MEME FILL:Do It For Me
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Tittle: Do it for me
Author: Kali (if I’m going to hell I might as well have my real name in the VIP ticket)
Pairing: J2; Jared/Gen; Jared/Sandy; Jensen/Danneel.Jared/others
kinks:cheating, first time, anal, menitons of rimming, manipulation, mental health issues, bottom!jensen, top!jared, mentions of top!Jensen
m/m, m/f(mentions), douche!jared (hope I'm not missing anything)
***
“Wait… this is… wait!” Jensen was sitting on the counter of his hotel room; they were still trying to find a place to live.
“Wait for what? Don’t you like this?” Jared crowded him against the surface making it impossible for Jensen to escape. “I just want to make you feel good.”
Jensen avoided the kiss. “This is cheating... think about Sandy.” Jared felt the thrill of wrongness. “You have a girlfriend.”
”What she doesn’t know…” Jared sucked a mark on his neck. “Won’t hurt her” Jared held Jensen hands from where they were fumbling to push him away and lead them to his crotch. “Can’t you see how much I want you?”
Jensen; taking his hands away shook his head furiously from side to side, his cheeks tinted in deep pink.
Jared parted Jensen’s legs further apart with his thigh and hooking his hands on Jensen’s knees pulled him closer to the edge and to his groin. “Say it. Tell me you don’t feel it…” Jared’s lips so close with the ghost of a kiss that made Jensen swallows and try to stop this.
“I-I…” he frowned feeling flustered avoiding eye contact.
Jared wanted to taste those lips, wanted everything. There was a certain thrill, a satisfaction in the fact that someone as hot as Jensen; as sexy, as pure as Jensen was this affected by him, the blush, the stuttering, the obvious want in every move but the hesitance meant something.
“You haven’t been with anyone else… do you?”
Jensen took a breath with his lips half parted before licking them and swallowing hard again; and Jared just knew, he was the first male to do this to Jensen; so he went for it. He moved forward pressing Jensen against HIM and kissed the sweetest most perfect lips in mankind.
They had just met, and Jared had carried him to a tittie bar, he was used-Jared said- his last “friend” Chad used to get him there and let him do stuff with the girls watching.
Jensen had never been with a guy in his life, it was season 1and and who knew Jensen being older was so naïve (less slutty sounded better to him) compared to Jared.
Jensen lost his virginity to Jared on his trailer after a long day filming; he couldn’t stop himself, crying Jensen was Jared’s weakness. He was also obsessed with his lips, just as obsessed as he was with rimming him, Jensen had come more times than he can remember with Jared’s lips sealed around his hole.
Everything seemed to be fine, they were discreet, because Jared had Sandy, and Jensen wasn’t ready to come out. After all, this was a friends-with-benefits thing, right? And sometimes you just don’t want another tag over your head.
But then S2 came and Jensen started smiling and flirting with Jeff and Jared didn’t like it, he wanted those green eyes and sweet, sweet lips all for himself; the ass too if you mind.
Things went smooth for a while then Jensen got a part in My bloody valentine and Jared was green with envy, he hid it on jealousy for the girl he was working with and the guy from Dawson’s creek.
“Don’t be silly.” Jensen had said hugging him; kissing his neck. “it’s just….”
Jared moved away he didn’t need to be pampered. “It’s just I’m sad.. I won’t see you in almost three months.”
After Jensen went to sign the part, he practically throttled his agent to get him a part in a horror flic, any horror flic but a horror flic. He got Friday the 13th.
“Looks like we’re both just as talented.” Joked Jared as they flew together away from Vancouver to film each other’s movies. They texted and spent hours on the phone talking about everything and anything, Jared even felt bad for his jealousy.
But then Jensen’s work was praised and the movie got better reviews and better box office numbers and their –secret- relationship went south. How could it not if it was Jensen –Jared thought- Jensen the perfect faced guy with a voice of warm honey, who was charming, nd sweet and careful with everything he loved. The one who always had candy for him, and a hug when things made him nervous. The one who could cry at will with s much emotion Jared cried with him, Jensen was talented, Jared saw him turning into dean Winchester in a blink and a little shudder and he felt jealous and insecure, he needed so much more than a blink to go into Sam’s mentality, and half the scenes he ruined with jokes, were ruined because he knew that Jensen acting just couldn’t be any better, and he feared not being half as good.
