Imagine

imagine that you are in a unknown room walking in pitch black, imagine
that
at every step you stump against something that hurts you, you scream for help
and only laughs answer,you cry in fear and frustration and only hear mocks, imagine that you fall
and then you get up just to fall again.... that... that's depression.
the very first time I wrote that I was sad, not in the kind of simply
sadness I'm feeling right now, I remember the guys who read it before this days and how
many of them feel related to this, esp those two guys both called Billy both feeling their lifes meaningless.
today I was sad too, this stupid pain, how come no one knows what's wrong
with me? " you should try Psycotherapy" such an idiot!!
ok all this do not solve a *beep*
anyway... Sean is calling, I'm going to see some freak flick I so hope nothing like dark waters.. I can't stand Jennifer Conelly since A beautyful mind, I hated that movie with all my guts.
anyway I deserve it If I ever cheat on Sean again no matter how sweet, hot or amazing the guy is you all have the right to shot me in the head

nevermind to serious matters now, My sister had a severe crisi today, why everything happen at the same time?
she's better now but my mum is tired, now I understand how hard being a mother must be and why i'm not prepared to be one and why i don't want to be A mother. I'm selfish and I'm not prepared to pass trought things like this.
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