Rating: PG, this one as pretty much everything else...
Gender: Drama *actually created from one idea and one Prince Charming moment from a friend/boyfriend/guy I'm dating
Characters: AU, characters created thinking on actors and real people..
Sumary: It scared me at first, it scared me shitless to think on this, on US, when there's always being only me, it was just me, scared little thing, scared little thing full of obligations that will never be free to do whatever I feel like.
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Its been a mess since then, its been complicated, dad and mom fighting, mom's suicide attempt, yes, she tried it again, and this time for real, Naia's pregnancy scare, Lim's ear infection, everything changed and Mathew who was patient and sweet most of the time was tired of this
'one day you will put me first in your to do list right?' said while she was rushing out the door
'what?' her cell on her hand didn't even turned to see him 'sorry, see ya in two days' and ran out, