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REMEMBER TO VOTE FOR JENSEN, THERE'S ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS

Remember 2016 is #PCAforJensen year.

Ten years of amazing job can't go without a reward, even if its only an award.

Keep in you rprayers those who are vitcim of terrorism and its consequences.

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Tittle: I don’t want your happy ending.

Author: Kali

Kinks: J2, dub/non con, forced mating, angst, social humiliation, character’s death (not main) redemption, happy ending (there will be more but not for now)

Part eighteen is HERE

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They sat at the table right next to each other; Jensen held his fingers and Jared felt his heart going crazy, they chatted about the day before and the pictures Jensen took.

This was the best vacation he’s ever had, except… Jared got quiet suddenly bitterly noticing this was not a regular holyday trip. “You look sad…” Jensen moved his hand away. “I didn’t mean to…”

Jared shook his head. “I thought this is the best trip I ever had but I haven’t ever had a holiday trip like this… so.”

“We’re going to do this an annual thing, or maybe twice a year…” but the breath Jensen took in to add more and more plans left him as Jared’s face sunk.

“I… what if there’s no next year?”

Jensen left his cup of coffee. “I’m still trying to be…” positive couldn’t pass his lips. “I want to do the right thing, even if only for a couple more days.”

Jared swallowed his complain, I don’t want you to do the right thing…

“I’m planning on taking you dancing tonight” Jensen said out of the blue. “Every weekend people do this grand balls by the dock, the ladies organize it to gather resources for charity… you don’t even have to dress up or anything, just a couple drinks, and some music…” he smiled as he blinked dorkily to Jared. “Would you go out with me?”

Jared looked at his pancakes. “People are going to see us there…” silence fell on them after that.

Little Jared knew that people had seen them just fine. Pictures of the happy couple and the little girl were already decorating every magazine and yellow press paper. “The Happy Couple and their offspring”, “Fairy tale happy: Once Upon a time Jensen and Jared Ackles”, “teeth rotting sweet”, “Rumors claim that this is the last attempt to start acting like a couple for them”.

“Hunky Jensen Ackles taking mementos of his young family on a field trip near the Ackles’ beach mansion.” Was one of the best sold ones; Jensen on one knee taking pictures of Juliette dancing with a clown while Jared held her balloons and her windmill with a white dimpled smile on his face; then another of Jensen sitting on a bench tying Juliette’s shoelace as Jared held the camera, and another of Jared holding Juliette on his arms running dock down and Jensen laughing so hard his face was scrunched and his neck was exposed as his head was thrown back.

“Just look at them!!” Rachel gushed. “They’re so absurdly obvious!!”

Nicki rolled her eyes. “Calm down…” Be she was smiling just as much as Rachel.

Tito? Well; he just bit his lip worried about how deep Jared was going or if he’d left the plan behind. “I just don’t want to see you brokenhearted…” he said as he trailed a finger over the page; was he really sticking to the plan? Was all this to get something from Jensen? Because the guy was not perfect, but was nice and tried to do his best for Jared, and he was totally in love. He wanted to believe Jared couldn’t do this to anyone, not even to Jensen.

Jensen sat with Juliette to watch cartoons as Jared bathed and got ready, then they went to the beach, and spent the time making sand castles, they buried Juliette making her a mermaid tail with sand, Jared produced a million tiny seashells for it and seaweed was his mermaid hair, she laughed like Jensen never heard her when Jared declared himself her seabass butler. Jensen took a dozen pictures of the girl laughing with her eyes closed and Jared making the best impression of a British butler .

They had lunch right there from a basket Jared made himself, and then they swam for a while, by mid afternoon Jensen was laying on his stomach, back exposed to the sun, Juliette using his leg as a pillow, her face hid under a giant umbrella, her feet on Jared’s legs as he was laying on his back right next to Jensen.

“Would you go dance with me?” Jensen asked again startling Jared awake. “Please don’t make me beg…” Jared smiled.

“Would you beg?” Jensen looked resolute.

“If I have to, if you make me…”

Jared’s heart swelled for no good reason; is not like this was a huge thing or anything. “Okay… let’s go dancing tonight.”

Juliette was already in bed too tired to even read with her daddy, by the time Jensen came out of her bedroom Julie was there reassuring him. “I stay with her alat all times Sir, she’ll be fine.”

