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I came home around noon, last night was dreadful, we had several emergency surgeries and one that lasted almost to midnight, darling Dolf was on-call with me.

then the weirdest most irresponsible thing ever happened, involving beers and on-call staff, I almost cried of frustration...
and even thought the night was punishment enough and after over 24 hours there had to stay a whole 8 hours more just because there were no enough hands, finally came home and slept for a while, I'm off until tuesday which is great since I'm tired enough to sleep until then LOL

Dr M gave me a kiss *chaste as it was* this morning because we had no time for celebrations at midnight.
and for once I felt so out of place, so lost, like a fresh new intern... tragic.

everybody said I did well, I know I did, but I feel like I'm never enough.

now that I'm finally home, and that I've ate something decent I'm off to bed.
Happy new year, happy 2010 can you beleive all the things that have happened this century so far?

Do you remember Roger J?

Well, if you don't maybe you don't understand this.
he is an ex bf that used to treat me like shit, we broke up and then hooked up again during my internship, and then I had to go to south America during the spring of 2007 mostly to keep him away while doing some good.

well yesterday I didn't mentioned this but there was a car outside my house, not weird, not lots of parking places around but the car have not been moved, and I saw a person on my yard, went to check and found nothing, went back inside and waited, this afternoon I had to go to buy something few blocks away and the car was still there, passing by I noticed the driver sitting inside, that creeped me out so called security andnthe patroll came to check on the guy, they talked and made him down, and I saw it was him, Roger, he's still in front of my house sittig on his car. isn't that creepy?

it scares me a little, think that deep inside I'm just a girl