There was also one other thing; Jared thought that Jensen was his ever after, and he loved him, but they weren’t ready to decide this was the end of the road, so he went around, knowing that at the end of the road, Jensen would be there for him.
Jensen wanted this to be real, to be the end game, Jared was sweet and kind most of the time, and when he wasn’t he had the decency to look repentant later.
He made Jensen bare his very soul, and bared his as well, not all the time, but sometimes, when they needed to be.
The reviews; those praises, the many parts offered to Jensen after MBV, the fact that he was compared to Steve McQueen while Jared’s movie was mocked for being a crappy remake, that’s what caused the breakup.
Around the end of S4 they were done.
Even if the end wasn’t that friendly Jensen went for no hard feelings/mature friendship with a bit more kind of thing, since they were never actually out, people kept seeing this as a friendship between two guys who had worked together half a decade.
Jared started with dumping Sandy and making things weird in set. He was always hinting things and playing gay chicken even if Jensen never wanted to play. People kept thinking of it as a joke.
In Private Jared was always sending Jensen presents, and cards and every little detail he knew his ex would enjoy, would make him think of them, of their happiness.
The offers stopped coming at some point to Jared, and he felt bad for a while, Jensen’s kept coming, more and more; Jensen spent that summer filming Ten Inch Hero and getting close and personal with Danneel and when he came back to set Jared told him he wanted to try again, and Jensen smiled, until he understood Jared meant back into a sexual relationship.
Jared insisted saying that he got depressed because Jensen left him. “I want you with me forever!” he promised as he led Jensen into his house. Jensen believed. “You’re everything I need in my life.” Jensen bought it. “Only you can make me happy.” Jensen felt a shiver running down his back.
For a little bit Jensen might have even bought that, until he came into his trailer after a scene with Misha and found Jared with Gen perched on his lap “running lines”
Jensen could’ve been convinced, but Jared’s hand was buried deep between her legs.
That was the first time Jensen considered leaving the show, he had his heart broken and Jared didn’t even seemed to be sorry this time. Since Eric plan was for 5 seasons he only had to endure one more, right? Just one more season and he’d be gone; move from this and the pain Jared caused him.
Jared begged and cried and whined for days grumbling and moaning about how they had no future after this if they didn’t work together, but Jensen had made his mind.
Yet at the end of Season 5 the begging was not necessary, Jensen was convinced, it wasn’t like the economy was at its best and he was the only one refusing a contract. He couldn’t do that to so many parents, so many from the crew that needed this job.
What did changed was Jared squeezing stuff out of the deal. “please come to this party with me, I cannot be alone with Gen.” Jensen went to the party. “could you come stay with me this week? My dog is sick and I can’t deal with leaving him alone at the vet.” Jensen was there.
Every time the conversation was about how staying in the show was the best, because after all they were only TV actors and what if Jensen couldn’t find a job after Supernatural. “I’m not worried about me, but I’d be devastated if you couldn’t find a job that you deserve.”
Jensen let it get to him, so he signed up for another three seasons. Jared went around with other guys; guest stars and CW actors, even people he met in auditions, the famous one time he bottomed for Jason Momoa was something Jensen had to hear about a million times in their “friendly” relationship. “I could do it again for someone who deserves it.” he said in a whisper for Jensen as a way to tempt him.
Every time Jensen wanted out, wanted to leave Jared had an excuse; “my life is just too harsh right now.” Or the; “after this season I’ll go too, if you want to move on, but for old time’s sake.” The classic; “Harley is gone.. you can’t leave me right now… I need you with me.” And the not so classic; “for the fans, they need to know we keep fighting.”
And then… then Season 11 came and Jensen finally went to Tom Welling his friend and said the line he practiced for years: “BOOM in your face.” He said and won a bet they had from the time they were in Smallville.
He had spent the last four years hearing of all the parts, all the roles he should be doing instead of being trapped in a series that felt like home but stopped being a challenge long ago.
