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Tittle: I don’t want your happy ending.

Author: Kali

Kinks: J2, dub/non con, forced mating, angst, social humiliation, character’s death (not main) redemption, happy ending (there will be more but not for now)

Part twenty four is HERE

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Jared was waiting for the doctor to let him go home. Or with Misha, He had promised help after they got to talk.

Misha begged him to take the trust fund and go to school. “There’s an amazing culinary arts program in Chicago…” he offered. “And I’m moving there with my daughter too.” Pleading blue eyes tried to convince him. “Please, come with me, let’s move away from all this, here… there’s only pain for you.”

Jared promised he’d think about it, even if he knew he’d say yes, because what the point was if Jensen wasn’t there.

“I’m sorry for making you wait.” The doctor said as he passed the door followed by two other doctors and three guys in suits. “But I believe Mr. Padalecki that we have a situation….”

Turns out someone stole his information and part of his medical history had been publicized. His mating test results, Jared blushed and felt his heart breaking, great as if the humiliations so far weren’t enough.“We already contacted Mr. Ackles’ family; they’re sending a legal team to help us deal with this. ” The hospital legal counselor offered to Jared. “We haven’t told him yet, since his condition still keeps him mildly sedated.”

“Is he…..” alive… was obvious he was, but the relief that washed over him made him want to cry. “Is he here?”

The doctors and attorneys looked at each other. “I’m sorry sir, since you never asked…” Jared’s doctor looked around to the others. “Nobody informed you about your mate’s state?”

Jared had the sarcastic retort at the tip of his tongue. No he had no idea Jensen was alive. WAIT!! Mate?

Jensen was still in bed rest, but he could sit now, and even go to the bathroom, it might not be impressive but it was a lot when you’ve been tied to a bed for weeks.

He felt weird, as if expecting something, knowing something was about to happen, an energy was running down his back making those bits he hadn’t feel for days hurt again.

“What the fuck is this!!” Jared shouted throwing a print page at Jensen as soon as he passed the door. “What the fuck is this!!” he repeated when his mate looked at him openmouthed, jaw fallen and eyes huge. Jared had dark circles under his eyes and was too pale, his body hunched a little due the pain of his half healed wounds.

“What are you doing here?” asked Jensen softly, he had to contain himself to hold Jared and kiss him. “Are you okay?” he smiled. “I had no idea… I didn’t know how you were... I was-” worried got stuck in his throat as Jared interrupted.

“Is this true? You just wanted me to disappear? To leave you alone?” Jared tried to get close but something was stronger, the need to cry, to beg him not to let go. “Tell me there another reason, a real reason for…” making me leave was left unsaid. “You said we were good together…. But this…” he pointed to the paper Jensen tried to smooth enough to read. It was a screen caps of an internet site, the result of their mating test on it the positive circled in red. “You fucking lied to me… you said we were good, you made fucking plans of summers and the ranch and then…” and he sobbed

Jensen smiled; his heart was beating so hard he feared Jared could hear it. “I gave you your happy ending, money to have the life you wanted, and freedom to do as you please… I offered you that and I delivered exactly that.” He was trembling. “But…” Jared didn’t let him go on.

“That’s not what I want…”they said in unison and Jared felt his voice breaking.

“That was never what I….” Jared sniffled looking to a side. “Okay… if that’s what I’ll get… okay…”

Jensen tried to get up and get close. “Wait… ” Jared turned around and started walking away. “Wait…!!”

Jared didn’t made eye contact anymore. “I don’t want to be Felicia… I don’t want to go around begging for some love, and I don’t want to be Alison, bitter and desperate, holding grudges until a tragedy… if you don’t want me, fine, I’ll leave…”

“I don’t want you to go, I know what this means to me, and if it is …”

“Means to an end? Jensen. And the end is school; you’re dumb enough to pay? I’m not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth.” Jensen felt the same searing pain robbing him of breathe as Jared held his side and started walking away.

Jensen wanted to scream make him stop. But the pain had bent him over, and in a couple seconds this two fools broke each other’s hearts again.

