Jorge Mauricio Quinteros Mesa

why???
I met him back in '98 he was the one who get close to me, and I simply get mad, I was like a teen a bimbo, a total airhead!!!
his green eyes, his low voice... his shyness...
but I made things bad I wasn't brave enough, I wasn't mature enough to face my feelings and made lots of mistakes, Ofelia wanted it I should let her lead our relationship.
and in the other had What relationship?? we were something between aquitances and friends and half *chequeos* nothing more, and everything.
everytime he touch me no matter how soft the touch were I freaked out, jolts of electricity hit me and that power he has on me was... more than I can handle.
his country was another problem, and my ideas and my grandfather and my birthday and everything AAARRRGGGHHHH
when he went back to his country I get simply shocked why I can't just forget him? get it over?
I have his MSN and having him online I never chat with him, I know that he think I'm the weirdest girl and I have no the courage to tell the truth knowing that he knows everything!!!
help!!
I mean what am I suposed to do?
if I could I'll ask him forgive me for being such a coward and let him know that I love him still, I know he's engaged and maybe already married but... GOD!! its so complicated!!!
and to you Jorge if you're reading this YES I love you and I'm Paloma so... I'm sorry