He changed, the shy, *cough*naïve*cough*private guy moved on leaving a mature man, secure and confident, he opened to the love the fans showed and kinda felt bad for missing out on that for years.
But as much as he loved the fans and the show Marvel wanted to reboot Green Lantern after the fiasco with Reynolds, and there was also a movie where he’d been offered the part of a shady lawyer with a not so clean conscience, it was an awesome part, too good to let it pass; the first baddie in a big budget drama he actually liked.
But the network wanted another contract, one for two more seasons, Jensen loved the show, loved it and he was still doubting. There was an epic movie, that was like if Kingdom of Heaven and Ben Hur had angry sex and have had a baby, and he was offered the lead, no audition needed, alongside Karl Urban.
Jared knocked on his door one Sunday morning. “Hey Jay, can we talk for a minute?” Jensen smiled after years, their friendship finally was a real friendship, and having someone he was fond to standing at his door, Jensen opened and offered him a cup of coffee.
“Thanks, you know that coffee helps with depression right?” Jensen walked to the kitchen with a frown, he noticed Jared more quiet lately, and more and more after Jensen asked for a couple days to decide to sign or not.
Jared had let out that Jensen might wanted out making the entire fandom bully him on every social network Jared forced him –at first- to have an account; it wasn’t pretty, there were tears, there were hate and there were a lot of guilt tripping, in the end Jensen forgave him and Jared repeated once more it was not his intention and was a honest to God mistake and this was their first time alone after that fiasco.
“You’re not still blaming yourself for the twitter debacle do you?” Jensen knew Jared felt so bad he got manic for first time in years. For a day…. Not sure how much you know about depression but coming out of it is not like sleeping it off one night.
Jared made a face and looked down. “Sorry… I swear.”
It is dangerous to let someone with depression or anxiety mull over a mistake, Jensen learnt that the first time Jared got depressed, he didn’t have the manic kind often; where you could see him going down, or just find him down one day, it was quite the contrary, you would see him getting bitchy and loud and defensive; and Mean, don’t forget the mean part. His best –and most cruel jokes- were done while depressed.
And it made sense, when he started making a big deal about a suitcase or a delay or any other petty problem, Jensen, Gen, Felicia, Misha, mark, Jim, Osric… everyone had been there for Jared who just needed some attention and some rest and was as good as new.
“Here…” Jensen sat a mug of coffee in front of Jared “don’t worry. I’m not even mad... it’s just you know that sometimes I want to keep stuff for me first.”
Jared looked down again. “Remember the first time we were on set?” Jensen nodded worried, it was rare to have Jared reminiscence old times. “I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.”
“I remember I was very different.” Jensen started with a smile; maybe remembering the innocent version of himself a decade ago. “You have changed a lot too; for the better.” Jensen added with a smile as Jared sipped from his mug.
“It’s just, I’m afraid I can’t control it if the show ends…” Jensen let out a huff. “I’m not in a good place, right now…” and he hiccupped leaving the mug down and covering his face; by reflex Jensen was at his side soothing hand on his back and gentle words for his ears, Jared moved to hug him and Jensen allowed him.
”You’ll be fine… no matter what.” Jensen reassured him.
“No, I won’t be fine if you leave, I cannot deal with the pressure of carrying a show on my own.” Jensen felt touched, even if his pride made him think. *What makes you think there’ll be a show when I leave.*“please… please say you’ll stay…”
Jensen shook his head just trying to say he needed to think about it. “Please, I mean it I will do anything you want for it.” Jared moved closer to Jensen. “I could leave…” Jensen didn’t even have idea who he was seeing by now. “I’ll be all yours… please.” Jared fumbled away from Jensen’s arms and ended up on his knees on the rug trying to get between Jensen’s thighs. “Remember when you cared for me? When you were mine? It could be back to that…” he moved forward trying to kiss him and Jensen avoided him at first.
“I still care for you, you’re my best friend.” Jensen said as he moved avoiding a second attempt. “No... You don’t have to do this…” he tried to leave but he trusted Jared not to hold him with real force, he wasn’t expecting the full force of his arms on him. “Let me go Jared.”
Jared went for innocent seeing that his sexual advances were rejected. “Don’t you love me? I really need someone that loves me right now…” his voice breaking at the end for dramatic effect.