Jensen smiled. “You are coming with us next year, right?” she chuckled and said that he better make her an offer because several other families wanted her.

“Tomorrow... I promise…” he said Julie McNivven was a treasure and he wasn’t planning on letting her go any time soon.

By the time he entered his bedroom to change Jared was ready, deep red shirt and fitting jeans, Jensen sucked in a breath and Jared giggled blushing. “I‘ll take that this are not from my six weeks in a row as the worst dressed.”

Jensen frowned as he tossed his dirty t-shirt into the hamper. “give me ten minutes and I’ll be ready.”

Less than half an hour later, they were leaving the house walking towards the dock where the light of small white bulbs bathed everything in an ethereal almost fairy tale-like light. It was decorated like an old fashioned carnival, like something taken out of Grease.

Jensen bought him an orchid, the rare ones, and a raffle ticket for some electronic thing. Jared won a trivia contest about president Nixon and then they made their way to the dance floor.

Jensen made Jared twirl until he was in his arms and Jared rolled his eyes. “You’re really enjoying this, right?”

Jensen’s hand traveled from his waist through his back pressing him closer. And he made a funny face. “Of course!” both chuckled.

They swayed to the music without paying attention to anyone else.

As the music deemed to a pause the singer thanked the people clapping, including Jensen and Jared. “Thank you and remember… vote for you lovey dovey couple of the night…” people cheered. “Now, what about some Elvis?”

As the sad notes of “fools rush in” started Jared let go of Jensen. “I’m thirsty…” it was too much, too many memories in one, he didn’t want them attached to a song he liked.

They ended up drinking Cherry Cola and watching other couples. “I’m sorry…” Jared said smiling. “This is amazing I shouldn’t have made you beg me to come…”

“Glad you like this….” Jensen said ruffling the orchid on Jared’s shirt. “I knew you’d love it.”

They chatted for a little and then the band stopped. “Mrs. Everett asked me to remind you guys to buy the cotton candy, something sweet for your sweet one.” Jensen looked at Jared who was clapping and holding himself from jumping like Juliette. “Let’s get cotton candy…”

At the small over decorated stand a dark haired lady got close and presented herself as Nina and asked if they would want to go to the fundraising they were organizing.

“Oh, I don’t know… ” Jared turned at Jensen. “let me check our schedule if we could make it…” the obvious displeasure in her gesture made Jensen tighten his hold on Jared’s back.

“okay, but we would really be pleased to have you there…”she let out as she left ordering someone to serve them the candy.

“what was that?” Jensen asked between his teeth.

“she’d like us there, as the killer whales…” Jensen turned at him surprised. “I know… but nobody is going to make us a show for their own purpose.” Jensen kissed his cheek

“I like when you act like the cruel stepmother.” Jared scoffed and rolled his eyes as Jensen laughed.

Once they were holding giant servings of pastel blue fluffy cotton in hands, they moved down the dock; music trailing behind them.

“You know…” Jensen was toying with his candy. “I never had an answer… will you ever be able to forgive me?” Jared stopped mirroring Jensen. “For... for that night?” his eyes were hidden and his lips twisted up. “I think that if that never happened, I’d have tried to ask you out anyways.”

Jared smiled. “I don’t think there’s a way to forget what happened… it changed my life so much.”

“I’m sorry… I will never say it enough but I do, I’m sorry…”

Jared nodded. “Okay… I accept your apologies…”

Jensen bit his bottom lip and turned around. “You don’t have to humor me…” Jared moved fast, cotton forgotten and rolling on the wooden path.

“I’m not… I’m… if you ever invited me I’d have said yes… and not because of who you are…” without more they kissed again, Jensen broke the kiss when his back hit the rail of the dock and both looked away and chuckled. Jensen drove Jared back holding his hand, and they danced, not caring for anything else, sharing now and then sweet soft kisses and smiles, not a word were spoken between them.

They won the Lovey Dovey couple contest, and they got a ticket for a fancy dinner on the biggest restaurant in the area, they got a picture for the paper and then they had a dance of honor, the band singer asked them the song they wanted. Jared looked at Jensen startled.

“Photograph?” asked Jensen to his mate.

Jared smiled, “Ed Sheeran?”

“Our first song was his…” Jared chuckled softly and Jensen hugged him close as if wanting to keep that laugh just for himself.

