FILL: I don't want you Happy ending 14/?

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Tittle: I don’t want your happy ending.

Author: Kali

Kinks: J2, dub/non con, forced mating, angst, social humiliation, character’s death (not main) redemption, happy ending (there will be more but not for now)

Part thirteen is HERE

A/N: I made a mistake on the last line of last part is not 14 years, it can't be 14 years is only 5, okay?

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That was the first night Jared tried coke in his life.
Also was the first night Jensen went out with Felicia Day in 5 years.

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Jensen got home half drunk and singing along with whatever tune he had in his head, the maid had to go to the door and help him in. “thanks Marcie…” Jensen was smiling stupidly at her.

“Don’t mention it sir…” she sat him on bed and took off his shoes. She was old, so old she was hired by Jensen’s grandmother when his parents were planning on mating. His mom had loved her and Kali reduced her obligations to deal with clothes only, when Jensen and Jared moved back to the penthouse she asked Jensen to let her come; a new mated couple always need someone who knows how to keep house, until the new omega mate learn.

“Of course I mention it, Marcie… you’re so good with me…” and he let out a stupid childish giggle. “Why am I this drunk? I only had ONE freaking whiskey!! I use to drink more in Dick’s events…” he smiled rubbing his face. “I swear I’m seeing stripe patterned elephants wearing fur coats or something.” And smiling like an idiot. “Thank you Marcie”

“It’s my job sir…” she said throwing a blanket over a drunk –now shirtless and shoeless- Jensen. “It’s my job even though you have a mate that hasn’t shown his face in a day or two…” she let the room mumbling thinking Jensen was already asleep.

Jared was at the moment riding a woolly mammoth. Yeah, well….. not really. But have you ever tried cocaine? He was shouting at the top of his lungs while dancing over the bar counter, shirtless and covered in tequila and lime juice. But if you ask him he was riding a woolly mammoth and drinking shooting stars' dust.

It was a call from cliff what woke Jensen and Jared. Jared was on Cliff’s arms, feeling like shit and scrunching his nose at the smell of vomit the guy had all over him. Guess whose vomit it was?


Jensen woke up to open the door, Marcie was there but Cliff wanted to talk to him. “Back in Mrs. Ackles; your late mother days and Mrs. Hannah and  Mrs. Kali Ackles…” he said as Jared groaning and whimpering was passed into Jensen’s arms. “Mates took care of mates, not employees” Annoyingly Marcie was nodding, but it was what his mom would have done, so he would do his best.

Jared woke up to a towel being rubbed on his face and the acrid smell of vomit. “What’s that smell…?”

Jensen gruff voice sounded. “Apparently tequila and crab cakes… ” He made a gagging sound. “I’m not even sure; you ate them you tell Me.” he left the towel in his hand and moved back a little to sit on the floor just far enough to avoid the puddle of the offending smelling substance.

“I’m gonna die…” Jensen let out a snort.

“you will… when you get to see the news… you crashed your car.” Jared hurled againas soon as he shook his head. “UUUGGHHH!!!” Jensen chuckled. “I wasn’t driving, it was … your friend, Stephen left us alone there…”

“What friend?” Jared made a motion with his hand.

“You know… tall blonde, green eyes…”

“Justin?” Jensen moved. “Justin was there? And that ass crashed my car?” Jensen’s voice rose and Jared whined. “Come on! it’s just some noise! You can deal with partying every night and drinking like this you obviously can deal with some noise!!” Jared scrunched his face and Jensen groaned. “You make me sound like my brother…”

Jared sat there without thinking his hand slipped into the mess. “It’s just…” he cleaned his fingers on the towel Jensen gave him. “I have nobody… the girls and that’s it, without them I have nobody…”

Jensen rolled his eyes to hide how much it hurt to hear him say that.  “Get up, get clean, and help me out with this, Marcie rather die than clean more vomit.” Jared looked down disgusted. “Come on…”  He was getting up and offering his mate a hand. “We don’t have all day.”

By the time they were done cleaning Jared had laughed more than in the entire week, Jensen had gagged and made weird noises the entire time. “Don’t laugh at me, you’ll laugh when Cliff sees you, you puked him all over.”

Jared blushed. “Kristin gave me something else… she has a new friend, that guy is a beast…” Jensen chuckled.

