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Szarabasjka
Jan. 1st, 2019 09:31 am
THIS STORY WAS STARTED BACK IN 2005, AND STARTED TO BE TYPED HERE IN 2007 AND YET i NEVER GET TO FINISH IT, SO SORRY TO THOSE WHO ACCEPTED THE FAILED TASK TO BETA ME ON IT.
Tittle :Szarabasjka
Rating: G the whole story
Gender: Fantasy
Characters: characters created thinking on actors you'll figure it out.
Sumary: Lilly has a faith to fulfill after she lost everything she becomes something else.
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An old warrior turned his head hearing voices and cries, his granddaughter had in hands one of the wooden swords he use to train the knights.
He had been a great warrior, brave and strong, and he was still, but now also trained knights for his king, one of them got close to inform about the kids.
"Her brother and the young Blanchard were bothering her again" he said as some of the men laughed at the little girl’s attempt to fight off the bigger boys.
Sir Arthur watched as the kids kept fighting "Enough!!!" yelled his brother "let go" hitting her hand with his sword making her drop hers and cry running away embarrased.
“Owen!” The old man called his grandson while walking to the two boys. “Come here you two!” The two strong kids get close. Only a year or so apart from each other Owen was only a little more built than his friend.
"Yes Sir." They answered in unison.
"How old is you sister" Asked him serious
"seven" said together again
"and mistreating a seven year old girl is alright?"
"we were just having fun" answered the smaller one
"listen to me John, mistreating people is always fun for those who are more powerful, that's how the tyrants are made" and to his grandson again "who greet you when you arrive home, tired and sore?"
"Lilly" said not understanding, his grandfather took one of the swords from the floor
"what would happen to you if she were not there?" Owen lowered his eyes "you no longer have your mothers nor your father, you only have each other, and your job is to look after her" the older man kept talking to the kids " both your job, what would happen if she stop loving you two?" they looked at each other "go clean yourselves we have guests for dinner" watched them walking away and turned, he knew exactly where to find her, she was near to a tombstone talking to it "she's not gonna help you nut" The girl turned her eyes, They weren't red, she wasn't crying, wasn't sad, Lilly was angry "what's the matter?" asked once he got next to Lilly
"Owen..." She spat angrily. "He beat me because I'm weak." Her hand was bleeding but she didn't seem to notice it. Gently, her grandfather took it and wrapped it in with a clean cloth from his pocket.
"I don't think so ... you're not trained like they are." She made two tries to talk but finally decided to remain silent "Come... show me that swing you did with the sword." He said as he gave her the wooden one he carried. Taking the real one from his belt and he watched her swing the blade again. She was strong and had great ability "Where did you learn that?"
"Watching... Rhys has been trying it months, he can't do it, right?"
"True..." he couldn't hide a smile measuring her "You could beat Owen." He turned and started walking back to the castle with her. “After Piano come to the yard, you're not weak, and you'll use the exercise to build your strength."
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FINALLY!!afte3r a life time this story is DONE!!! it is still poorly revised, but I'm on it now, so calm your horses people, and let me check okay?
STILL!! let me know if I made obvious big mistakes please remember I'm an over-tired resident with no strenght to keep her grammar.
Meme fills Masterpost (WIP)
Apr. 11th, 2018 09:56 pmI've been filling prompts for the SPN kinkmeme - don't judge I was told that my writing could improve if I try different things and it kinda did- So here you have my Masterpost, I'm still working on it, so if any of you guys knows of one of them that's missing let me know so I can get the link here.
A/N: some fics are now on my AO3 account so don't worry if you're redirected there.
Autocorrect Castiel and his inability to text (1/1)
Hope Meg carrying Cas' baby 5 parts complete.
Don't you cry no more Abandoned pets, Animal!jeff, Jensen/&Tahmoh, Misha complete
Gentle mother Castiel praying before a battle 3 parts complete.
Aching dean, sam; sacrifice,/devotion
Angels nest FILL for an art request: Dean/Jo/Castiel, wing snuggling
Crazy Love sort of Telephatic bond
If I had just One more Day J2 asshole!jensen/Jared H/C, happy ending complete.
