Writer's Block: That's the way love goes

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I come from a couple that has a gap of 18 years, they spend their lives*and ours, sibs and I* fighting over the difference, my mother music, my dad ideas, where to go why, when, if it was stupid, if it was the best for us, if it was just my mother will, if it was my dad old fashioned ideas.

To me, age difference is the same than problem, so no age difference or at least not more than two or three years.

InsanityIX

Tittle :Insanity
Rating: G so far, not sure what's gonna happen
Gender: fantasy *actually created from one idea and one Prince Charming moment from a friend/boyfriend/guy I'm dating
Characters: AU, characters created thinking on actors and real people..
Sumary: It scared me at first, it scared me shitless to think on this, on US, when there's always being only me, it was just me, scared little thing, scared little thing full of obligations that will never be free to do whatever I feel like. Lets start earlier than that, to know how from all kind of trubles you can learn something, and that learning how to forgive and how to love is the best thing ever.
InsanityVIII
ChapterIX/XII

Once his dad went home Peggy felt empty again, mom and dad were shring house, and we're both feeling better, he even stoped being a jerk for real, wasn't the best person ever, but finally was an adult! is surprised her, mom was feeling great, finally in equilibrium, finally as a rela mother like she remembers was when Krinaia were born, when Lim wasn't evena dream yet.

Mom felt sorry for dad and allowed him in the house, even the blonde bitch called to ask about him, and she had to listen to that conversation, Peggy got into her bedroom and listened how his father said he was sorry, that he had acted inmature and juvenile and now was sorry, and had nothing else to discuss with her 'I'm not planning loosing my girls for this' he said secure 'I've been away from my family long enough'.

she had no chance to stay at the apartment again, not since that night at the movies, there has been times when she wanted to talk to him, she even dialed his number by heart but then... then real life called and she always put the phone down, then too much time has passed and felt kinda stupid, he must've moved on, she thought, I'm sure he's better off without me... and her heart bled... why?

Why? he thought, at the coffee shop, he'd been looking out the window every night, to the bench in front, expecting to see her, once or twice Jess saw him running to the door, but coming back slowly, limping, serious or frowning 'enough' she said, shaking her head 'what happened? you never told me what happened with her, she looked like a very nice girl...' he sat sighing and rubbing his knee 'and she made you happy... we all knew that' the rest of the staff members were looking at them concerned, Mathew moved from the chair and got his cane 'I'm fine' barked but AJ didn't gave up 'mattie... seriously, she came into this place for two years before you got to see each other, and I never before saw her smiling like when you were together' he turned back more sad than angry but screaming non the less 'we weren't together, not like she cared anyways...' and limped away. That's why Jess got him a date.
'I'm not going out with that kid!!' he said angry, the girl did look like she's 12 but she's already a senior and majoring in design, and Jess told him that, then literally pushed him all the way to the table to met the girl, her name was Ali and was very sweet, any guy could have fall inlove with her in no time, and Mathew knew that, yet felt bad because he tried, hard to be that guy.

they went on a date, to a restaurant, the girl couldn't stop talking about L'Orange, and the time she and her friends had dinner there 'you should try the lamb if you ever visit that place' she said smiling adorably and Mathew smiled 'yeah with bitter sauce...' and sighed, things on the date went well, well enough for him to forget being ditched without an explanation, went so well that he only came back to reality when the doorbell called and he had to go to the door that night, but there was nobody, only heard a car leaving, went back to bed.

Peggy got up after a specially good night, a night that was bad too, at least for her, was good because... well because it was good, the night before Naia brought her boyfriend home, Hugh, he was a nice guy, he had dinner with them, poor kid was nervous, but even mom and dad acted civil enough to believe they're regular people. then Lim went on her first date, with Xavier, another nice guy, mom got close to Pegaiai, hugged her like she never before and whispered wish you had someone too, it hurt, because she did had someone, once, when she was selfish enough to be away from them, and when she had a life, but then... then everything was different and Peggy learned not to trust people, yet she went ot his door, ven rang the bell, but then had second thoughts and flew as if her life depended on it

She woke up and went to the door, not paying atention to the voice behind her asking to ignore it, got the reciever on the intercom an the small screen lit 'yes?' and from the other side a surprised girl lost her smile, her eyes were sad and turned cold and serious 'uuhh... is Mathew home?' the girl wearing mathew's tee turned to see him cursing 'hey, forget about it, its a mistake...' and she was out the frame of the screen, Mathew ignored the girl in his apartment, ignored the fact that he was barefoot and shirtless and that was already cold outside, and ran to get her, Peggy was back, adn he was a bastard for not wait a little longer.

Should have waited a little longer, she should have waited to see him, to be sure, but deep inside she was sure, yeah he was better off her, but felt cold, and alone, and numb and hurt, and felt stupid for believing she'd deserve that, sure enough she doesn't deserve that, she had to take care of the family that's all, and finally a tear ran down her face, scared and surprised touched her wet cheek, second time she cried, in what? 25 years? yeah, and second time because she felt alone, and hurt, and away from that, the thing that made her whole again. and yet still it had no name
InsanityX/XII
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it'll take a little longer, because I can't do this chapters longer...

Better write for yourself and have no public, than writing for a public and have no self

Three interesting conversations today...

Dr. V said I shouldn't forget I helped them yesterday, not sure what that means... more responsabilities?

Daniel called, he's in need of a countable GOB, because he dated this girl Renee like three months ago, who was seeing this other two guys at the same time, now she's knocked up and is pointing fingers trying to get her bump a daddy, just me but Daniel, my cousin is not stupid, sure enough he's been careful and he's not making me an aunt without my permission, Oh NO!!! I tried to find a way to do things easier for him, and I'm being the responsible adult there, thou he's an adult already, his dad went somewhere in south America to live with a woman, his mom died when he was like seven, and he's all alone. he needs someone, and that someone is gonna be me, if I can help him.

I'm not blaming her, no, my cousin is a dog, a real dog but with one girl at the time, and then, he sticks until the end, and then he chase some other, this one jewel he found was with three guys at the time, so who's the one to blame?

Sometimes I feel I'm unfair with my own gender in order to protect my loved ones, this kid needs me now and I'll be with and for him no matter what, and if out of bad luck is his baby... I'll be hapy to help him too.

Tony called, about the missing date on last weekend when I was on-call, he said he wants to talk to me, and I'm scared. is it over? is it on? did he heard about Marcus? doe that makes me an hypocrite now thati'm reading this together?