Jensen had been dealing with this for years, so excuse him for not falling for it once more. He loved the show; it was part of his life, but not like this, never again like this.
“What if you don’t get anything else?” Jared tried to play with Jensen’s insecurities. “What if you go back to be the boyfriend in things…” that was it, Jensen got up and moved away.
“Then I’ll be boyfriend, because that’ll be what I get but I won’t stay because you want me to.” He faced Jared with the truth he knew his friend needed to hear. “Don’t project your insecurities on me because you’re afraid you can’t do better than Gilmore girls’ reunion.”
Jared gasped as he stood up. “At least I was part of a show that still has fans and will be resurrected.”
Jensen shrugged. “Good for you, I guess I’ll have to settle with being in the Marvel universe.” Jared tightened his jaw and his nose thrills flared. “And I never said I wouldn’t sign again, did I?” Jared tried to speak but nothing came out of his mouth. “I just don’t want to be forced into it.”
Jared forgot the tears and the supposed depression and acted as his usual cocky self. “So are you staying? I seriously have to work on my schedule to film Gilmore girls and this.”
Jensen let out a huff, annoyance and resignation. “Do as you want.” He moved to the kitchen. “Now get out of my house.”
Jared left to Toronto to start production and few days later after Misha, his family and Jensen spent a weekend together, Jared was informed that YES, Jensen signed again, the same day Misha did.
He’d be Sam a bit more; he’d be the Luke Skywalker and screw pretty boys.
The end.
Tittle: Do it for me
Author: Kali (if I’m going to hell I might as well have my real name in the VIP ticket)
Pairing: J2; Jared/Gen; Jared/Sandy; Jensen/Danneel.Jared/others
kinks:cheating, first time, anal, menitons of rimming, manipulation, mental health issues, bottom!jensen, top!jared, mentions of top!Jensen
m/m, m/f(mentions), douche!jared (hope I'm not missing anything)
***
“Wait… this is… wait!” Jensen was sitting on the counter of his hotel room; they were still trying to find a place to live.
“Wait for what? Don’t you like this?” Jared crowded him against the surface making it impossible for Jensen to escape. “I just want to make you feel good.”
Jensen avoided the kiss. “This is cheating... think about Sandy.” Jared felt the thrill of wrongness. “You have a girlfriend.”
”What she doesn’t know…” Jared sucked a mark on his neck. “Won’t hurt her” Jared held Jensen hands from where they were fumbling to push him away and lead them to his crotch. “Can’t you see how much I want you?”
Jensen; taking his hands away shook his head furiously from side to side, his cheeks tinted in deep pink.
Jared parted Jensen’s legs further apart with his thigh and hooking his hands on Jensen’s knees pulled him closer to the edge and to his groin. “Say it. Tell me you don’t feel it…” Jared’s lips so close with the ghost of a kiss that made Jensen swallows and try to stop this.
“I-I…” he frowned feeling flustered avoiding eye contact.
Jared wanted to taste those lips, wanted everything. There was a certain thrill, a satisfaction in the fact that someone as hot as Jensen; as sexy, as pure as Jensen was this affected by him, the blush, the stuttering, the obvious want in every move but the hesitance meant something.
“You haven’t been with anyone else… do you?”
Jensen took a breath with his lips half parted before licking them and swallowing hard again; and Jared just knew, he was the first male to do this to Jensen; so he went for it. He moved forward pressing Jensen against HIM and kissed the sweetest most perfect lips in mankind.
They had just met, and Jared had carried him to a tittie bar, he was used-Jared said- his last “friend” Chad used to get him there and let him do stuff with the girls watching.
Jensen had never been with a guy in his life, it was season 1and and who knew Jensen being older was so naïve (less slutty sounded better to him) compared to Jared.
Jensen lost his virginity to Jared on his trailer after a long day filming; he couldn’t stop himself, crying Jensen was Jared’s weakness. He was also obsessed with his lips, just as obsessed as he was with rimming him, Jensen had come more times than he can remember with Jared’s lips sealed around his hole.