Do you Hear What I Hear Castiel left in awe gen complete
Take Me Home J2 Jared hits on the wrong guy Jensn has to save him. Complete. (Jared/Jensen, hurt/comfort, homophobia, savior kink)
Back To Heaven J2 PreShalsh H/C complete
Coming Back J2 One motorist, one recluse, one clod night complete.
Beating Heart In The Flesh Supernatural RPF AU, J2, complete
Healing Wounds Jensen/Misha about the time J2 went too far teasing MIsha on set. complete
Chasing it Death by Djin poison. gen
Heartbeat J2, one line prompt *You said your heart would always beat for me. Why can't I hear it now?*
Lost Wincest, one line prompt *You said your heart would always beat for me. Why can't I hear it now?*
Special order J2 coffeshop AU
Big News Jared/Gen, A/B/O, Mpreg, Fpreg
Love Of My life J2 death!fic, one cannot survive without the other, this one is a self fill, tried to let it go, but the muse came one night and it only took a day or two (and then forgot it and answered my own post feeling like such a douche)
Do it for Daddy Jeff/Jensen daddykink
Show me (Fill for the meme that I inda linked to my personal LJ for reasons.) J2, homophobia, Love is something you have to prove is real.
Hope is a dangerous thing to lose J2 being kicked out of the closet and being bullied Jared is sent to a boarding school where a kid just killed himself.
Over Sam and Dean's breakup S10 finale spoiilers
At 2am J2 non-con turning, torture and others, graphic violence, angst, the omega wins at the end.
Friend of my brother, my brother Dean/Cas, Sam/Cas, shift of affections.
At Home underage, molesting of aminor, happy ending
Lady Dragon Danneel/Jensen spanking, discipline, all consenting.
Farewell J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
Sentence J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
The Smell of coconut and hazelnut J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
Castus and the Light lost the prompt Gabriel gen fic winning a yes from the vessel
Not everyone wants to hurt you J2 angst, virgin!jensen determined!Jared, (this one made me travel for a week to avoid the memoeries)
If I don't have you J2 non-con turning, castration protectiveness, happy ending (this one will be edited and reposted soon)
Cowboy hat Strong past abuse non con Jensen, Gen
Viral Video J2, falling in love, lvoe at first sigh
Custom-Made
Break Away
Words
Still Alpha
Wear a Condom
I'd love to know you like my stories or that you have read them so... any comment would be largely appreciated, even if anon.
thank you all for putting up with my rambling.
A/N: some fics are now on my AO3 account so don't worry if you're redirected there.
Autocorrect Castiel and his inability to text (1/1)
Hope Meg carrying Cas' baby 5 parts complete.
Don't you cry no more Abandoned pets, Animal!jeff, Jensen/&Tahmoh, Misha complete
Gentle mother Castiel praying before a battle 3 parts complete.
Aching dean, sam; sacrifice,/devotion
Angels nest FILL for an art request: Dean/Jo/Castiel, wing snuggling
Crazy Love sort of Telephatic bond
If I had just One more Day J2 asshole!jensen/Jared H/C, happy ending complete.
Do you Hear What I Hear Castiel left in awe gen complete
Take Me Home J2 Jared hits on the wrong guy Jensn has to save him. Complete. (Jared/Jensen, hurt/comfort, homophobia, savior kink)
Back To Heaven J2 PreShalsh H/C complete
Coming Back J2 One motorist, one recluse, one clod night complete.
Beating Heart In The Flesh Supernatural RPF AU, J2, complete
Healing Wounds Jensen/Misha about the time J2 went too far teasing MIsha on set. complete
Chasing it Death by Djin poison. gen
Heartbeat J2, one line prompt *You said your heart would always beat for me. Why can't I hear it now?*
Lost Wincest, one line prompt *You said your heart would always beat for me. Why can't I hear it now?*
Special order J2 coffeshop AU
Big News Jared/Gen, A/B/O, Mpreg, Fpreg
Love Of My life J2 death!fic, one cannot survive without the other, this one is a self fill, tried to let it go, but the muse came one night and it only took a day or two (and then forgot it and answered my own post feeling like such a douche)
Do it for Daddy Jeff/Jensen daddykink
Show me (Fill for the meme that I inda linked to my personal LJ for reasons.) J2, homophobia, Love is something you have to prove is real.
