I'm melting...

and no, it has nothing to do with red shoes and water....
I'm fucking inlove, and every time it gets worst and worst...
life is a bitch so punch her in the face... that's gonna be my motto now on, if you can't get what you want in a good way, the take it anyway LOL
I whis I could get Sean and I hope I've never hurt Sean, we love each other, that's what he told me but now we can't be together, I understand that but i still miss him, that kiss... such a sweet romantic kiss, the way his hands were aroud me, his hand in my skin, his warmth...
somebody tell me why its not enough for me?
I don't deserve this...


about other stuff its very scary knowing that I really need good grades in my next exams... its realy messy
Javier is very interesting and that guy Duane LOL I love my group, I really do.
tomorrow Pancreatitis, in front of a huge crowd... I'm nervous
love... I used to be inmune to it and I was happy, then I meet it and I was happy then I lost it and now I'm in pain, is it normal is it the way its suposed to be? I mean, c'mon, I know someone on my age shouldn't be this naive but I spent my life shielded for friends and irony and now my shiel is broken I let people see my softer stupid inside and I'm scared.
I don't want to suffer for this, I should keep my heart closed don't you think?