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at 8:35 JC Tolla Died, he had a mediastinal sarcoma, and died in peace with the less pain possible and just after I said Hello, people said he was waiting for me,but all I want to do is stop thinking about him, stop the pain, the sadness I hate this hole inside of me, I feel the cold of an empty space inthe middle of my chest,, I cannot stop sighing or feeling the need to cry, why? he was only my patient, and.. well Dr M willnever forgive me for crying in front of his family.
GOd.. I'm feeling so bad *bump head against the desk*

What I did? why I choosed the worst bastard in my history of romantic relationships and decided to go back with him?
he's controlling me all the time he's calling me or texting me at the hospital Dr. M made fun of me because of it. and WHY DID I CARE ABOUT HIM RIGHT NOW!!! i'm mourning... I'm mourning a great friend...