Hope is a dangerous thing to lose J2 being kicked out of the closet and being bullied Jared is sent to a boarding school where a kid just killed himself.
Over Sam and Dean's breakup S10 finale spoiilers
At 2am J2 non-con turning, torture and others, graphic violence, angst, the omega wins at the end.
Friend of my brother, my brother Dean/Cas, Sam/Cas, shift of affections.
At Home underage, molesting of aminor, happy ending
Lady Dragon Danneel/Jensen spanking, discipline, all consenting.
Farewell J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
Sentence J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
The Smell of coconut and hazelnut J2, final moments together for a long time...or forever.
Castus and the Light lost the prompt Gabriel gen fic winning a yes from the vessel
Not everyone wants to hurt you J2 angst, virgin!jensen determined!Jared, (this one made me travel for a week to avoid the memoeries)
If I don't have you J2 non-con turning, castration protectiveness, happy ending (this one will be edited and reposted soon)
Cowboy hat Strong past abuse non con Jensen, Gen
Viral Video J2, falling in love, lvoe at first sigh
Custom-Made
Break Away
Words
Still Alpha
Wear a Condom
I'd love to know you like my stories or that you have read them so... any comment would be largely appreciated, even if anon.
thank you all for putting up with my rambling.
Stories/fiction master post
Mar. 23rd, 2018 11:39 pmYeah... I know nobody actually read my fics even less original stories, but now and then I need to read some because I kinda want to edit and enhace bits and so.. and I have to go all the way scrolling down to 2004 and it's annoying since I never actually kept them in one magic post...
Here we go:
( Ufinished )
( SUPERNATURAL )
( Dean Winchester's Birthdays series )
( CRIMINAL MINDS )
( ORIGINAL STORIES )
( Like Real Life series )
( Others )
Here we go:
( Ufinished )
( SUPERNATURAL )
( Dean Winchester's Birthdays series )
( CRIMINAL MINDS )
( ORIGINAL STORIES )
( Like Real Life series )
( Others )
Let me tell you a serious story.
Feb. 10th, 2018 11:47 am let me tell you a story about a kid that got a small procedure done on her ankle.
let me tell you about a doctor on a haste to leave her shift in order to have a life.
let me tell you about a girl without a doctor for about three hours
let me tell you about a second doctor getting out of ICU shift tired and in pain and getting called back to a different service to help wth a girl that was unstable.
let me tell you about a girl rushed into ICU after a small procedure and two doctors fighting for her life from 4 pm to 2:30 am with no luck.
let me tell you about heartbreak and tears.
let me tell you about how things change, and how those worried about their "own life" should be blamed for this.
let me tell you a story on how I got in the middle of a mess bigger than the fucking big bang because a nurse thougt I could help when others negected their responsabilities.
let me tell you of a day and a night in total panic and fear, and another couple days where i got the backup of doctors, chiefs, and even interns who will declare I'm the one who helped there.
let me tell you about how in such a small period of time i feel like my life has changed, I became something else.
Let me tell you about my ego growing more than the Grinch's heart because respectable doctors said I'm great at what i do and said I have their entire support.
let me tell you of shows of respect, and love and appreciation never seen in my poor pathetic life.
let me tell you about this morning when finally justice was served and I was cleared.
Let me tell you of my first night at home to sleep in peace. and Dr D's kind words to help me rest
and let me tell you one thing there's such a thing called Takotsubo syndrom and should never be taken lightly
that's the story.
let me tell you about a doctor on a haste to leave her shift in order to have a life.
let me tell you about a girl without a doctor for about three hours
let me tell you about a second doctor getting out of ICU shift tired and in pain and getting called back to a different service to help wth a girl that was unstable.
let me tell you about a girl rushed into ICU after a small procedure and two doctors fighting for her life from 4 pm to 2:30 am with no luck.
let me tell you about heartbreak and tears.
let me tell you about how things change, and how those worried about their "own life" should be blamed for this.
let me tell you a story on how I got in the middle of a mess bigger than the fucking big bang because a nurse thougt I could help when others negected their responsabilities.
let me tell you of a day and a night in total panic and fear, and another couple days where i got the backup of doctors, chiefs, and even interns who will declare I'm the one who helped there.
let me tell you about how in such a small period of time i feel like my life has changed, I became something else.