Everything seemed to be fine, they were discreet, because Jared had Sandy, and Jensen wasn’t ready to come out. After all, this was a friends-with-benefits thing, right? And sometimes you just don’t want another tag over your head.
But then S2 came and Jensen started smiling and flirting with Jeff and Jared didn’t like it, he wanted those green eyes and sweet, sweet lips all for himself; the ass too if you mind.
Things went smooth for a while then Jensen got a part in My bloody valentine and Jared was green with envy, he hid it on jealousy for the girl he was working with and the guy from Dawson’s creek.
“Don’t be silly.” Jensen had said hugging him; kissing his neck. “it’s just….”
Jared moved away he didn’t need to be pampered. “It’s just I’m sad.. I won’t see you in almost three months.”
After Jensen went to sign the part, he practically throttled his agent to get him a part in a horror flic, any horror flic but a horror flic. He got Friday the 13th.
“Looks like we’re both just as talented.” Joked Jared as they flew together away from Vancouver to film each other’s movies. They texted and spent hours on the phone talking about everything and anything, Jared even felt bad for his jealousy.
But then Jensen’s work was praised and the movie got better reviews and better box office numbers and their –secret- relationship went south. How could it not if it was Jensen –Jared thought- Jensen the perfect faced guy with a voice of warm honey, who was charming, nd sweet and careful with everything he loved. The one who always had candy for him, and a hug when things made him nervous. The one who could cry at will with s much emotion Jared cried with him, Jensen was talented, Jared saw him turning into dean Winchester in a blink and a little shudder and he felt jealous and insecure, he needed so much more than a blink to go into Sam’s mentality, and half the scenes he ruined with jokes, were ruined because he knew that Jensen acting just couldn’t be any better, and he feared not being half as good.
There was also one other thing; Jared thought that Jensen was his ever after, and he loved him, but they weren’t ready to decide this was the end of the road, so he went around, knowing that at the end of the road, Jensen would be there for him.
Jensen wanted this to be real, to be the end game, Jared was sweet and kind most of the time, and when he wasn’t he had the decency to look repentant later.
He made Jensen bare his very soul, and bared his as well, not all the time, but sometimes, when they needed to be.
The reviews; those praises, the many parts offered to Jensen after MBV, the fact that he was compared to Steve McQueen while Jared’s movie was mocked for being a crappy remake, that’s what caused the breakup.
Around the end of S4 they were done.
Even if the end wasn’t that friendly Jensen went for no hard feelings/mature friendship with a bit more kind of thing, since they were never actually out, people kept seeing this as a friendship between two guys who had worked together half a decade.
Jared started with dumping Sandy and making things weird in set. He was always hinting things and playing gay chicken even if Jensen never wanted to play. People kept thinking of it as a joke.
In Private Jared was always sending Jensen presents, and cards and every little detail he knew his ex would enjoy, would make him think of them, of their happiness.
The offers stopped coming at some point to Jared, and he felt bad for a while, Jensen’s kept coming, more and more; Jensen spent that summer filming Ten Inch Hero and getting close and personal with Danneel and when he came back to set Jared told him he wanted to try again, and Jensen smiled, until he understood Jared meant back into a sexual relationship.
Jared insisted saying that he got depressed because Jensen left him. “I want you with me forever!” he promised as he led Jensen into his house. Jensen believed. “You’re everything I need in my life.” Jensen bought it. “Only you can make me happy.” Jensen felt a shiver running down his back.
For a little bit Jensen might have even bought that, until he came into his trailer after a scene with Misha and found Jared with Gen perched on his lap “running lines”
Jensen could’ve been convinced, but Jared’s hand was buried deep between her legs.
That was the first time Jensen considered leaving the show, he had his heart broken and Jared didn’t even seemed to be sorry this time. Since Eric plan was for 5 seasons he only had to endure one more, right? Just one more season and he’d be gone; move from this and the pain Jared caused him.
Jared begged and cried and whined for days grumbling and moaning about how they had no future after this if they didn’t work together, but Jensen had made his mind.
Yet at the end of Season 5 the begging was not necessary, Jensen was convinced, it wasn’t like the economy was at its best and he was the only one refusing a contract. He couldn’t do that to so many parents, so many from the crew that needed this job.
