so went to solve my life, I have my paycheck wich is tragically short... its ok, I still have money and I'll be fine for a while, no plastic needed so good thing.

What else? sunday I'm on call again, life is great!!

What else? I was reading old posts about the time when I was intern and how obsessed I was with a guy, and how worried about asmall kidney problem that scared me to no end, my renal function is great, and I'm being a good girl taking my meds when i need them and then nothing more.

About the guy? well I have a different superman now, a real one, not a sissy ass pig a real Superman that will die for his friends and his country. The weirdest part this superman is actually a supergirl, ME; a more mature, military trained woman. I'm all grown up and proud of it.

ok aside of my personal growing rant, my eyes burn... and Last night saw the Song remains the same, again, let me tell ya all this epi made me cry, when they decide its better never been born I astarted crying, the sadness of their resgination, and then cried more when Mary said she was already pregnant.

The whole epi made me cry, not because I'm over sensitive but because it was amazing!!

I was in hell!!
She just screamt I'm inlove with D, I took good pics today, and was kinda interesting at the end.
Had more pics finally a decent one of D I guess.
I have no holydays this season
tomorrow and saturday and I'm done with Med school I can't believe it!!
I thought I'll never see this day!!
just two more days and that's all!!
in the other hand I'm stillscared of my life... I'm scared of grown up and being me, alone without parent's money. I hope things get better soon.
I have so many hopes here...
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two teachers toldme that I'll bealright on internship, that i'm good enough to treat real persons by my own... I'm still in heaven with that, I'm gonna be finally able to help those that so far only saw in pain.
my ANA is positive again.
and I'm scared lol
its ok, D is there for me, I can't believe it!! he said so

Prozac... do not use it with Alcohol!!!
Do not use it without medical advice
Do not use it Period!!

tons of things to do!!
and so small time

I spent lots of time talking with him as usual.
D is so fucking special!!
I'd love to kiss him. I'd love tyo be with him and if all i can get is friendship that's gona be perfect fo rme, I just love him apart of romance and being inlove I just love him.
in a week or so I'll be ready I guess, I'm gonna be an inter can you believe it? I still can't lol

it happened, we met, and I was sad, things are weird and I'm tired
Kisses

last day without him, is suposed to be here tomorrow arround this time and I'm all hyper with the idea i can't think straight, i can't think about it or anything anymore.. life is such a bitch i'm sure he's gonna tell me he's married already and I'm sure he's gonna be forcing detail of that on my throat for the rest of the cheap month we have together...

anyway life can't be that bad.
Orlando, I can dream about him and forget all i can Dennis at least I'm gonna try, I'm even thinking about pills or a heart removing surgery to get rid of this pain...

OB for Kal

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I know, I know I'm pathetic but i miss him more than imaginable
last night I saw KoH yet again.. and well orlando is a sweet but his acting (even thou I think he's getting better) wasn't good at all.
I saw a movie with Daisy too, david was very good in DUST.
loved him very much, his death... OH!! made me remember Mercutio lol
he's just perfect, and so sweet.
anyway .
life goes and goes and I'm still here doing nothing, one day that might change, like in six weeks, even if dennis is not here with me anymore.
in six weeks I'm gonna be an intern isn't that scary?
it is at least for me. I'm ending up Lily, hopefully i'll post it here for xmass.. if I have the chance

Halloween, vispera de dia de muertos, primer dia de todos santos
where ever you are and no matter which one of this things means candies and pastries to you... the point is that you have sweets lol.

is the first day w/o him and I thought it would be worst, it wasn't that bad, I ate my weight in candies but I'm ok and i'm gonna go trought this without help, maybe a diabetic coma...

twelve days.. I don't know what i'm gonna do, if I end up going postal killing every couple on streets I'll tell you. lol
in the other hand I have just four more weeks of real practice before being ready for internship,and its scary as hell, what if I kill somebody?

anyway
happy Halloween, another year I can't beliueve it, I had my Eowyn dress and sword ready fo rtonight and noticed that I was suposed to go with Dennis and since he's back withh Roberta.. well i have no date for tonight *sigh*
I'll wait for trick-or-treaters




hey some funny and hut stuff
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just one more day and He'll be gone for two WHOLE weeks!!
can you believe it?
well I do, I'm even scared thinking that maybe he'll back with his soon to be wife, and I just can't imagine that, Tito says he'll help me but seem s like a realy hard task
anyway just one month and if I get lucky I'll no longer suffer this pain.I want him in my life but I'm not gonna see her near at all.

Kises

still blue still worried...
still dreaming with something that is not mine, Dennis.
we laughed, we flirted and we had fun I'm gonna see him tomorrow and I'm still praying soRoberta will not be allowed back here and that he get internship here with me, I'll do my best to keep him with me.

in other news peace but tense weather.
life suck ass sometimes.

Kisses[weave]