Let me tell you about my ego growing more than the Grinch's heart because respectable doctors said I'm great at what i do and said I have their entire support.
let me tell you of shows of respect, and love and appreciation never seen in my poor pathetic life.
let me tell you about this morning when finally justice was served and I was cleared.
Let me tell you of my first night at home to sleep in peace. and Dr D's kind words to help me rest
and let me tell you one thing there's such a thing called Takotsubo syndrom and should never be taken lightly
that's the story.
I can hardly keep my eyes open, but I had to say something.
my job is awful, too many hours, too many complications and rumors to end all and every reputation... since Aparently i was hired becasue "I'm my old teacher's mistress", screw that I was offered the position due to my experience and CV.
so yeah... that.
R and me will be going out tomorrow!! too bad i work 24 hours on sunday so I can't ven stay with him.
good night people
my job is awful, too many hours, too many complications and rumors to end all and every reputation... since Aparently i was hired becasue "I'm my old teacher's mistress", screw that I was offered the position due to my experience and CV.
so yeah... that.
R and me will be going out tomorrow!! too bad i work 24 hours on sunday so I can't ven stay with him.
good night people
Guys... I'm kinda worried
Jan. 12th, 2018 11:58 pm remember when i was innocent and nive and thought this job was a good idea with a far better enviroment than the last one? I was SOOOO wrong!!
first of all there are people leaving every now and then like in any jobm the bad part is when one of the long time ones sudenly is fired in front of patients and staff.
it was so humiliating!! it was horrible.
it only results in one thing, I'm havig even more time now.
Next.
R and I kinda worked our differences before new years eve, and we're on far better good terms, in such good terms I spent my only three free hours yesterday with him just diriving around because neither of us dared to go anywhere for the risk of me falling asleep.
he's the sweetest tolerating my exhausted ass and being sweet.
and then he has to scare me shitless with his crazy ideas.
Why am I saying that? because R asked me to move in with him, we're not together for one year and he wants to live with me? me? with the hectic insane shcedule and almost zero free time? what is wrong with him??? should I mention his kid still hates me?
first of all there are people leaving every now and then like in any jobm the bad part is when one of the long time ones sudenly is fired in front of patients and staff.
it was so humiliating!! it was horrible.
it only results in one thing, I'm havig even more time now.
Next.
R and I kinda worked our differences before new years eve, and we're on far better good terms, in such good terms I spent my only three free hours yesterday with him just diriving around because neither of us dared to go anywhere for the risk of me falling asleep.
he's the sweetest tolerating my exhausted ass and being sweet.
and then he has to scare me shitless with his crazy ideas.
Why am I saying that? because R asked me to move in with him, we're not together for one year and he wants to live with me? me? with the hectic insane shcedule and almost zero free time? what is wrong with him??? should I mention his kid still hates me?
what should I do? I like him yes, but even if he has said the L word I never said it back, to me it is too soon.
I'm freaking out, I went far from where I usually run away and now I'm so out of my depth I have no idea of what to do!!
HELP!!
I'm freaking out, I went far from where I usually run away and now I'm so out of my depth I have no idea of what to do!!
HELP!!
I'd have a blue Christmas
Dec. 22nd, 2017 11:13 pm yeah.. I'm not really festive sicne rand I won't be spending Christmas together... the job got better, the whole place s not as horrible as it used to look like.
problem is... it's quite busy.
I am supposed to be there around 80 hourts week but in real life it's more like 120 hours a week which is INSANE!! at least i had no time to feel misserable or depressed.
I even got the time to see some friends, something i haven't donde since last year... I'm so much better right now.
Sis Louise and bro Franz are coming for Christmas and with good luck things will go alright.
OOH!! and I have the day before and Christmas off so YAY!!!
Merry Christmas you all
problem is... it's quite busy.
I am supposed to be there around 80 hourts week but in real life it's more like 120 hours a week which is INSANE!! at least i had no time to feel misserable or depressed.
I even got the time to see some friends, something i haven't donde since last year... I'm so much better right now.
Sis Louise and bro Franz are coming for Christmas and with good luck things will go alright.