Jared’s breathing stuttered as they parked in front of Meg’s. “Alaina… Alaina forbid me to get close to that place…”

Jensen let out a sigh. “I’ve been there, there’s one thing you have to learn about media and all that; they don’t really care for you.” Jared felt weirdly hurt by such a statement. “The second something else happens, they leave you behind. Like the arrest of Kristin and Erika… you and all the drama about bakeries were thrown behind.” He opened his door and walked ahead.

The chiming bell on top of the door made Jared’s heart beat like crazy.

Rachel was sitting on the register as usual; she turned to see Jensen with a serious distant face. “Hello!” She answered cold at his greeting. “Oh…” let out when she saw Jared; got off her stool and walked to the back passing next to Samantha not even caring she was left alone and in charge of everything.

Jared shrunk and looked to his shoes, stupidly expensive new shoes, how he missed the times when what to wear was reduced to pick something relatively clean and without any visible hole on it. “Don’t stay there looking like someone kicked your puppy, go talk to her!” Jensen pushed Jared ahead. “I’ll be right here, no matter what.” He let out a sigh as Jared disappeared in the back and he made his way to the counter to talk to Samantha.

“They’re still hurt; I can’t promise your mate won’t be sent away feeling even worst.”

Jensen took a deep breath and blinked a couple times trying to look back. “I just hope they get to make up, this friendship means a lot for all of them.”

It actually was really important, Rachel had spoken with Misha and he told her the same Jared repeated over and over when he was contacted by Alaina to make things go away as usual, that he never said that; his friends did and his only fault was laughing with them, which was actually bad but Jared felt miserable.

Misha had convinced her that forgiving was important, that Jared really needed them, his real friends with him.

Nicki had a different idea, she had never needed anyone with her, nobody at all, nobody except Rachel; and she’ll protect Rachel no matter what.

When Jared walked through the threshold she turned from her place facing an upset Rachel to him. “NO, get out! This place has nothing from any known designer, or a bunch of shallow imbeciles laughing at your asshole comments.”

Jared moved closer. “It wasn’t me; I’d never say things like that.”

Rachel moved back to the table where she decorated cakes. “I don’t think you would have… a year ago, but you’re a different person now!”

Jared faced her; wounded expression on his face. “I’m still me, the same guy you took in when he was starving.”

Nicki snorted as she held the gloves to handle the oven. “That guy would not care for clothes or gossip, or stupid shoes. He’d never get drunk on a party and don’t even spend half an hour with his friends.”

It was true, the short time Jared spent with them at the party had been while they were still nervous and felt out of place before Kristin dragged him away, he thought that without the spot light on them because he was on the table he could. In his mind it was the best for them. Besides Mike was hilarious before he got drunk. “I made a mistake…”

“One?” Rachel’s voice sucked the air from the room, all three quiet and looking away from each other.

“Many… ” Jared’s voice broke. “but I’m trying to do the right thing now, and the first thing is apologizing with you guys because… you’re my family!” Nicki turned at him. “You’re everything I have… ”

Rachel snorted once more. “so, we’re the backup plan and you better be in good terms with it…” Nicki stared at her open mouthed and gapping. “you know, just in case this mate of a politician’s son doesn’t work for you?”

Jared noticed his jaw was hanging and closed his mouth. “What?” it came finally out of his mouth.

“I’ve heard about the tests you were forced into, don’t you know that licenses does not require a medical exam or mating test at all? Is just to prove you do not carry his mating sign.”

Jared frowned. “I wasn’t forced… Jensen asked me to…” he turned to the door surprised, did Jensen know? Was this a plan? Let’s get rid of the gold digger?

“Oh my God!!” Nicki tossed the gloves after closing the oven. “You’re still naïve and stupid!” she moved to him. “Haven’t you learned anything?”

“I wasn’t expecting it to be a trap.” He let out around the lump on his throat. “He seems to be so honest…”

“Enough to mate you by force…” Rachel tried to stand but her legs didn’t let her. “Help me up…” she kept struggling until Jared was there holding her and moving her to the wheelchair they had close all the time now. “Of course you’ll come back begging for us to take you in again…” she said still pissed. “Because you know that we will.”

Nicki huffed and rolled her eyes dramatically. “Because that’s what families do, right?”

Jared hugged Rachel dropping to the chair. “Thank you, thank you! Thank you!!” he said before moving to hold Nicki in his arms.

“All right… just don’t let us down again… you hear me?”