Around eight months later Jared heard him for first time. “Why? Jared...” Juliette was crying, it was her birthday and everyone was coming for the party except Jared.

Jared lied; he already had spoken to Misha he’d present his excuses to the family, not even Alan calling made him go. “Sweetie grown up school is different.” She kept crying.

“Daddy wants you to come… he said he tried to call you… but you never answer I was there, you don’t want to come…” Jared closed his eyes; it hurt to make her cry.

“I love you sweetie, but I have classes and a job.”

She wailed. “Uncle Misha and Kathy are coming!! And she’s in school too!! Even Rachel came out of hospital for this!!” she rubbed her face. “You just don’t love me anymore”

“I sent you the best cake I could but I’m sorry, if you don’t believe me there’s nothing I can do to convince you…”

“I don’t want to talk to you ever again!!” and Jared heard the voice that broke his heart once more, even more than the *I hate you* the girl kept repeating.

“Stop Juliette I told you he’s busy, you have to understand.” The screen went black as it disconnected he couldn’t deal with Jensen’s voice.

Jensen lived of those few seconds of Jared’s voice or image he had for Juliette, and the few pictures he took of them, at the beach house, at the penthouse and with the girls, his wounds had healed nicely so much he even started going to the office again.

He had all his hopes on Jared coming to Ju’s birthday, he had in his pocket the same box he carried since their weekend, and the last minute cancelation broke his heart.

To make things worst Felicia entered with six dozen presents. Alaina looked at Jensen as if he invited the woman. “Jensen…”she warned. “I’ll deal with her…” one motion of her arm had Cliff and Tahmoh behind her

Juliette sat next to her grandfather angry at Jensen and everyone because in her opinion, they should’ve forced Jared to be there.

“Aren’t you going to enjoy your party?” Alan asked with a smile.

“No until Jared arrives…” she crossed her arms and ignored the kids running behind a clown.

Alan made a sound. “I rather enjoy the party and send pictures to him so he feels bad for not coming.” He got up calling the girl making balloon animals and asked for a rabbit.

By the time she was presented with a giant cake with a mermaid on it she had convinced Kathryn to get Jared on facetime so he could sing too.

Jared took his break and cried the entire time, his boss a baker with an absurd mustache and a beer belly. “I remember leaving my kids behind… it hurts, but one day, with school finished you’ll go back and she’d be proud of his papa…” he said offering him a Kleenex.

Juliette hugged her daddy and sent a kiss to Kathy’s cellphone. Jensen looked up right on time to see the face on the screen sending a kiss back and he gasped feeling the pain deep in him.

And Jared felt the same when his eyes found Jensen’s on the small screen.

By the time the last kids were going home and Richard was holding his third serving of cake he sat next to Jensen in the only table still lit, only friends were there Alan had already gone home Misha and Kathryn to the airport.

“So… little brother…” He stuffed cake in his mouth leaving a green stain from the mermaid’s tail on his bottom lip. “Could you even smile? There’s not ONE picture from this entire thing where you’re smiling.” And looking at him he kept talking. “You’re miserable.”

Jensen shrugged. “I don’t know what you are talking about.”

Richard tossed his dish on the table they were at. “Don’t be stupid, I know misery when I see it in the face. I know that because I was mated before I would never have kids with Alaina, I know that because I was mated before she’ll always be bitter and aggressive and too territorial, yet I’m happy because I’m with the one I love, the one I belong with.” Jensen rolled his eyes and took his camera from the table going through his pictures. “What about you baby brother? Aren’t you going to go catch your happiness?”

Jensen snorted throwing his camera on the table as Alaina got close to her husband Nicki and Tito were with her carrying stacks of empty glasses. “What am I supposed to do? Follow him across the country and beg?”

Richard made a funny face. “Is a good start…?”

Rachel giggled. “Telling him that you were wrong for thinking you knew better is a good idea too.”

Jensen scoffed. “Isn’t this a private matter?”

“Sweetie…” Alaina sat on her mate’s lap. “We let you two idiots handle this as a private matter and here we are, you’re miserable and he’s crying.”

