szarabasjka

nothing much a sugery cancelled at last minute so I was out earlier...
I've been trying to think about something else, but the shadow of why Hector didn't call is still here...
did I ever said what's wrong between us?
well let me explain myself.
We're frineds since collegue, and became very very close, we shared our lives witheach other, he knows things about me that no one else knows, he used to call me my love ever since we started hanging out, and I call him my love too, for no special reason.
then we tried to date, but something went wrong and we decided to stay as friends, thn he met a girl, one of my friends who used to be dating my other friends Ofelia's little Brother, the one I'm talking about is Elli.
Elli and Sean were dating and I met Vinnie and we had a perfect double dates for a while, until well Vincent did what we know he did, cheated on me and Leaning in Sean Kicked him out of my life.
Then everything started, I was alone and needy and i guess Sean wanted to be by my side, and Elli got jealous, told me that he was HER bf and I had nothing to do with it.
they broke up and my friend was misserable so I talked to Elli and decided not to talk to Sean again if she gaves hima second chance, and they got engaged...
they didn't lasted long, but long enough for Sean to gave up on her, she got pregnant for a last year resident on her internship year, they got Married and Sean, on the curv, so I picked him up and sent him to another girl, since then my Hector dated girls here and there, didn't let me date Josh in his words he wasn't good enough for me, he punched Roger in the face when he hurted me, was there to spooke some other guys, then we get together for what must have been the longest period of time and it was good, I mean, good, I thought I was "there", then Dennis arrived, he made me a scene in front of him, even thought I've never tried to do anything on his back,he left and was back in weeks, and well when I finally decided to give him a chance again he decided he wanted another girl, and he's been torturing me for the last year with it,we get together then he chickens out and then he's back and we're fine for the next two weeks or so.
this is just completelly incoherent why I let him, my friend, my guy to do this to me? He was suposed to deffend me against guys that treat me like crapnot be one of them...
still looking for him to clear things out.once and for all.
I don't need this.
nothing more, I'm tired but not too tired.

Ari has been asked to leave, but not alone, she's leaving with Samuel and another guy I've never learned his name, the bad part? my interns, is not that I'm bad,I'm just a little hard to please than the rest, and they were no surgeon material if they can't cope with me. *does it has something to do with the fact that I'm an ex- marine?* Not Ari thou, she's very good, for what i've heard she found a better probram for pediatric surgery, and I'm happy for her, we will keep in touch lol, but the two guys...
Anyway, is not my fault is it?
song for the day

like it...

Boy to Girl: If I could see you naked I'd die happy
Girl to Boy: If I see you naked I'd die laughing

and I do want to see this movie seems ike its gonna be fun.

guy for today?