“Thank you” he repeated smiling this time, dimples in full force. “Thank you I --”

“No.” Rachel shook her head as she twisted her face. “Don’t say thank you…” Jared and Nicki looked at her again. “Say you’ll be a better person, say you’ll never disappoint us again.” She was obviously in pain. “Say you’ll be there for us too, don’t act like you’re entitled to have us back just because.”

Jared moved. “I won’t ever, EVER! Let you down again Rachel I swear…”

She smiled weakly before requesting being taken upstairs.

Jensen heard the trio walking the narrow stair case to the apartment on top of the shop where the girls lived.

“I guess they weren’t that angry…” Samantha smiled as she turned around to stash more cookies on the display, a girl that had been eyeing Jensen finally had the courage and got up from her table and walked to him. Jensen braced himself for the autograph or the pic she’ll sure request.

“I think you’re a horrible person, Jared is awesome and doesn’t deserve this.” She gave Jensen her paper and waited to see his reaction, the back page picture was him, sitting next to Felicia on a booth at a restaurant, CRAP.

Jensen was almost sweating while waiting for Jared. Samantha trying to be helpful gave him a glass of water. “He’ll understand, he’s coming around the entire showbiz press, he’ll understand it has nothing…”

Jensen let out a sigh, what if Jared didn’t? What if he didn’t understand? He ran upstairs two steps at the time when he saw the third car parking outside. He knocked on the door and waited but finally he pushed the door open.

“…when you got this smart?” Teased Nicki while setting a pillow for Rachel’s back, Jared was disposing of a syringe.

“Seriously? I was always smart… I’m sick I’m not an idiot!” she said raising her arms weakly.

“Unless dating Misha Collins counts.” The blonde teased again making Jared laugh. Rachel was looking at him serious as if trying to decide if confirm or deny the accusation.

“Hello…” Jensen said unsure.

Nicki got up with a smile; she was the more suspicious of him and a smile from her… Jensen felt so stupid for the spark of pride in his chest.. “Come in!” she invited. “We’re just setting Rachel to rest for a while…”

Jared noticed the worry on his eyes and something heavy and cold dropped on his stomach. “Jensen?”

“I did something very stupid…” he let out before offering Jared the paper.


Jared held Jensen’s hand as they walked out of Meg’s.

“Jensen smile for the camera please…” a guy said and snapped a picture of his angry face.

“Jared you look so in love! So there was no separation? No problems?”

Jared faced the bastard. “No guys, you made all that up in your heads.”

“Jensen didn’t cheat on you with his ex girlfriend?”

Jared smiled as Jensen pressed his hand and pulled him a little closer. “NOPE, I trust him.”

Jensen explained what happened why he ended up sitting on the same table than Felicia.

“The girl you refused to mate…” Jared huffed, it was like jealousy except… it wasn’t, he had no right to be jealous of her, or anyone.

“I swear I had to…” Jensen explained.

“On a club…” Jared said before folding the paper and facing Jensen with the same neutral expression he started using on pictures.

Jensen scratched his neck and then with a sigh. “It wasn’t planned, okay? I swear it was not planned, but I’ve been working on this initiative to re direct resources destined to omega health care that are not getting to help… and well…”

Jared nodded as if he were getting everything. He really didn’t’ care, he wanted to go home, change and maybe go somewhere with loud music to drown this feeling of betrayal that was filling him.

“She’s an activist, did you know? She’s part of the Fully Omega movement, she’s blocking many laws related to social help to omegas like herself.”

It was true her face was plastered in the back cover from a book “Thanks, but no Thank you” a study on why omegas should be given free reign over themselves, to be valued for more than just their capacity to reproduce, and that society should stop worrying about them, stop giving them incentives and special packages on everything to try to convince them to reproduce. “We’re humans, not just walking and talking sex toy incorporated- incubators.” She stated not long ago in an interview. “We do not need more laws that forces us into a gender role that’s toxic for future generations!”

Rachel made a sound even if it was supposed that they weren’t hearing. “heard of that girl Misha told me about her veto to your project at the last city council’s reunion… ” Nicki elbowed her. “ouch… what?”

Nicki rolled her eyes. “Stop talking about your boyfriend…”

“Go kiss Tito…” mocked Rachel while Jensen held Jared’s hand.

When Jared turned emerald green earnest eyes were on his, just like at the beginning before everything went to hell. “This is so much bigger than you and me. This could change things for many like you and Rachel, people who have nothing, who are alone and scared, this is much bigger.”