“He’s not crying!!” Jensen shouted as Alaina rolled her eyes and offered him her phone. “The only way to make Ju sleep when you’re not home is with videos from him.” Jared had a thick wet line on his face.

Jensen had to cross his fingers to stop himself from reaching for the screen.

“My feet are hurting…” Juliette landed face first against Jensen. “Daddy… I don’t want another birthday party ever…” everyone in the table laughed.

“OOOH!!” Tito raised a finger as if remembering something. “I still have your present…” he offered the girl a small box. And Juliette squealed as he took it thanking him. As her dad helped her to unwrap the present she giggled. “Is this a ring like the one my daddy carries in his pocket?”

Jensen mumbled something to her and Juliette laughed as every other person in the table looked at each other surprised.

“I haven’t give you a present either…” Jensen commented. “what do you want? I’ll give you whatever you want.”

“Jared…” Juliette said looking down as expecting to hear an excuse.

Jensen finished with the box as the entire table was quiet.

“I told you… go catch your happiness.” Richard commented.

“Think about those that can’t get someone…” Rachel said out of nowhere. “you have the chance don’t let your pride win Jensen, don’t let Jared’s stubbornness win.”

Jensen held his girl in his lap as he latches the necklace with a golden cross Tito gave her. “Juliette…” the girl looked at him. “Would you stay with your uncle and aunt while I go bring Jared back?”

There are those goals, world cup championship worth goals where everyone shouts and hoots so loud the entire city knows… well, the entire city knew of this too.

***

Jensen ran out of the airport because the long hours on a plane in a trip that was not planned made him nervous, made him think about what he was about to do. What he was supposed to say… and he had no idea.

As he stood at the curb signaling a taxi a car stopped in front of him. Kathryn’s head stuck out. “Uncle Jay?” Jensen leaned down and saw Misha driving.

“Can you give me a lift? I’m going to talk to Jared… I hope…” Kathryn was squealing

Misha looked at Jensen serious and menacing. “Don’t you hurt him; he’s still struggling but he’s doing fine…”

Jensen opned the door and tossed his backpack in. “I don’t want him to do it fine, I want to make him feel amazing…” his cheeks felt hot at the corniness of his words but that was exactly what he wanted.

“Dad… I swear I’ll wake up at five… I’m going to your apartment tonight.”

Jensen looked at them. “you don’t live together?”

Kat rolled her eyes. “Uncle…. I’m in college, I’m sure my dad won’t want to live with me at this age…”

Misha smiled as he took the exit of the highway. “No… nope! I had enough with one view of that kid Osric…” Kat gasped. “I know you’re an adult but I don’t want to see it.”

Kat tried to explain. “Not judging, not even asking or anything, I like my ignorance as it is…”

“Where does Jared lives then?” Jensen asked looking out the window as they were parking under a building.

“With me…” Misha got out ready to hear the alpha protest. But Jensen didn’t say a word.

“At least someone is looking after him.” Jensen mumbled once they were out of the car.

Misha offered his keys. “Go ahead, Kat and I will get our bags.” Jensen walked ahead hearing faintly over the rush of blood in his hears the moan from his niece “DAAAAD!!!! Now I’m not gonna hear what they say…”

Jensen waited trembling as the elevator ran up, his hands were sweaty and he felt like dying, something heavier than butterflies in his stomach, but there was also relief, he was finally going to see Jared.

He took a deep breath and used the key.

“Hey Mish…” shouted Jared from the kitchen. “You have to tell me how the hell you made that sauce on Sunday because my version is not half as goo…” he didn’t turn, he just stood there frozen.

“Hey…” Jensen let out a breathe he had no idea he was holding.

Jared wanted to ask what he was doing there but couldn’t, his throat felt sand dry and the words died there.

“I…” Jensen moved two steps forward. “Thank you for the cake… the girls told me...”

