My Bloody Mortar, I love you, more than I can say, you should never doubt that.
I'm sorry my dearest, I left you alone with the kids,I'm sorry I'm not there to explain more of this, and I'm sorry I could never give you what you wanted.
I remember the first time I saw you, on that embassy, I was just a grunt, a perfect nothing and you turned to me and smiled, everything changed for me that day, I fel t special, I felt like I was worthy of more than just a honorable death, I remember that night, after the gala, you let me take you out for a walk and we didn't stop until it was day again, Having breakfast at the dock with you, having you with me, nothing else was important for me. And I just want you to remember that, now that I'm gone, remember that you were my sun, and my moon, and the force that make the earth turn, you were all that for me.
Do you remember the one time we were happy before them? when Richard was on the way?
For years I felt like I failed you for not trying again but it hurt too much, that's why I didn't want you around the kids at first, those damaged angels. But you were what they needed, you have a heart so big, so big you could make them all fit, and heal, hope you had enough with only them, because even if I'm gone they'll be around I'm sure, they love you as much as I do, and even if I know I'm letting you down for not being there as I promised I know you're safe with the,
so if you feel like I betrayed you, like I failed you, I'm sorry.
but you have to feel aswell how much I love you, and I will forever love you my dear, for as long as souls love I'll love you.
Mom and Dad:
I was left on a garbage can when I was three weeks old, and my life after that was one cruel disapointment after another, I got in so much trouble I did so terrible things, I know you know Dad, but Mom, I just want to make it clear that it was because weak ones end up bad, in dark places, when nothing you can do to be safe, where you're hurt just for being weak and I couldn't do it.
Dad, the second they gave me the chance, the second you entered my cell I knew I couldn't screw it up, I just knew it! and I tried, I did my best, hope it was enough.
Every day I spent with you and my sibs was a blessing, every day I was there in a warm bed, in a real house, well fed and well clothed was a blessing, and I know you had no need to make me feel welcome, that's why I have to say thank you for everything.
thank you for believing in this orphan without name or future, Thank you for getting me out of that place, for not leaving me behind when you left, thank you mom for every time you let me hug you, for every time you lulled me to sleep with your songs, even being too big for that, thank you for taking care of me.
Thank you Dad for taking a chance on me, I knew the secretary thought I was too damaged, too much of a risk, but you stood up for me and I'll never forget it, you two made me feel like I was a real person.
Please give my brother and sisters a hug and a kiss for me, and let them know I'm grateful for every day with you all.
If you're reading this I'm dead, which sucks you know?
but it doesn't matter because at least I had you for a while.
After what happened to me, after what I did, this chance was the only way to skip death row and I thought I could deal with it, just doing what I already ahve done, right?
but you made me understand it was far more than that.
I remember the first day I woke up and saw your ugly faces, I thought you were just like me. And I want to believe I was right, that i'm actually like you all, kind and loving, that I have the seed inme, you know? to be good, that what I leanred with you mom was enough to make me into sometihng else than blood and pain.
to you boys, thank you for proving that men can be nice, good, warm and can touch you with love and tenderness without any other agenda, thank you dad for every time you stuck your neck out for me.
to you girls, I never thought I'd love someone as much as I love you Mom, you were the reason why all this worked, you're amazing., girls, you can take my shoes, I know you lvoe them, I hope you understand how lucky you were having me there, because I know how lucky I was having you, that we all, the rarity case girls got to be together and get out together.
Love you all
sorry I left, but they had to pay, I spoke to his friends, they'll take you to your father, I know you don't want to, but he's your family and I already did my homework, he's nice, he's married and have two kids, his boy is around your age. you're young kid, you deserve to know him, everythingfrom your record has been deleted, you'll become a new one, a brand new one no blood, no crimes, just you.
go ahe4ad with you life and be happy, that's what we all wanted for you.
love you so much sis.
Girls and boys:
I made a mistake and I have to leave you, to whonever is reading this, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I failed you.
I was a drop out, I was lost and then he found me, he risked himself on me, Cole did his best to drag me into this, and then dad and mom took me in too, I will never be able to thank you enough.
I love you guys, I do, I will forever remember the times I got to have a cup of coffee with you, or had the chance to make a stupid cake, or when I got home to a nice warm plate of food and smiling faces.
and I'll forever regret my mistake.
to my baby brother, I know we trained together, I know you feel lost, I'm sorry i have to leave now that you need me the most, I'm so sorry. if you ever forgive me, if you can find a way, and you get out, please don't give up on me, because you knwo I'm from your blood, and I'm your sister.
I'm sorry I have to leave you right after that happened to them, please forgive me kids.
I wish i could kiss you all good bye, I wish i could hug you all once more, I wish I could make you Cole understand what I did and Why.
Not until Mom I ever felt a hand on me that was not out of violence or lust, not until you guys I understood what a family was, now if I get to have the chance, I'll hace something mine, even if one, and I'll try to find you when the waters get calmer.
lots of kisses and hugs
Family: Since the day I was assigned to the HEARTS I thought I was lucky, I was right, but what i didn't know thenwas how lucky.
The moment they said you were set to termination I understood that we were different from the rest, they all agreed like getting rid of ants and you were so much to me, you were my family, the people I went home to.
I lvoe dyou all too much to let you go.
thank you for allyour tie, for all your support and love.
thank you andstay safe.
"are you Ready?" asked one of the two gusy with her, they had her stuff already, she cleaned her face and tucked the papers in the file she was carrying. "he lives in this town,but don't worry, he knows already, he'll see you right now, so then we can get you ready to travel..." the girl nodded and followed them out of the airport.
no more Secretary, no more job.
The last Heart followed the guys to a black car, they gave her new papers, her new name?
Anne Marie Wachsam, just another way of the same name.