smiled at him from the door, Jared was wearing a cute apron and carrying plates of waffles to awaiting costumers. Jensen’s mouth watered at the sight, ad he was not thinking about food.
“When you’re done you can take a break.” Shouted his boss; a lovely lady who was already smiling adoringly to Jensen.
So he hurried and came back in time to see Jensen sitting on one of the stools. “Can I offer you something?” Jared asked fumbling with his hands not knowing what to do with them.
“Tell me Nina has some of that pecan pie she bakes herself…” mumbled Jensen while his hand was already traveling to Jared’s.
“Of course I do honey.” She was already placing a plate in front of him with a generous serving of the pastry before leaving the boys to themselves.
“Her son was my friend, you know? Her husband was my first chief, I survived because of him and his son died a year before I became the chief.” Jensen filled his mouth and made a face of blissful joy. “It could have been me.”
Jared’s entire body shuddered at the idea of Jensen’s death. “Don’t worry sweetheart, I’m here, and I’m not planning on going away any time soon.” Jensen winked as he offered a spoonful to Jared.
Day after day Jared went to work and at the end of his shift Jensen was there to pick him up. Once Jensen offered Jared his bike to drive and when Jared said he didn’t know how they spent two weeks of nights for him to learn. They joked and laughed and once when Jared finally drove by himself Jensen hugged him and kissed his lips.
One day they were walking on the street a a couple girls were openly staring at them. “They fancy you.” Jensen informed with his mouth quirked up around his cigarette.
“Me?” Jared blushed, “no… why?”
Jensen’s look was something else, as if assessing if Jared was fishing for compliments or if he really had no idea of how hot he was. “You really
think nobody would look at you?”
Jared blushed deeply not looking at his friend in the face. “I know I’m not disgusting, but you’re here, next to you I’m just plain.”
Jensen throwed his smoke and got close. “wanna change that? Believe in yourself.” Jensen got close and straightened Jared’s shoulders in one pull. “Carry yourself tall, you’re gorgeous, you don’t have to walk as if you were sorry you’re using someone else’s space.” Jared puffed his chest for half a second before he just snorted and slumped his shoulders back.
“The night I met you, you were confident and secure…” Jared looked at him with wide eyes.
“That didn’t worked well for me…”
Jensen smiled. “I couldn’t take my eyes off of you, not only because you’re hot, also because the confident man there… that was something else.”
Jared laughed. “no one ever said they liked me like that…”
Jensen assessed him once more. “Then you’re hanging with the wrong people.” He started walking. “Come on…” they passed next to the girls who couldn’t take their eyes away from them. “Ladies…” Jensen nodded and offered them a dashing smile and the group giggled.
“You see? They were looking at you.” Jared said. Jensen stoped on his tracks and walked back.
Jared felt something nasty inside, why the man he loved would do that? Go back to talk to some girls. Jensen offered his hand and the girls took
it in turns, two of the girls looked to Jared and smiled, mocking him- Jared thought- look what we can have and you don’t. All of them offered Jensen his numbers and Jared saw as his friend came back to him. “See? Three out of five were interested in you…” Jensen offered him phone numbers written on his hand.
“Really?” Jared saw the numbers amazed.
“Now smile to the lovely ladies… don’t be rude.” Jensen made Jared turn and wave to them.
It took another two weeks of hanging/going out that Jensen took him to a small apartment; it was clean and was close to Jared’s job. “This is clean and safe, and I believe you’ve saved enough for the deposit…” he offered. “and it’s close enough to campus…”
Jared heart fell to the bottom of his stomach, it was like weaning him, very day he was offered a little bit more independence, and it should be good, but it broke his heart. “do you like it?” Jensen asked in a hopeful tone.
“No…” Jared felt like crying, but he had to say it, he had to speak his mind or he’ll lose Jensen. “I don’t want to move out of your place… I don’t want to live away from you…”
Jensen smiled a different smile that brought stars to his eyes and crinkled his face. “I was hoping you’ll say that.” He moved crowding Jared to the wall and kissed him. “I’ve been scared shitless that you’ll be ready to leave me…”
___
Jared was nervous while waiting for Jensen, it was ridiculous, they lived together, and they spent nights making out in the couch or Jared’s bed, but Jensen always stopped, always waited for Jared, and Jared was having a hard time not flash backing to his attack.
