Guys... I'm kinda worried
Jan. 12th, 2018 11:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
szarabasjka remember when i was innocent and nive and thought this job was a good idea with a far better enviroment than the last one? I was SOOOO wrong!!
first of all there are people leaving every now and then like in any jobm the bad part is when one of the long time ones sudenly is fired in front of patients and staff.
it was so humiliating!! it was horrible.
it only results in one thing, I'm havig even more time now.
Next.
R and I kinda worked our differences before new years eve, and we're on far better good terms, in such good terms I spent my only three free hours yesterday with him just diriving around because neither of us dared to go anywhere for the risk of me falling asleep.
he's the sweetest tolerating my exhausted ass and being sweet.
and then he has to scare me shitless with his crazy ideas.
Why am I saying that? because R asked me to move in with him, we're not together for one year and he wants to live with me? me? with the hectic insane shcedule and almost zero free time? what is wrong with him??? should I mention his kid still hates me?
first of all there are people leaving every now and then like in any jobm the bad part is when one of the long time ones sudenly is fired in front of patients and staff.
it was so humiliating!! it was horrible.
it only results in one thing, I'm havig even more time now.
Next.
R and I kinda worked our differences before new years eve, and we're on far better good terms, in such good terms I spent my only three free hours yesterday with him just diriving around because neither of us dared to go anywhere for the risk of me falling asleep.
he's the sweetest tolerating my exhausted ass and being sweet.
and then he has to scare me shitless with his crazy ideas.
Why am I saying that? because R asked me to move in with him, we're not together for one year and he wants to live with me? me? with the hectic insane shcedule and almost zero free time? what is wrong with him??? should I mention his kid still hates me?
what should I do? I like him yes, but even if he has said the L word I never said it back, to me it is too soon.
I'm freaking out, I went far from where I usually run away and now I'm so out of my depth I have no idea of what to do!!
HELP!!
I'm freaking out, I went far from where I usually run away and now I'm so out of my depth I have no idea of what to do!!
HELP!!
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Date: 2018-01-17 11:54 pm (UTC)I'm really glad to hear that things have generally been better with R. It definitely sounds, though, like he's moving faster than you're comfortable with. Have you tried to tell him you want to take things a bit slower? And has his son explained what his issues are with you, because while it's normal for a kid to dislike a parent's new partner, that's definitely something that ought to be addressed before any talk of you moving in with R. I mean, R has a right to have a partner, and you and R deserve happiness, and his son should not dictate the course of that. But his son's discomfort should not be ignored, either; it should be addressed appropriately, which is 99% R's responsibility.
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Date: 2018-01-22 03:13 am (UTC)I don't know what I did to the kid, he just acts as if we were rivals for his dad's attention, i tried to give him space, and I'm never pressing when he needs anything asking R to be with him; yet he still hates me. is not like he's neglecting his kid or anything, he even asked what was wrong when I was not supposed to hear; the kid just groaned and said nothing, and I mean.. if the kid is not ready to talk, maybe is a matter of time and he will change his opinion about me. I hope.
someone said it might be the mother's fault since she's a manipulative bitch.
about work... things changed for the better, we're trapped tehre for days to end but the enviroment changed to a far better, the balck toxic stressful cloud left with that one doctor and now we're all laughter and smiles.
it is still way too stressful and long hours but somewhat better.