“I want that then…” the entire room looked at them as if they were the cutest puppies ever.

The song was Thinking Out Loud, and the entire party cooed and clapped as they made their way across the dance floor. And press had a feast with the adorable couple dancing in a dock. Jared wanted to believe this was the first time; he wanted to believe this will be the rest of his life now. That Jensen would always be his.

But they only had one more day before reality got there.

Jensen left Jared at the door of their bedroom. “I don’t mind you staying…” Jared said against his lips.

Jensen let out a shaky breath as his resolve crumbled. “I do, I want to do this properly… when the time is right.” he kissed him one last time and then went to sleep in some other room.

By morning Jensen woke up with Juliette sitting on top of him. “Why aren’t you sleeping with Jared?”

Jensen blinked the sleep from his eyes. “I was reading and fell asleep here…” he lied.

“Jared said you went out really early…” she climbed down and ran to the kitchen shrieking like a banshee. “Jared!!! I found my daddy!”

Breakfast was as quiet as the night before, but Jensen and Jared kept looking at each other smiling.

“Daddy what are we going to do today?” Jensen finally looked away from Jared a little bit ashamed of how distracted he’d been. “I don’t know sweetie what do you want to do?”

“Can we go riding?”

Jensen nodded and looking at Jared, after his mate nodded he turned to his girl again. “With one condition; you have to ride with me…”

“I can’t ride on my own yet, I have to go with you anyways…” she said laughing licking maple syrup from her dish.

Jared had never ride in his life, so Jensen had to give him a crash course. The first ride had Jared and Juliette on one horse and Jensen holding the reins for them.

They got home around six sweaty and tired; Juliette took a bath and went straight to bed. “I really don’t think that’s healthy, we’re wearing her out too much.” Jared commented concerned.

“It’s perfectly okay.” Julie said and tugged Juliette in bed. “She’s been missing her dad, and now she can’t stop talking about you either.”

Jared took Jensen’s hand and dragged him to their bedroom after dinner. “You don’t have to sleep anywhere else.”

Jensen tried to resist. “Please… let’s wait, okay?” he tried to leave.

“No…” Jared held his hand. “You don’t have to go… we don’t have to do anything… just… stay with me?”

Jensen moved closer and kissed Jared’s brow. “Okay, I can do that; I’ll stay with you if you want me to.”

The night was calmed and perfect. But Monday was just there, with everything.

After Juliette left for kinder garden Jared left the house, he trailed every part of the house he had been with Jensen in the few times he was here.

He ended up at the stables caressing the snoot of the serene horse that took him and Juliette on a ride.

“One day we’re going to the ranch, we have twelve horses there, and there’s this Clydesdale mare, she’s about to drop, the foal will be yours, it’s especially beautiful around christm-”

“Stop…” Jared didn’t raise his eyes. “You keep talking as if I were going to be there.”

Jensen got close, heat radiating from him, Jared could feel it. “You might… unless you don’t want to.”

“I don’t know what I want…”

Jensen was pissed, how Jared couldn’t see they were good together? “I thought you’ve had made your mind this weekend.”

Jared looked at him. “I don’t want to be here because is the right thing to do…”

Jensen looked at Jared as if nothing that Jared said mattered. “I think we could be good together, just like these days.”

It was like Jensen couldn’t face the reality of anything. “Life is not a weekend at the beach, I’ve been there, the perfect first days, and then comes the day to day and things goes to shit. I’ve lived it.”

Jensen’s mouth twisted. “I guess you have…” it was like jealousy.

“What I’m saying…” Jared was determined to make his point understood. “Is that you had a life before this mess, and I was doing fine… not perfect but I had plans and a life… and maybe we need to go back to…”

Jensen smiled. “Go back to serve drinks to horny alphas that could hurt you? That could not even care for what they did?” he moved closer, almost touching. “I don’t want you to be at any risk, I don’t want you to go back there.”

“What if that’s what I want? What if this perfect ever after dream you’re trying to sell me does not work for us…”

“What if this is it: The happy ending; the end game.”

“Then I’d like to get there by myself… face it Jensen, your family dragged me into your life because they wanted to cover up your fuck up for your brother’s campaign.”

Jensen gasped. “You don’t know that, you can’t judge me because Alaina was the first thing you saw at your door.