What did changed was Jared squeezing stuff out of the deal. “please come to this party with me, I cannot be alone with Gen.” Jensen went to the party. “could you come stay with me this week? My dog is sick and I can’t deal with leaving him alone at the vet.” Jensen was there.
Every time the conversation was about how staying in the show was the best, because after all they were only TV actors and what if Jensen couldn’t find a job after Supernatural. “I’m not worried about me, but I’d be devastated if you couldn’t find a job that you deserve.”
Jensen let it get to him, so he signed up for another three seasons. Jared went around with other guys; guest stars and CW actors, even people he met in auditions, the famous one time he bottomed for Jason Momoa was something Jensen had to hear about a million times in their “friendly” relationship. “I could do it again for someone who deserves it.” he said in a whisper for Jensen as a way to tempt him.
Every time Jensen wanted out, wanted to leave Jared had an excuse; “my life is just too harsh right now.” Or the; “after this season I’ll go too, if you want to move on, but for old time’s sake.” The classic; “Harley is gone.. you can’t leave me right now… I need you with me.” And the not so classic; “for the fans, they need to know we keep fighting.”
And then… then Season 11 came and Jensen finally went to Tom Welling his friend and said the line he practiced for years: “BOOM in your face.” He said and won a bet they had from the time they were in Smallville.
He had spent the last four years hearing of all the parts, all the roles he should be doing instead of being trapped in a series that felt like home but stopped being a challenge long ago.
He changed, the shy, *cough*naïve*cough*private guy moved on leaving a mature man, secure and confident, he opened to the love the fans showed and kinda felt bad for missing out on that for years.
But as much as he loved the fans and the show Marvel wanted to reboot Green Lantern after the fiasco with Reynolds, and there was also a movie where he’d been offered the part of a shady lawyer with a not so clean conscience, it was an awesome part, too good to let it pass; the first baddie in a big budget drama he actually liked.
But the network wanted another contract, one for two more seasons, Jensen loved the show, loved it and he was still doubting. There was an epic movie, that was like if Kingdom of Heaven and Ben Hur had angry sex and have had a baby, and he was offered the lead, no audition needed, alongside Karl Urban.
Jared knocked on his door one Sunday morning. “Hey Jay, can we talk for a minute?” Jensen smiled after years, their friendship finally was a real friendship, and having someone he was fond to standing at his door, Jensen opened and offered him a cup of coffee.
“Thanks, you know that coffee helps with depression right?” Jensen walked to the kitchen with a frown, he noticed Jared more quiet lately, and more and more after Jensen asked for a couple days to decide to sign or not.
Jared had let out that Jensen might wanted out making the entire fandom bully him on every social network Jared forced him –at first- to have an account; it wasn’t pretty, there were tears, there were hate and there were a lot of guilt tripping, in the end Jensen forgave him and Jared repeated once more it was not his intention and was a honest to God mistake and this was their first time alone after that fiasco.
“You’re not still blaming yourself for the twitter debacle do you?” Jensen knew Jared felt so bad he got manic for first time in years. For a day…. Not sure how much you know about depression but coming out of it is not like sleeping it off one night.
Jared made a face and looked down. “Sorry… I swear.”
It is dangerous to let someone with depression or anxiety mull over a mistake, Jensen learnt that the first time Jared got depressed, he didn’t have the manic kind often; where you could see him going down, or just find him down one day, it was quite the contrary, you would see him getting bitchy and loud and defensive; and Mean, don’t forget the mean part. His best –and most cruel jokes- were done while depressed.
And it made sense, when he started making a big deal about a suitcase or a delay or any other petty problem, Jensen, Gen, Felicia, Misha, mark, Jim, Osric… everyone had been there for Jared who just needed some attention and some rest and was as good as new.
“Here…” Jensen sat a mug of coffee in front of Jared “don’t worry. I’m not even mad... it’s just you know that sometimes I want to keep stuff for me first.”
Jared looked down again. “Remember the first time we were on set?” Jensen nodded worried, it was rare to have Jared reminiscence old times. “I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.”
“I remember I was very different.” Jensen started with a smile; maybe remembering the innocent version of himself a decade ago. “You have changed a lot too; for the better.” Jensen added with a smile as Jared sipped from his mug.