OOH!! and I have the day before and Christmas off so YAY!!!
Merry Christmas you all
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Nov. 27th, 2017 06:17 pm I have noticed something.
all of the amazing peoplei used to follow on LJ ad oter sites are getting old or tired of journals/blogs and leaving and i ave this weird feeling of being left alone on a party.i do have -lilke I bet most of them- real life stuff to deal with before this thing but still miss them all.
I long for a time when i spent the afternoon reading nonsense and laughing,
-0-
last saturday R was waiting for me outside work but he got tired because I was almost 30 mins late and left right when i was coming out.it realy hurt, things are not as good as they used to be, so much we havent even called each other since then, not to mention that now I'm a far more busy person than i was when we started dating.
-o-
backback baaaaack in the time when I was just a low med student in their first hospital practice I met this guy, an already somewhat famous specialist; now a real big name, D, happens that I'm working with him now, and he is an amazing person who does remember me... that's the problem with me, i'm not easy to forget but I'm impossible to remember lol.
-o-
I simply stopped writing, not even a couple lilnes a day, it feels wrong in some way...
-0-
so that life is messy and my head is disperse....
all of the amazing peoplei used to follow on LJ ad oter sites are getting old or tired of journals/blogs and leaving and i ave this weird feeling of being left alone on a party.i do have -lilke I bet most of them- real life stuff to deal with before this thing but still miss them all.
I long for a time when i spent the afternoon reading nonsense and laughing,
-0-
last saturday R was waiting for me outside work but he got tired because I was almost 30 mins late and left right when i was coming out.it realy hurt, things are not as good as they used to be, so much we havent even called each other since then, not to mention that now I'm a far more busy person than i was when we started dating.
-o-
backback baaaaack in the time when I was just a low med student in their first hospital practice I met this guy, an already somewhat famous specialist; now a real big name, D, happens that I'm working with him now, and he is an amazing person who does remember me... that's the problem with me, i'm not easy to forget but I'm impossible to remember lol.
-o-
I simply stopped writing, not even a couple lilnes a day, it feels wrong in some way...
-0-
so that life is messy and my head is disperse....
I haven't seen Thor yet....
Nov. 10th, 2017 11:15 pm Why? OH!! because R doesn't want to go whernI have time... and makes it sound as if I don't want to go because I WORK!
grrrr I knw he was too perfect to be real...
anyway today I watched once more Me Before you and started crying around the middle of it, every time Clarcks accepts she has stopped living because of her family.
and also at the bumble bee tights part because, can you imagine what a perfect ass he was? if he was bitter and had given up but had the heart to give such thoughtfull presents?
I so hated him from the very first time for not staying, I so hate him for not wanting to stay.
anyway...
New Zealand All WHites play against Peru in like 15 mins and I'll lose two hours of sleep to watch the game...!!
what else?
Oh yeah... remember me up at 6 either if I had nothing to do at all? well happens that I'm a bear now... I'm sleeping up to ten hours and wake up as if i haven't had a blink of sleep. I think I'm brooken...or depresed or something.
so yeah that.
how are things for you all guys?
have a nice week!
grrrr I knw he was too perfect to be real...
anyway today I watched once more Me Before you and started crying around the middle of it, every time Clarcks accepts she has stopped living because of her family.
and also at the bumble bee tights part because, can you imagine what a perfect ass he was? if he was bitter and had given up but had the heart to give such thoughtfull presents?
I so hated him from the very first time for not staying, I so hate him for not wanting to stay.
anyway...
New Zealand All WHites play against Peru in like 15 mins and I'll lose two hours of sleep to watch the game...!!
what else?
Oh yeah... remember me up at 6 either if I had nothing to do at all? well happens that I'm a bear now... I'm sleeping up to ten hours and wake up as if i haven't had a blink of sleep. I think I'm brooken...or depresed or something.
so yeah that.
how are things for you all guys?
have a nice week!
In lights of recent events I want to point out some things.
Supernatural has one of the biggest fanbases in the world.
And Supernatural family is great. We as fandom helped to change big things, we as fandom got to accomplish so much.
And what brought us to this fandom, what brought us to unite and change the world with the help of this small show are these three guys that act on it; Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki and Misha Collins.