Tonight was a mark because Jensen asked him out when they walked back from work the night before. “We’ve been going out for almost three months…” offered Jared as he tried to rein the butterflies in his stomach.
“No… I’ve been hanging out with you for over three months, but I told you once, I wanted to take you out on a date…. And I want to do it now… if you want.”
Jared had to bite his lips before he embarrassed himself jumping and thanking Jensen for remembering. “Sure…” he let out in a sigh, controlling as hard as he could his excitement, Jensen only smiled, said good in a nonchalant tone and held his hand all the way home.
Jared was now trying his fourth – and last- shirt, Jensen knew all his clothes and it frustrated him.
In a very bold move he wandered into Jensen’s room and opened his closet, hanging there were a couple black shirts, a button down plaid, blue and black he remembered from the first time he saw Jensen, he was covered in it when he was brought to this mere house and he took it. His boyfriend might get mad but he didn’t care.
There was a knock on the door and Jared finished with his buttons, let out a breath and moved to answer, there was a giant guy, blue cold eyes on him. “I’m looking for Jay, the chief…” he asked.
Jared felt like cowering inside but something made him stand where he was, this was Jensen’s house and he’d at least try to protect it. He stood tall and crossed his arms to hide the fact that he was shaking.
“Not here. Sorry.”
Another guy from behind asked what happened and the first guy only hollered. “Chief isn’t here, his new enforcer…” the question in his tone directed to Jared. “…Says so.”
Enforcer… Jared blinked a couple times trying hard to keep his face straight, no way these guys who looked like what you don’t want to find on a dark alley at night would think he was any kind of enforcer.
“Too bad…” said the other climbing back on his bike. “Tell him Kevin and Ty came to pay his respects… and give the same to his new partner.”
Jared nodded and went back inside looking himself on the full body mirror behind the closet door, wearing his dark jeans and Jensen’s shirt he looked different, the small scars on his face gave him character, he laughed of that, character… a way to say he looked badass. His hair was longer and his cheeks filled out a little in the last weeks. He stood tall; he knew he was good looking, not Jensen good looking but… who could be.
He snorted and puffed his chest out. Yeah, he looked different from the naïve idiot Zach threatened to share around. Far different from the soft guy who entered on the wrong bar and hit on the wrong guy. And he felt proud of himself.
Another knock on the door and he walked the few steps, he opened in one pull to see a nervous man there, short hair shaved face, and freckles… it was Jensen and he looked so different. “Hi…” he said breathless, without the stubble and the longish hair he looked different, in a good way.
Jared was speechless; Jensen gruff and dirty looked gorgeous but this guy in front of him? He was GQ material, he was scratching his head and his rosy full lips were forming an O “wow…” Jensen finally let out. “You look great…”
“This is your shirt…” Jared confessed and Jensen blushed deeply without the facial hair it was obvious now.
“That makes it a thousand times hotter.” He confessed and offered Jared his hand. They smiled and walked to the car, Jensen’s baby. He opened the door for his date and Jared fell hot all over.
“OH!!” Jared said when they were walking from the restaurant to the movies. “Two guys came to your place…” and giggled. “They thought I was an enforcer…”
Jensen laughed. “A guy like you??” Jared was waiting for the mock. “Sure they were scared…”
“Of me?”
Jensen looked at him once more, the same befuddlement he shows every time Jared doubts himself. “Yeah… if you haven’t noticed your height is enough to scare anyone away, and with that shirt your shoulders look…” Jensen licked his lips and Jared blushed smiling coy.
“Stop it…”
“If I didn’t know you and saw you dressed like that? I’d think you’re badass too.” He moved a hand to Jared’s hair when they parked near the theatre. “I like your hair now, long enough to…” and he pulled a little making Jared gasp, a flash of pain and arousal filling him.