Jared left the dishtowel he had in hands. “You didn’t have to come all the way here to thank me. I thought that you have to stop seeing me so you can mate with someone… ” His voice cracked. “That was the plan, that was the happy ending, I’ll get an education, and you’ll get to be with someone else, not just simple me, inconsequential me… someone better for your family.”

Jensen moved ahead fast, one step only before something warm and fulfilling poured inside of him. Yet he had to make Jared stop. “Allison said the exact same about herself… I don’t want you to end up like her.”

Jared made a face and moved away with great effort. “I get it now… we have to be in good terms, right? So I don’t end up hurting your future…” whatever word he tried in his head felt like a stab so he let the words die.

“I don’t want that, I don’t want the end you wanted, I don’t want to be away from you… feeling your pain…”

“You offered something Jensen. After you took everything from me?”

“You took something too, you offered me to the media you cared for so much, and you made me a joke…” and Jensen got quiet, why was he angry? Jared was just there. “You left…”

Jared raised his eyes to his mate, so small, so vulnerable. “You made me leave…”

And Jensen moved closer at the sound of a Jared so defeated. “I was wrong.” Jared couldn’t look at him, not with tears in his eyes, what was wrong with him? He was crying again.

He held his breath and willed his tears back when a snuffle called his attention, Jensen was sobbing openly.

“I don’t know what we can have… if you will be able to trust me… but I know one thing, anything you give me is going to be better than this… this emptiness, this sorrow…”

Jared chuckled, he had thought on the same words a million times during the months they were apart. “What? What is so funny? I can’t even sleep or breath I can’t see a fucking bubble without thinking on you.” He let out in one run before gasping for breath.

“I just don’t want to feel this miserable…”

Jared nodded. “Anything… even being tied to me is better than the pull of our bond… I get it.”

Jensen ran to him and held him by the arms as he tried hard to drown his sobs. “No… no, its not the feeling, is not having you…” and looked the few inches up right in Jared’s eyes. “GOSH!! What is wrong with me…” he passed a hand over his face chuckling. “Why you have all this power over me…”

Jared held his hand to see his face. “The same stupid bond…” and let out a laugh to stifle his sob. “The same stupid feeling.”

“At the mark of Cain…”Jensen started. “All I could think about was you… to protect you, to stop Alison from hurting you… I wanted you with me, so much!!” Jensen let out a breath while pushing Jared against the counter so he couldn’t get away. “I saw Tom… he mated with someone I didn’t know. And when Alison shot I saw his mate crouched over a dead body, I saw a mate in love being torn apart and I couldn’t do that to you, I had to go back I had to live for you… I’m alive because I couldn’t leave you…”

He reached cleaning Jared’s tears with his hand. “I once offered you something, and you said no.” Jared sniffled. “But I won’t give up; I’m here again, offering you the same… not something perfect not ever after… Just a chance; just the opportunity to be together, to be happy and… and… I don’t want anything else, anything!! I just want you and if you say no… if you say no I’ll be here begging over and over and over, every time I can…”

Jared tried to move away. “Please… no.”

“Why not? I’m trying... I am; I want it to be right… I want this because…”

Jared finally moved away. “That’s the point.. I don’t want to be the right thing to do, I want… more…”

“I’ll die without you…!” Jensen let out. “Please…” and after a beat of silence. “Don’t make me beg…” Jared smiled.

“Would you beg?” Jensen looked resolute.

“If I have to, if you make me…”

Jared let out another sob.

“Just… I want us to be the couple that has a song, the couple that could eat ice cream or share a glass of wine, or visit friends for lasagna and jokes.” And cradling Jared’s face Jensen added. “I want to be with you, for the rest of my life, maybe have a couple more kids…” Jared blinked. “If you want, if not I swear I’ll be okay with it.” He smiled. “I want to be with you every night. I want it to do it right. Which is different to do it because is right…” they chuckled. “Say yes… please?”

“No more perfect ever after?”

“Not perfect anything, just real stuff, just you and me… ”

Jared closed his eyes; it takes a lot of strength to do something like this, a lot of strength. Jared moved away and shook his head.

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Next Part HERE
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So yeah.. they got to talk to each other finally.