Jared nodded. “All I have to do is pretend I don’t care about her…”

Jensen nodded, was that a confession? The lump in his throat hurt, but he knew what he had to do, it was for others, he was going to do something good.

“You are too quiet, that’s not like you…” Jensen started the car taking Jared out of his reverie.

“I was just thinking I had no idea Misha and Rachel were dating…” he lied and heard as Jensen chuckled at those words.

“I think I see Misha at least once every day at the office and I didn’t know either… not even Alona told me!” Jared chuckled this time.

As they left the parking spot Jensen had snorted and Jared had a stupid childish grin on his face. “What?” he asked playful.

Jensen faced him with a big grin that wrinkled the corners of his eyes. “Rachel and Misha sitting on a tree..” he chanted and Jared laughed hard throwing his head back and letting out his voice, loud and free; the way they had laughed at home.

Jensen called Misha the second they got to the penthouse. “Mish there’s something really important we have to discuss with you… right now…”

Misha sounded very concerned as he asked Jensen to go visit him and Kathryn. Jared was biting his hand trying to muffle his laughter.
“I’m taking Jared if that’s okay.”

That’s how Jared finally visited Misha and Kathryn’s home, the second they passed the door Misha asked what happened and Jensen with the most serious face in the world told him. ”you’re dating Rachel!” he shouted. “And I had to hear that from Nicki??”

It was hilarious, how Misha’s face drained color and his head snapped back toward the rest of the house.

“Shut up… Kathryn doesn’t know yet…” Jensen lost the smile.

“Oh no… Mish.”

He shushed them. “We’re not actually dating, I’ve been doing your thing…” Misha pointed to Jensen and we’re getting close… but we’re not actually dating.”

The throttle of the teen’s steps got them quiet. “Uncle  Jay!!” Kathryn launched herself on Jensen’s arms. “You guys got me worried for a while…”

Jensen smiled as he kissed the girl’s forehead. “No sweetie, we’re fine… we just have to fix few things.”

When they were alone Misha let out a sigh. “ what I’m doing…? Acting like a fucking teenager.”

Jensen sat. “we’re in the same boat, not sure what the fuck I’m doing either…” and rubbing his face. “I mean, what if the results are negative again? what if I can’t find my real mate? What if it was Felicia?”

Misha growled. “Speaking of the devil… what the actual fuck was that?” Jensen groaned. “The evil bitch herself?” Jensen nodded not meeting his eyes. “what did she said?”

“She’ll hear us out before closing lines against us. That’s the best I could get.”

Misha asked Jensen to follow him to the kitchen. “Hope you’re in carbs night because we’re having my special lasagna.” He said taking out a plate of hot pasta from the oven. “When is your meeting then?”

Jensen inhaled and let out a sigh, “Hannah’s lasagna… my mom’s recipe.” Misha nodded. “When you got time? You’re supposed to set our arrangement.”

Misha frowned. “I’m going to Managua in two days… and I’ll be back in a week.” Jensen accepted. “Kat is going to be alone here, do you mind to keep an eye on her?”

“Sure…” Jensen set the table as Misha made salad, everything was set, there was a certain calm in this domesticity that Jensen craved more than anything; more than his nights with his friends or the crazy omegas feeling him up or rubbing themselves on him.

Kathryn practically dragged Jared to her bedroom, she had a million things to show him, university brochures and the acceptance letters she had so far. “I thought I’d have four or five, but apparently every university in this and three states around want me in, there’s a couple I didn’t even sent an application to.”

Jared chuckled, but it left a bitter taste in his mouth. “I’m very happy for you, is your first here?”

She sat next to him. “NO… I was still waiting for it… but the letter never came, my dad and mom went both to Chicago and I really wanted to go there too.”

Jared sounded distressed when he let out his “that’s so far away…”

Kathryn smiled. “Part of the reasons I want to go there.”

Jared touched her shoulder calling her attention. “you have no idea how sad is to be all alone and with no chance to go home…”

“I always forget you were all alone before my uncle mated you…”

Jared faced her. “I wasn’t ALL alone...  you have met Rachel and Nicki, I had them, and then Tito came too.”

Kathryn bit her lip to hide the disgusted scrunch of her nose. “I don’t really remember them.” But the anger lasted only seconds. “I remember when I met you; you told me that you felt like you had nobody.”