None of them remembers a thing about the movie; they spent most of the time making out.
They went home and finally Jensen made love to him, it was different and Jared cried when he came, there was no pain, or humiliation, no fear at all; Jensen gave everything he could to make him enjoy himself leaving him breathless and sated. Jared came harder than in his entire life, blacked out for a couple seconds, to wake up with Jensen holding him close and kissing his eye lids. “sorry… was I too rough?”
Jared giggled. “no.. it was perfect… you’re perfect.. I love you…”
“I love you too…” that was the first time they shared a bed, and Jared swore he’ll never again sleep away from Jensen.
***
It was a couple weeks after their first date that Jensen had to leave Jared alone on a bar to tend his business, “it won’t take long… I’m so sorry…” he looked around. “The guys aren’t here yet and I better take care of this soon.”
Jared said for the tenth time it was okay. “I’ll be here chilin’” he pointed to his beer “you don’t have to worry, I won’t do anything stupid.” Jensen leaned and stole a quick kiss.
“You better…” the smile was something to behold and Jared smiled back. “or I’ll make you pay…”
“you promise?” Jensen made a wounded sound, called him tease and kissed him again before marching back entrance.
But things went wrong, neither Kevin nor Ty had arrived and Jared saw red and white patches hidden under someone else’s jacket, he knew Jensen was in trouble, he tried calling him but his boyfriend didn’t answer.
He got up and saw something else, Robb and Jon were there too, both agitated and nervous, he saw a flash of blonde hair. He tried dialing for Ty but the phone went to message, same with pretty much all the guys Jared knew from Jensen’s associates.
He got up, walked slowly, calmed and controlled to the car and took the gun he knew Jensen had under his seat and ran back. Jared had no idea of what to do, he had no idea of how to shot a gun, but he needed to back Jensen up.
He ran to the alley and saw an image he thought he’d never see, a guy in a Lakers tracksuit had Jason, the guy who hurt Jared, on his knees; Jensen was standing right behind Jason.
“Two birds with one stone…” repeated the guy in a heavy Latin accent.”
Jared was about to move when someone held his hand, it was Amelia.
“He has four men, we’re outnumbered, and if you want them to be safe we have to wait until Rob and Jon give us a sign”
Jared felt like time stopped while waiting.
***
Jensen had to leave Jared, he’d seen the white and red, colors that were his natural enemies, he had to take care of his business and leave, and he couldn’t risk Jared.
He tried calling associates but nobody was around, he even made a formal call for backup and all Jensen had to do was wait.
“It’s gonna be fast, Sir…” offered the latino guy, “I just want three packs and if my boss is pleased we’ll be making business more often…” but something on his greasy ways made him suspect something.
Put of nowhere they heard the buzzing sound of a tazzer and Jensen looked around to see another latino still holding the tazzer gun in Jason’s direction, the guy who hurt Jared was about to die in front of him.
“Two heads, so easy to get two chiefs, huh? Horses and Mongols !!” shouted the latino guy while another one with a stupid tracksuit appeared pulling a 9 mm gun out of his pants. “Reyes will control everything around here now ese.” He turned to his companion. “tráete el auto, les vamos a cortas las cabezas y se va poner chingado aquí.” The other guy moved fast after just one nod. “Look at you guys, dos pajaros de un tiro… two birds with one stone…” he let out a disgusting laughter.
“You’re dead meat.” Jared appeared behind him pointing the .38 against his head. “Jensen?”
“Marco!!! Hector!!” shouted the man and Jared jolted surprised, he was ready to fly, but Rob appeared on one corner and Jon right behind both covered in blood.
Jensen smirked. “Don’t kill him, we’re gonna set an example.” Jensen moved to get the gun from Jared’s hand.
“Amelia said there’s still one man…” Jared let out and Jensen nodded.
Out of nowhere and screaming as if it were a movie a guy came running, gun drawn as he shot two rounds, Jared coiled behind Jensen and Jason moved a step away to the wall, from behind him a shotgun was fired and Amelia was walking toward them shotgun still in hands smoking barrel on her hands.
