Story: Strength of Character 1/? WARNING nothing happy on this fic

DO NOT READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT VIOLENCE, ABUSE AND GOREY DEATHS.
I'm serious, this is ther darkest shit I've ever written.

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Tittle: Strenght of character
Author: Kali
Pairing: Jensen/Christopher Heyerdahl, J2, Jensen/OMCK
Kinks: NON-CON, dub-con, sexual abuse of one minor, character's death(main and not main), violence, substance abuse, suicide and self destructive ideation. mentions of anal, oral and hand jobs.
TRIGGER WARNING: MINORS SEXUAL ABUSE AND MOLESTATION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, VIOLENCE, PTSD.
N/A: now that I -think- have everything noted. here it comes the first part.

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It was all his dad’s fault, if he never left everything would be different.

Jensen was awake waiting for the other man to get in his bed, it happened every night now, and it’s been happening for years. It was not good or bad, it was just a routine; like anything else.

It started when his mom married Christopher, he started getting in his bed at night, at first it was nothing, just sleeping flush against the man’s front, even if he felt something weird against his ass, then he started touching, and the first night he did it he called for his mom.
( Follow me )

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Part TWO