“It’s just, I’m afraid I can’t control it if the show ends…” Jensen let out a huff. “I’m not in a good place, right now…” and he hiccupped leaving the mug down and covering his face; by reflex Jensen was at his side soothing hand on his back and gentle words for his ears, Jared moved to hug him and Jensen allowed him.
”You’ll be fine… no matter what.” Jensen reassured him.
“No, I won’t be fine if you leave, I cannot deal with the pressure of carrying a show on my own.” Jensen felt touched, even if his pride made him think. *What makes you think there’ll be a show when I leave.*“please… please say you’ll stay…”
Jensen shook his head just trying to say he needed to think about it. “Please, I mean it I will do anything you want for it.” Jared moved closer to Jensen. “I could leave…” Jensen didn’t even have idea who he was seeing by now. “I’ll be all yours… please.” Jared fumbled away from Jensen’s arms and ended up on his knees on the rug trying to get between Jensen’s thighs. “Remember when you cared for me? When you were mine? It could be back to that…” he moved forward trying to kiss him and Jensen avoided him at first.
“I still care for you, you’re my best friend.” Jensen said as he moved avoiding a second attempt. “No... You don’t have to do this…” he tried to leave but he trusted Jared not to hold him with real force, he wasn’t expecting the full force of his arms on him. “Let me go Jared.”
Jared went for innocent seeing that his sexual advances were rejected. “Don’t you love me? I really need someone that loves me right now…” his voice breaking at the end for dramatic effect.
Jensen had been dealing with this for years, so excuse him for not falling for it once more. He loved the show; it was part of his life, but not like this, never again like this.
“What if you don’t get anything else?” Jared tried to play with Jensen’s insecurities. “What if you go back to be the boyfriend in things…” that was it, Jensen got up and moved away.
“Then I’ll be boyfriend, because that’ll be what I get but I won’t stay because you want me to.” He faced Jared with the truth he knew his friend needed to hear. “Don’t project your insecurities on me because you’re afraid you can’t do better than Gilmore girls’ reunion.”
Jared gasped as he stood up. “At least I was part of a show that still has fans and will be resurrected.”
Jensen shrugged. “Good for you, I guess I’ll have to settle with being in the Marvel universe.” Jared tightened his jaw and his nose thrills flared. “And I never said I wouldn’t sign again, did I?” Jared tried to speak but nothing came out of his mouth. “I just don’t want to be forced into it.”
Jared forgot the tears and the supposed depression and acted as his usual cocky self. “So are you staying? I seriously have to work on my schedule to film Gilmore girls and this.”
Jensen let out a huff, annoyance and resignation. “Do as you want.” He moved to the kitchen. “Now get out of my house.”
Jared left to Toronto to start production and few days later after Misha, his family and Jensen spent a weekend together, Jared was informed that YES, Jensen signed again, the same day Misha did.
He’d be Sam a bit more; he’d be the Luke Skywalker and screw pretty boys.
The end.
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Date: 2016-03-30 06:23 pm (UTC)Ps.- Your real name is Kali? Does that mean you're an Indian (Since Kali is an Indian Goddess and a popular name)?
*hugs*
-Sanshal.
(Sorry, couldn't log into my account so commenting as 'anon')
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Date: 2016-03-31 12:21 am (UTC)I just had to do exactly what the muse gave me.
and NO, my name is Karina butI've been kali since ever, except at work nobody else calls me by any other name.
and yeah I know about Kali the Goddess of life and death; incompetitions every time I fought I was introduced as Kali "the Goddess".
and was part of a joke with my two best friends, they were Hector and Darius, so we were Kali and the heroes... (so out of topic I feel awkward)
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Date: 2016-03-31 12:27 am (UTC)I kinda see Jensen as an amazing Green Lantern, yeah? and being DC it could be easier for him.
I made a honest mistake, I'm so sorry, (tho I have never watched that X-men movie I dislike everything after the second movie)
And I might be a blasphemous but I kinda liked the old daredevil's movie, which is reason enough to never ever let the same actor be two superheroes, Evans...? I can deal with it, but Affleck EWWW!!