“See?” Jason pulled the wires out of the thick muscle on his chest. “She’s the best…”
Hasty footsteps were heard and Ty and Kevin appeared. “I’m sorry Jensen, I swear… we did what we could but Angels stopped us…”
Jensen nodded and turned to Jason and Amelia, their men standing right behind them, all in awkward silence, tense bodies and guns ready.
“Thank you…” offered Jared.
“Thank you, boy…” Jason’s arm was curled around Amelia’s middle. “It’s the second time you have my wife’s life in your hands.” he faced Jensen. “I might have to repay you this time.”
Jensen moved to hold Jared’s hand. “I might take that offer... and we might have to work together to get rid of that scum…” he pointed to the guy still standing there. “Ty, take care of it…”
In the distance the sound of a siren called their attention.
They only nodded to each other and everyone parted on their way.
Before leaving Amelia got close to Jared. “I’m sorry… we were very tight on money and… I know is not excuse… ” she offered in half words.
Jared knew what she meant. “Don’t worry, I’m okay now and happy, and Jensen… he’s good with me now.”
The girl smiled and nodded. “I know…” she looked at her husband. “I was a small little girl when he found me and he turned me into a dragon.” Jason stopped and turned looking for her; she moved to him smiling. The obvious dragon tattoo on her back was the exact place where her husband placed his hand.
Jensen didn’t say anything until they were back in the parking lot, right next to the car. He sent Kevin to warn the others about the angels saying there was no need to engage in fights. He pointed the other door to Jared and climbed in silence, Jared hardly closed the door before Jensen’s engine roared and he dashed away.
“I’m sorry…” offered Jared, but Jensen silenced him with one gesture.
He just parked at the side of the road and got out of the car, Jared followed, he knew that if he didn’t vent up once and for all, things will get uglier. “Jensen, please.…”
The man turned and stalked to him, making Jared cower in fear, when the hands held him he flinched knowing of the pain to come. “you stupid, stupid…” Jared gasped in fear as he was held by his shirt and pulled towards something hard.
“…Stupid boy…” and Jensen hugged him. “so stupid and so fucking brave…” Jared breathing was hitched in terror and he was stunned, why Jensen called him brave? And why the pain never came?
“I’m sorry…”
Jensen pulled him away looking into his eyes. “No… I’m sorry; I put you in a position where you had to risk your life…”
Jared smiled when Jensen closed the distance between them and kissed his lips. “don’t you ever put yourself in danger for me…” he hissed against his lips, beer and something bitter on his breath. “I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose you.”
Jared smiled faintly. “Even Amelia fights… ”
“Amelia can go to hell for all that I care… you won’t be risking yourself for me…”
Jared tried to move away and defend his point. “Amelia fights because Jason and she are a team…” Jensen swallowed audible but Jared pressed his point. “I just…”
Jensen moved close again and caressed his cheek. “Okay…” Jared did a double take. “Okay… you can be my team, but first you’ll start learning, guns and other stuff, and only when you’re not at school”
Jared let out a chuckle. “I’d be a weekend’s tug?” both laughed for a while before Jensen asked for his gun.
“You looked so damn fine there, all tall and dangerous pointing this to his face…”
“I felt damn badass!!” Jared let out.
It changed things, Jared started hitting the gym after that, and his confidence grew, Jensen was there every step of the way, he was stronger, braver, he felt taller and also he felt loved.
Jensen picked him up after school every now and then and they drove Jensen’s bike and everybody stared at them. Jared couldn’t care less.
The first Christmas they shared Jensen gave Jared a bike on his own and his first patch, even if Jared was just a partner not an official associate he was Jensen’s shadow, to the eyes of everyone; the one who kept him safe.
Jared started walking tall and muscles packed up very fast once the workout routine started.
***
Jared was watching TV, lazily sprawled on the couch waiting for Jensen, he still felt the dull sweet ache on his bottom from their love making that morning. And he closed his eyes remembering Jensen’s hands and lips on him and how good it felt having him inside.