Jared nodded. “I was at the Mayor’s mansion, surrounded by scary extremely intimidating people.” Kathryn smiled. “Even you!! You came out of that car shrieking and I felt like passing out.” Kathryn made a sound before bumping her shoulder against Jared’s.

“I’m not intimidating…” she chuckled.

Jared made a face raising his brow. “because you have not see you from this side.” She laughed embarrassed. “One would be very intimidated, scared to lose your good opinion.”

“I know my dad is spending time with your friend, but he’s scared to tell me…”

Jared bit his lip not facing the girl. “How do you feel about that?”

Kathryn didn’t face him. “We’re studying reproduction, you know? Is the last of school and all, and I had to write an essay on mating bonds…” she faced Jared. “I still thought there’s only one kind and it broke my heart.”

“Yeah…” Jared didn’t make it to that class; his parents picked him up from school to spend a week with his future alpha, the town’s butcher.

“I still want to believe that my parent’s bond was a real mating… like true mates and all…”

Jared shrugged. “My parents were supposed to be true mates… he never treated her right; and never cared for me either.”

Kathryn looked at him. “What about Jensen?”

“What about him?” a weird feeling in his stomach made Jared clench his hands; it was like dread and something else.

“Is he as the papers make him look? Is he better? Worst?” Jared shrugged again. “I love my uncle, but I’ve seen people my dad helps and… I’m not sure of what to think.”

Jared smiled. “He’s kind and nice and most of the time…” I’m glad to be with him got trapped in his chest, I’m smiling when we’re together didn’t came out either. “It’s better… that what I hoped for.”

Kathryn made a sound. “Sometimes I’m afraid to present... I’m afraid of what would happen to me.” She blinked looking at Jared. “Seeing how things went for my mom, for Aunt Kali, for… Uncle Dick… you and Uncle Jay seem to be the closer to a normal mate bond…”

Jared squealed. “NO! We’re not example of what to expect.” And Kathryn let out a soft OH.

“Our mating is not precisely everything I hoped for… sometimes I’m not sure it’s… you know… real?”

“Why not?” it was Jensen standing by the door, in their conversation they didn’t heard the alpha.

“Because it’s a private conversation Uncle Jay… ” Kat rolled her eyes with a smile. “You’re not supposed to know.”

Jensen raised his hands palms in front. “Sorry, sorry… your dad sent me to tell you dinner is ready, come join us…”

Jared nodded getting up. “In a minute!” he said smiling, his mind tried hard to keep Jensen in a good mood.

“If it were my mom and dad....”  Kathryn commented once Jensen was gone. “He’d have never surprised us…. My mom could feel dad near.”

Jared offered her a hand. “I thought your mother died when you were very young.”

She nodded, mischievous smile on. “My dad has tapes, millions of them from simple stuff like doing the garden to classes, doing the laundry even fancy dinners with grandpa.” She smiled. “They could read each other’s minds, even they got sick together” and lowering her voice the closer they got to the alphas. “That’s what I want in a bond, in a mating, someone who could complete my sentences and laughs at the same stuff I laugh, for stupid or childish it is.”

Jared shuddered. “No… that had to be sad.” Jared mussed. “We might not be true mates, but we don’t feel alone…I don’t feel alone anymore, imagine giving someone so much power over you, imagine that person leaving… It’ll kill me.” he got quiet realizing what he just said.

Kathryn took a second before answering. “Imagine that person never appearing, that’s even sadder, feeling empty and alone forever…” she let out a sigh. “I don’t want to be alone… I guess Chicago wasn’t meant to be.”

“You might be right…” he said because he had no more words.

“Maybe staying close is the right thing, and in that case, I might find my mate one day…”

Jared held her fingers as he pulled her toward the door. They could hear Jensen and Misha talking about the politics on OHC and Felicia Day’s movement. “One day you’ll find exactly the mate for you, or not, one day you’ll find the path that’s perfect for you; and you’ll be happy.”

“Thank you…” they entered the dining room where Misha was setting a lasagna bowl. “You know dad? I want to get to know Rachel a little more… if that’s okay with you…”

Misha looked at her and smiled. “Sure…” and looking from Jared to Jensen. “As soon as I come back from Nicaragua we’ll get to visit her…” Kathryn nodded with a smile as Jensen offered her the salad.
Jared prayed every day after that day for her to do find her path.
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I got my email account hacked... so I had to actually create a whole new account in order to verify my account and be able to post.
so, yeah now I have a couple more chapters for the weekend