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szarabasjkawe were getting ready when the Sgt. got called to a side and a major came to see the company:"where's the China doll?" he asked and I laughed, who'd be that person, poor thing... and the sgt. called my name... I was purple I swear...
I've been told that the right person pulled the right strings to keep me away from problems, I can keep Ernie(junior) as long as the rest doesn't feel is unfair, I'll let them use it every now and then so hopefully...
I'm not in marine mode yet, so every time I get yelled at cause me to cringe, every time someone make a nasty coment on me I hurt, I've been pulled out of the hardest part but still had training with the rest, remember the surgeon hands? perfect and smooth? gone, all I see is bruises and scratches on them, I'm strong though, I've seen younger kids crying, I've seen a younger girl begging, this is just way too much.
had aim practice today and guess what? I was so tired that hardly could hold the rifle, my legs are burning my arms are sore, I'm feeling bad and I miss my home.
how am I supposed to train this kids in things I do not believe anymore?
this is for Josh and Vin, please guys I wanted to post this here because I needed it out of my chest BUT if Carlos, Uncle Freddy or Nate hear they'll feel terrible, so please and I'm begging you, PLEASE don't let them know, esp you J, we know that my Adawill ask you.
And V I know you're not use to our stuff, don't worry, ask Hector he'll fill you up with everything.
I've been told that the right person pulled the right strings to keep me away from problems, I can keep Ernie(junior) as long as the rest doesn't feel is unfair, I'll let them use it every now and then so hopefully...
I'm not in marine mode yet, so every time I get yelled at cause me to cringe, every time someone make a nasty coment on me I hurt, I've been pulled out of the hardest part but still had training with the rest, remember the surgeon hands? perfect and smooth? gone, all I see is bruises and scratches on them, I'm strong though, I've seen younger kids crying, I've seen a younger girl begging, this is just way too much.
had aim practice today and guess what? I was so tired that hardly could hold the rifle, my legs are burning my arms are sore, I'm feeling bad and I miss my home.
how am I supposed to train this kids in things I do not believe anymore?
this is for Josh and Vin, please guys I wanted to post this here because I needed it out of my chest BUT if Carlos, Uncle Freddy or Nate hear they'll feel terrible, so please and I'm begging you, PLEASE don't let them know, esp you J, we know that my Adawill ask you.
And V I know you're not use to our stuff, don't worry, ask Hector he'll fill you up with everything.
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Date: 2008-08-03 01:10 am (UTC)Hey sweety
Date: 2008-08-04 03:02 am (UTC)still miss you, need you here with cold pizza and swearing like a sailor.
what do we know about the trip?
let us know ok?
J