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I just can't believe it...
Jun. 24th, 2006 06:56 pmHe was my inspiration, the reason why life has sense since 'that' day.
I think I've never mentioned here
I first met the BSB when they were in Europe i Spain to be exact, and because of Aaron singing for the lion king, but I was sure they were 5ive*blush*
ok the story came here:
I was really depressed for problems and then I spent like... weeks without leaving my bed, I had problems with school and with my parents and decided to move away from everything I ever knew, then... when I was all alone, and I really can't remember more about it, I was really lost LOL I tried to hang myself, I climbed on my desk and don't know,I guess stepped on my TV remote or something but the next thing I remember is Kevin's vice in "I'll never brake your heart" the part 'baby I know you're hurt, right now you feel like you'd never love again, but all I ask is for a chance to prove that I love you' I know it sound cheesy but for some reason it changed something there, I was crying and just realized the stupid thing I was about to do, after few minutes and the whole video and few hours thinking about my life I decided not to do anything stupid.
now several years latter I'm gonna be a medicine doctor next year and I'm still a fan.
well anyway I really need it out of my chest *sighing*
don't think I'm weird, and do not pity me.. I think it was meant to be, I always wonder what if the video on TV that day would be anything from Nsync? LOL
that's exactly what I'm posting on Kevin's Myspace, he's leaving the BSB can you all believe it?
I mean he's my idol since I was 15!!
AND ANOTHER THING!!
that I found few minutes ago in IMDb I just read 'Nate's memorial' and for christ I thought it was Nate_skate and it scared the shit out of me.. cried my eyes out not knowing what to do or what to believe. but I had it wrong, someone died and I'm still sad but Natroe died ad Nate is ok, and I'm just so happy!!! that I'm crying again.
I think I've never mentioned here
I first met the BSB when they were in Europe i Spain to be exact, and because of Aaron singing for the lion king, but I was sure they were 5ive*blush*
ok the story came here:
I was really depressed for problems and then I spent like... weeks without leaving my bed, I had problems with school and with my parents and decided to move away from everything I ever knew, then... when I was all alone, and I really can't remember more about it, I was really lost LOL I tried to hang myself, I climbed on my desk and don't know,I guess stepped on my TV remote or something but the next thing I remember is Kevin's vice in "I'll never brake your heart" the part 'baby I know you're hurt, right now you feel like you'd never love again, but all I ask is for a chance to prove that I love you' I know it sound cheesy but for some reason it changed something there, I was crying and just realized the stupid thing I was about to do, after few minutes and the whole video and few hours thinking about my life I decided not to do anything stupid.
now several years latter I'm gonna be a medicine doctor next year and I'm still a fan.
well anyway I really need it out of my chest *sighing*
don't think I'm weird, and do not pity me.. I think it was meant to be, I always wonder what if the video on TV that day would be anything from Nsync? LOL
that's exactly what I'm posting on Kevin's Myspace, he's leaving the BSB can you all believe it?
I mean he's my idol since I was 15!!
AND ANOTHER THING!!
that I found few minutes ago in IMDb I just read 'Nate's memorial' and for christ I thought it was Nate_skate and it scared the shit out of me.. cried my eyes out not knowing what to do or what to believe. but I had it wrong, someone died and I'm still sad but Natroe died ad Nate is ok, and I'm just so happy!!! that I'm crying again.