They’re awesome, selfless, respectful, sweet, kind and giving, and over the years the way they interact with us fans have changed from celebrity/fan to almost family.
I know, we -at least most of us- don’t know them for real, meeting a public persona is never the same than meeting the person, but for many of us it’s been almost 14 years, some others more, and the things about them that have never changed are their love for their families, their respect for others and the fact that they -following Misha’s example- want to make the world a bit better each day by reaching out to us fans.
So when one of them say something as any other person would have, we don’t take it bad, like you wouldn’t be offended by an uncle or a cousin overexcited words.
So when one of them makes a joke that was wrongly turned into a “rape joke” it does not only affect him or them, since the other J just had to be there too.
Most of us fans are not fandom blind, it was harmless and were an answer fans prodded and prodded for, even after Jared said his jokes are always inappropriate.
Let’s be honest, most of us wouldn’t be offended, not even being survivors, but we cannot know what triggers someone, and it was out of place yeah.
We’re not giving them a turned head, not letting it pass, just taking it for what it was, a joke, it was Inappropriate? YES it was! Did they meant to? I personally think they would never, NO, not after stories of being groped and objectified and they being against that, not after Jensen’s tweet under the #MeToo tag., not after years and years of stories from fans suffering PTSD, depression and all kind of problems as a result of sexual assaults.
No, because they’re not like that.
They already gave an statement and in my opinion they should apologize to put an end to this; But then… why is this time, this joke blown out of proportion?
Because recently media found out that putting them on the headline/front page sells (isn’t right magazine that almost sold out before halloween?, or last year issue that had them there in the best selled issue in God-knows-how-long?) same with Talk shows and stuff like that, they’re putting them down because we FANS will read, we will click on their stupid links, we will give them coverage.
SO, I as a fan request you all my SPN family, ya’ll there where we have a million of survivors from sexual violence, and harassment victims, where we know what bullying do, I call you all to blacklist the pages that are spreading hate.
Once they got us together and together we created an entire support system for those of us who needed help, now is our time to give it back to them.
I do Support both Jensen and Jared and I’m sure they didn’t mean it like that.
The list is gigantic so far, but if we stop clicking on them, if we so much as ignore them and do not tag or comment on them, we’ll let it go away faster and sooner.
WE HAVE THE POWER FAMILY
www.teenvogue.com/
www.babe.net/
www.refinery29.com
www.sheknows.com
www.revelist.com
www.thewrap.com
www.thehits.co.nz
www.sfgate.com
www.girlfriend.com.au
www.datalounge.com
Perezhilton.com (of course this asshole had to be here wish he dies)
www.onehallyu.com
www.lipstickalley.com
www.postradar.co.uk
Ohnotheydidnt.livejournal.com
www.topix.com
Movements.tv
OUR fandom achieved big things but from now on they’ll be only remembered for this, don’t let the years and years of amazing job and tons of love and hope to go to waste. Let’s prove there’s more in Supernatural than a small joke.
I found it
Oct. 13th, 2017 11:40 pmhttps://www.pinterest.com/pin/AT4i6ZFIxITl9wo53UnwbN_KVYt9ybEeBoKrDCkTCBXJTefIa-g25XI/
I found it!! (in case you care) I wanted to see how this one went , is the inspiration fro Custom made
life is fine, just... meeeh, first fight and for the dumbest reason...
I found it!! (in case you care) I wanted to see how this one went , is the inspiration fro Custom made
life is fine, just... meeeh, first fight and for the dumbest reason...
pumpkins spice and other disasters
Oct. 5th, 2017 11:32 pm So yeah, I got better and I'm working again, for those who knew about my financial crisis after my friend left me without any money, a bunch of bills and a practice I had to close and all that... well i finally am on my feet again!! YAY ME!! NOW a year and a half (more like two years) I can finally talk about spending money, about going to places and the first thing is a christmas list the size of Iraq!! my family (all those mean bastards and crazy girls) deserve decent present this year!
also, can you give me a couple tips on what to buy for a guy? I mean... I used to give them movies or Videogames or a scarf they would never wear but I liked, things that you don't really care for, but... R is different.. and i feel stupid thinking like that.
