szarabasjka

so as usual I started a fill for the SPN meme becaue it touches me very deep inside for an experience.
the prompt called for a rich J and a sick J and how one J can't beat the impeding death of his loved one (the other J).

I had everything thought, my sad stupid story made into a little organized chaos for you to understand why SORROW has its own tag, how I still say that My heart will never be whole again and all that jazz...

But why am I saying all this in past? because jared is an asshole. literally!! he just had to go and be his self important self and ruin my fic!!

How is he supposed to play A, my loved one who couldn't beat Ca when he's a self entitled asshole who can't even be nice with a waitress. How can I make him a sick person who gave everything for others, and never in his life said anything mean to anyone. The man who smiled to the very end. how can I make him A who never in his entire life was mean to anyone ??

so yeah it means no fic for a while until i get over this mess