Writer's Block: All these things that I've done

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I'd go to the doctor sooner, I'd stop doing that, I'd say something earlier, I'd studied harder.. but one is the result of your choices, there's nothing you can change on that

InsanityVIII

Tittle :Insanity
Rating: G so far, not sure what's gonna happen
Gender: fantasy *actually created from one idea and one Prince Charming moment from a friend/boyfriend/guy I'm dating
Characters: AU, characters created thinking on actors and real people..
Sumary: It scared me at first, it scared me shitless to think on this, on US, when there's always being only me, it was just me, scared little thing, scared little thing full of obligations that will never be free to do whatever I feel like. Lets start earlier than that, but not that much, lets start with the only time they went separated ways and why

chapterVII
ChapterVIII/X

Lim was okay now, working hard, as holyday season arrived, Naia was gone to see some university on the east, mom was okay and for once, during the two weeks brake Peggy had the time to see how things with Mathew could be, she even stayed more often at the apartment just to be with him, and he was very happy about it, not only She started talking about her sisters, they even went to the movies together, the last weekend before christmass holidays, the four of them met, Mathew saw the mess the girls were together, all trace of quiet and serious, all trace of sadness was gone, she was holding his hand while Lim and Naia ran around like babies, for few moments he saw a glimpse of how would be like to have this forever, when they arrived to the theatre and he saw the three girls laughing hard about something so common as sweet pop corn, he never before saw Peggy being loud or laughing like that, Naia and Lim were comfortable around him and for frst time since they met Peggy held his hand in public, he felt giddy and excited, Lim made a whole scene for just few chips, Naia was running around hiding behind him after she put all her cotton candy on Lim's hair, and once inside and in their places, she kissed him in the cheek whispering a thank you, that meant so much more

But then, that little piece of heaven broke when th second cell sounded not half way on the movie, Peggy answered, and Mathew saw how all of themthe three of them tensed, she heard a voice and got up and to the girls 'the blonde bitch says he needs us' and not even saying good bye they left.

They left as fast as they could, once in Peggy's car, Naia dared to ask 'what happened?' Peggy turned to her for a second and then saw lim on the back 'girls, she said dad is in a hospital downtown, he just had a stroke or something, she was nervous and couldn't explain herself...' she herself had a knot on her throat but the heartbraking sob from Lim and Naia moving between her and your sit to pass behind to hold the small one 'calm down girls, I'll take care of everything...'

Peggy, she had to take care of everything, her father had a heartattack thatleft him in bad shape, the doctors expected a full recovery, but right thenhe was as helpless as a newborn. and he cried, shame and fear on those eyes, he might not be the best father in the world, but he was HER father, Lim and Naia were outside and waiting for her to call them 'you're gonna be okay, Doctor said you're out of danger and you'd be going home in few weeks' he sobbed 'we're taking you home with mom, I have a nurse already...' he held Peggy's hand 'its okay... just... my sisters are coming, please be nice'
'I'm sorry'
'Don't worry there's nothing to sorry, you're fine, we're fine'
'I'm sorry I put you throught all this'
'is not your fault if you got sick' and moving away from that hand 'just take better care of yourself now on'
'not this...' mumbled the man 'all, everything, we always left you in charge... we robed you of everything'
'you made me a fighter, you made me strong, I had to learn how to defend my girls, the rest is not important'
'you hate me...' he said and the machine started beeping
'no, I don't hate you, I'm just disapointed' turned to see Lim ready to walk in and Naia drying her face with her hand 'just don't disapoint them too' and motioned for the girls to walk in, while his father sobbed again, he cried and asked the three girls to forgive him
'all I could think while lying on the floor waiting for the ambulance was that I'd away from you, that you'll forever think your father was a jerk' and sobbed causing another beep on the machine 'I'm sorry my girls' Naia held him for a second, moved for his tears, were those tears real? was only fear talking? was only a way to assure himself being recieved at the house again? was Peggy a bitch for thinking like that?

In the back of Peggy's head was something else, something amiss, the apartment her classes, even mom who was now happy and having a spa day, everything was non-important right now, not as much as not being seen while crying, for a minute she thought she'd be an orphan, after wanting to be one for years while a kid,after saying ant thinking all those bad things about him, and once inside her bedroom cried, for a minute or two, because things had to be done, the girls would need someone to hold on to, she had to tell mom, and ask Daniel what to do abou tthe state, she had no time fo rsentimentalist crap, even further back in her head was the need of something, something she couldn't pinpoint, the need of warmth and something that would ground her,that would make her believe that nothig was wrong, that nothing will ever be wrong again, she felt that once, felt that thing once, that made her solid and safe and not as alone as right now, but that thing had no name... yet.


The thing About Peggy, thought Mathew was that she just disapeared, for a while was worried she'd be in trouble, until he saw an orange car outside the hospital while going back from his classes, every orange car made him remember of Peggy's car, the one she once showed him, the amazing lamborghini that made her fell embarrassed, and then saw her, walking fast to the car, getting in and leaving, Joseph had only seen her from afar and had no time to talk to her, so Mathew went after Danny and Indira, they only knew it happens sometimes 'and you have to be patient' she said 'when she get back, she'd be different from what we all know' something was wrong on that, had to be wrong, he thought 'WHY?' Indira sighed 'just because, she never really told us or let us know' and looking at him in the eyes, very concerned 'the first time she did this, she found herself her past boyfriend, then the second she just got over him' and he blinked, a dark, cold pit on his stomach 'just be patient, and wait' but Peggy kept avoiding and ignoring him, never again saw him at the coffee shop, she was not in the library or his Doctor's consults, she just disapeared, and after another fast month he gave up, he'd have done anything for her, but she moved on, he had to do the same... right?
ChapterIX /XII
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Sorry this will be edited soon.
Edit: yes I did it... just few hours latter