“Look at you… ” Jensen growled from the door. “You’re fucking perfect…” the man walked towards him. Jensen kissed him and sat next to him taking the remote. “Jason and Amelia will meet with us later at Crowley’s ” Jared stiffened at the name of the bar, it was THE bar and he felt nausea. “Don’t worry; you don’t have to go… you don’t…” Jared moved closer to him, and Jensen caressed his side. “but… I’m starting business with Jason and…” Jared groaned.
“I... it still scares me Jay…” Jensen kissed his head as he rubbed his arms.
“I know, but you’re different now, you have to state your place among us by going with me in this kind of thing… but you don’t have to…” Jensen kissed Jared and moved so he was partially on top of his lover.
Jared sighed. “You’ll be there with me right?” Jensen nodded against his lips. “And I’ll be safe no matter what right?” Jensen nodded again as he planted an open mouthed kiss on his Adam’s apple. “Let me get a shower first…” and he left Jensen hanging while he ran to the bathroom.
“God…” Jensen groaned frustrated.
“You not coming?” teased from the door and tossed his boxers to him.
***
Jensen opened the door and Jared walked in behind his boyfriend, his hair was longer, and he didn’t felt like a prey, the first time he was scared and grossed out for the working girls and guys, now he felt different, everyone moved to a side for him to pass, and voices lowered, just few eyes turned to him. The guy behind the counter nodded at Jensen who held his lower back, a voice whispered on his ear. “Wait for me at the bar babe…” Jared nodded and saw Amelia, looking at him startled. He smiled and moved to her hugging the small woman. “ma’am…” he crowed after Jensen offered the same greeting.
“Look at you gorgeous!! You look awesome!!” she said while Jason and Jensen were making business on the back. They were talking about nothing and everything when someone sent a drink to Jared. Amelia smiled at him knowingly.
“Thanks Crowley, but no…” Jared pushed the drink away. The bartender shrugged and kept on his business. A second drink was sent while Amelia was discussing Jared’s bike. “I had one for a while… but I rather ride with my husband….” Blue eyes moved behind Jared as someone appeared there, the cold stare of the woman made Jared tense and look around ready to protect his new friend.
He saw brown eyes, eyes he knew well. “Zach…” he let out, as the man’s eyes traveled over his face, some small marks on his skin but mostly everything was gone, he had the same pretty face he obviously recognized.
“Wha… How.” Zach stammered as his hand crept on his back.
Jared wanted to cry, to smile to punch him in the face, he stood as tall as he was, Amelia was there and he couldn’t start a fight, Jason would kill him for risking her.
“Sorry, I gotta go…” Jared turned around and found Jensen was there smiling. It was poetic he just knew what to say. “I found another guy who likes me.”
Jason and Jensen shared one glance that had him nervous for a couple seconds, but once outside Jensen kissed him making him forget everything.
***
Jared was on the couch, it was summer already and he was lazily switching channels looking for something to watch until the red checkered shirt on the CSI guy’s hand called his attention, it was a news flash about a body found on a dumpster, brutally murdered and on top of him were a wad of bills. *Police reports states that this could be a mob crime..* Jared gasped for air, he knew the shirt, he had seen it few weeks before. *the evidence links this murder to the gang members killed last year since the bullet came from the same gun used in the murder of several members of the …* Jared didn’t heard the rest.
When Jensen entered Jared wanted ot ask, wanted to know. Jensen held him close. “What’s wrong?”
“Zach…??”
Jensen held his breath for a second. “He won’t touch you or anyone else ever again.” Jared let out a sob. “I did what I had to do to keep you safe forever…”
“I know.”
“I told you… I’m rotten…” Jared shook his head no. “you’re free to go if that creeps you out… ” Jared shook his head no again.
“I’m not going anywhere… ” Jensen smiled.
“Good…” he said as he wrapped his boy in his arms.
“Good” Jared repeated, he was safe, and as much as he wanted to he couldn’t even feel sorry for Zach.
The end.
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Special thanks to
ohwillothewisp