I just answered to Kelly's messasge and it got me thinking about what I wrote, it is true, sometimes when I'm in a social situation with R I got all weird and looking at myself and my behavior is like watchign Sheldon Cooper trying to be normal (not the smart part just the socially inadequacy ) and he's been so sweet and undertanding it frustrates me; he just keeps gettign sweeter, and giving me this looks, like I'm so freaking funny ort interesting to look at.
Sometimes I wish he weren't so okay with me not being like every other girl in his life, and I freak out and want to push him away just to notice I don't really want to.
for once in my entire life I'm the corny (embarassingly I have to admit) idiot that sends good night messages and wakes up to messages from him.
and when I tihnk he can't be any more perfect he told me he doesn't like pumpkin spice (which I hate with the force of a thousand suns) flavored stuff. I laughed and told him "I'd kiss you for that." he smiled like the bastard he is and said he'd never in his life try anything pumpkin or any other specal flavor if I promise to keep doing it durign the next dozen holydays and I'm and idiot for blushing t the mention of this....
so yeah... life is not even that bad, I'm tired as hell and smiling at the bing of a message in my phone....*slaps herself and sigh* I'm doomed.
he even is taking me to watch Dylan O'Brien's movie because he knows I like the kid...
also, can you give me a couple tips on what to buy for a guy? I mean... I used to give them movies or Videogames or a scarf they would never wear but I liked, things that you don't really care for, but... R is different.. and i feel stupid thinking like that.
I just answered to Kelly's messasge and it got me thinking about what I wrote, it is true, sometimes when I'm in a social situation with R I got all weird and looking at myself and my behavior is like watchign Sheldon Cooper trying to be normal (not the smart part just the socially inadequacy ) and he's been so sweet and undertanding it frustrates me; he just keeps gettign sweeter, and giving me this looks, like I'm so freaking funny ort interesting to look at.
Sometimes I wish he weren't so okay with me not being like every other girl in his life, and I freak out and want to push him away just to notice I don't really want to.
for once in my entire life I'm the corny (embarassingly I have to admit) idiot that sends good night messages and wakes up to messages from him.
and when I tihnk he can't be any more perfect he told me he doesn't like pumpkin spice (which I hate with the force of a thousand suns) flavored stuff. I laughed and told him "I'd kiss you for that." he smiled like the bastard he is and said he'd never in his life try anything pumpkin or any other specal flavor if I promise to keep doing it durign the next dozen holydays and I'm and idiot for blushing t the mention of this....
so yeah... life is not even that bad, I'm tired as hell and smiling at the bing of a message in my phone....*slaps herself and sigh* I'm doomed.
he even is taking me to watch Dylan O'Brien's movie because he knows I like the kid...
One or two things to mention
Sep. 26th, 2017 12:21 am guess who got bronchitis? yeah!! ME!! and myasthma doesn't like it!
Oh not enough? i got a serious salmonella infection!1 YEAH OH THE FUN!! still struggling with it, needed two days at hospital and all...
not enough? conjuntivitis!!
and all those in one week... I still cant hold solids, I still can't read or do much of anyting and everything hurts...
I need a hug...
So... at least had time to catch up with some stuff... started with The Story and another one, and then... thenI had to start preparing papaers i put back for far too long...
At least R has been a darling with me, and even asked me to take this (our thing) in a more serious way, and its been like... O_O It's been 7 months already?!?!? ASDFGHjkl!!! so fast!!
anynway.. going back to bed, love you all.
Oh not enough? i got a serious salmonella infection!1 YEAH OH THE FUN!! still struggling with it, needed two days at hospital and all...
not enough? conjuntivitis!!
and all those in one week... I still cant hold solids, I still can't read or do much of anyting and everything hurts...
I need a hug...
So... at least had time to catch up with some stuff... started with The Story and another one, and then... thenI had to start preparing papaers i put back for far too long...
At least R has been a darling with me, and even asked me to take this (our thing) in a more serious way, and its been like... O_O It's been 7 months already?!?!? ASDFGHjkl!!! so fast!!
anynway.. going back to bed, love you all.
hey there y'all
Sep. 18th, 2017 12:23 am things are a mesws, I'm tired, I'm bored and I've been working like a dog...
I love my life.
R is fine, even if we had to... like not see each other for over a week again (seriously, is this what adult relationships are like?)
