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Jun. 26th, 2008 09:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
szarabasjkaOne_year_Ago
I remember his eyes, and the smell of his soap, and his voice and his breathing, I was so tired and so stressed that didn't spend one minute on his room.
I remember how cold his feet was that moment 'cause I got paged and had to run out, he was dead before we started rounds, and the hole is still here, and this feeling of failure, I wasn't good enough to keep him alive, I know he was in pain and was a DNR patient but was mine, and died with Roro on his room, at least not alone...*sigh* wough, enough now.
Dr. Knight want me there,said she wanted me to be with her next year and that noe of the Ortho girl resigned and that I'll be stronger than that... hope she's right.
no songs no pics,its weird I already wrote this three times but still can't post it
I remember his eyes, and the smell of his soap, and his voice and his breathing, I was so tired and so stressed that didn't spend one minute on his room.
I remember how cold his feet was that moment 'cause I got paged and had to run out, he was dead before we started rounds, and the hole is still here, and this feeling of failure, I wasn't good enough to keep him alive, I know he was in pain and was a DNR patient but was mine, and died with Roro on his room, at least not alone...*sigh* wough, enough now.
Dr. Knight want me there,said she wanted me to be with her next year and that noe of the Ortho girl resigned and that I'll be stronger than that... hope she's right.
no songs no pics,its weird I already wrote this three times but still can't post it
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Date: 2008-06-28 12:01 am (UTC)not since the very first time I saw a person die.
so as hard as it is he was a blessing and I really hope that I've helped him at least a little.
he's still on my prayers every night.