sorrow

can I go to bed and wake up in six years? can I please just get numb enough to forget everything...?
I just want to stop this dispair from getting me!!

I want to be where this can't get me, this hollow space, this pain, this*points ot chest*

I want to be able to cry and to scream and not to hae to pretend everything is fine, I don't wnat to have the stupid fake smile on all the time, just that.