I'm still hunting for a place that kind sark my interest.
and of course every day on the train I have this small thing kicking the back of my seat, "are you done? are you done? are you gonna update? are you gonna write again?" it is kinda freaky when I have the urge to turn artound and snap at it to cut it off or i'll delete every file on the tablet....
but I'm sorry I've been not writing so stories/fics/drabbles are on hold for a bit longer.
pretty much that.. life is fine, for once, even if I'm not where I was supposed to be, even if I'm not how I was supposed to be and even if I survived yet another year without him. it took a lot of effort to do things like usual this month.
some say Always, Some say Okay, Some say Forever, I'd be forever Sorrow. becvause in Spetember Sorrow means so much more.
<i>"Sweet Merry Doll" he greeted with a dismissive smile. "I've seen teh BlackEagle fight, a sweet merry doll like you cannot order me around, go back and tell your mistress I'll only deal with someone born on a noble cradle." the lady, almost half a foot shorter moved closer after jumping down her horse, her banner still high in the hands of her esquire.
"sweet you call me, thought I'm not, nor I'm merry... and Doll?" her eyes ablaze with blottled fury and power and her face as cold and hard as stone. " I am no doll unless Dolls have claws and fangs and fire..." the man backed away scared of the fierce creature in front of him, and the clothe that seemed flames on her hair that the wind was waving aroud. She smiled; her sword already out of the sheet. "you will respect Irina Borkbal, from the Crown House of the dessrts of fire, or I'll have you fearing her."
the knights snickered as she went back and in one fast jump was on her stallion. "show me the way... My Lord, for your Queen is waiting for me."
the man looked startled to the small group, the simple braid tied with rbbons like fire and the plain clothes, even if in vivid colors. "Lady Borkbal..." the man said with a bow. "Owen Teagan will have you in LIlly's Meadows, The Queen and the King cannot offer you their palace so your uncle cannot claim they're interfeering in your nation's politics or call you a traitor or a prisoner; She sends her apology..."
"Okay, show me the way to this... Teagan man's home..."</i>
I love my life.
R is fine, even if we had to... like not see each other for over a week again (seriously, is this what adult relationships are like?)
I'm still hunting for a place that kind sark my interest.
and of course every day on the train I have this small thing kicking the back of my seat, "are you done? are you done? are you gonna update? are you gonna write again?" it is kinda freaky when I have the urge to turn artound and snap at it to cut it off or i'll delete every file on the tablet....
but I'm sorry I've been not writing so stories/fics/drabbles are on hold for a bit longer.
pretty much that.. life is fine, for once, even if I'm not where I was supposed to be, even if I'm not how I was supposed to be and even if I survived yet another year without him. it took a lot of effort to do things like usual this month.
some say Always, Some say Okay, Some say Forever, I'd be forever Sorrow. becvause in Spetember Sorrow means so much more.
<i>"Sweet Merry Doll" he greeted with a dismissive smile. "I've seen teh BlackEagle fight, a sweet merry doll like you cannot order me around, go back and tell your mistress I'll only deal with someone born on a noble cradle." the lady, almost half a foot shorter moved closer after jumping down her horse, her banner still high in the hands of her esquire.
"sweet you call me, thought I'm not, nor I'm merry... and Doll?" her eyes ablaze with blottled fury and power and her face as cold and hard as stone. " I am no doll unless Dolls have claws and fangs and fire..." the man backed away scared of the fierce creature in front of him, and the clothe that seemed flames on her hair that the wind was waving aroud. She smiled; her sword already out of the sheet. "you will respect Irina Borkbal, from the Crown House of the dessrts of fire, or I'll have you fearing her."
the knights snickered as she went back and in one fast jump was on her stallion. "show me the way... My Lord, for your Queen is waiting for me."
the man looked startled to the small group, the simple braid tied with rbbons like fire and the plain clothes, even if in vivid colors. "Lady Borkbal..." the man said with a bow. "Owen Teagan will have you in LIlly's Meadows, The Queen and the King cannot offer you their palace so your uncle cannot claim they're interfeering in your nation's politics or call you a traitor or a prisoner; She sends her apology..."
"Okay, show me the way to this... Teagan man's home..."</i>