“Actually… it was Misha, and he warned me about your family…” he looked up at Jensen. “And he was right, you’ll get what you want for whatever means necessary.”

Jensen made a bitter face, like a smile. “Of course Misha.” he let out a breath that had been hurting inside his chest. “That’s it then… but don’t worry, whatever you want, that’s exactly what you’re going to get.”

Jared moved behind Jensen. “No, no matter what I’m not getting it.”

“Right… you have said it all the time on these 14 weeks… you want your freedom.”

NO that’s not what Jared wanted, but this time he was left stunned, not even tears came to help him this time.

Jensen was getting ready, the helicopter will be there any minute now and he hadn’t seen Jared all afternoon, all he knew was that he requested to have his shirt ironed because it was too wrinkly, so he planned on going, Juliette was almost ready and Julie was coming too.

He finally had his tie done and turned when the door opened slightly. “Sir the pilot informs he’ll be here in seven minutes.”

“Thank you.” The door didn’t close and he turned, Jared was standing there, they haven’t talked about what to wear, or coordinate, but Jensen gray suit and black tie with burgundy vest matched perfectly with Jared’s black suit, grey vest and burgundy tie, they smiled seeing each other. “Now this is awkward…” Jensen said and Jared laughed.

As they walked to the stairs Ju came running, in a dress, burgundy on top and white with burgundy polka dots on the skirt. Both Jared and Jensen laughed at it. “Is it not adequate sir?” Julie asked puzzled.

“It’s perfect…” said Jensen still laughing. “But I really need a picture of this.”

The flight took only 20 minutes until they were on a car, Jensen still holding the hand of a scared Jared, still murmuring sweet nothings to calm him down; maybe for the last time.

“WOW, guys, you look amazing!!” Kathryn in her sky blue strapless dress that made her eyes pop ran to them and hugged each one of them. “How are you Ju…?” she said taking her hand. “Guys, uncle Richard is in the small room at the right.” she pointed a finger. “The evil stepmother asked me to send you there as soon as I see you.” And she moved away telling Juliette they were going to show her dress to grandpa.

“Hey! Jared! I have amazing news for latter!” she said as they disappeared among people.

“So that’s it…” Jensen took a breath. “Don’t worry, whatever happens you’ll get whatever you want.” Jared felt the pull as Jensen opened the door.

“Hello guys…” Alaina, Richard and Misha were there.

“So… do we really need to do this?” asked Richard. “Or are you sure of your bond?”

“No…” Jared beat Jensen to answer. “Can we do this in private?”

The others started moving to the door, but Jensen asked to talk to his brother and sister in law first. Misha had stayed behind with Jared saying that he’ll make sure Jared is okay before going to the party.

“What’s wrong Jensen?” Richard was calmed in his political zen place.

“Jared does not want to keep the bond if we…”

“You are Jensen…” Alaina said, of course she might know by now. “and It was so obvious, the way you can’t stay away from each other, how protective you are, how he feels you, and how you don’t even have to finish a fucking sentence for each other to know what the other is thinking… didn’t you know?”

Jensen thought about it. “He doesn’t want… it.” *Me* was trapped in his throat. “Can we do something?”

Alaina’s hand ran her face messing her makeup but not even caring. “Yes we can… there’s a way… but you have to be very strong Jay.”

Jensen sat, it hurt, deeply, but Jared wanted his freedom, he didn’t want the happy ending he offered, right there he even regretted not accepting that night with him, he should’ve taken whatever he could while it was offered. “Tell me what I have to do.”

Jensen walked out and smiled at his mate but didn’t hold his hand; he led him to a different room where they’ll be in private.

“So…” Jared shook the envelope as if he could read the results inside by that simple motion.

Jensen took it. “wanna see?” Jared shook his head no. “Okay…”

Jensen ripped the paper and did his best to be convincing.

“Test for DNA transmitted markers, alpha/omega markers…..” He ignored the rest. “Here it is: sample; blood, subjects ... you and me… Markers… ” He looked at Jared. “Negative…”

Jared’s first reaction was of relief, and then disappointment. “Oh…”

Jensen looked at him; his heart breaking at the second it took for his face to hide the joy. “So… what do you want to do now?”

Cry, that’s what Jared wanted, even if the tears never came.

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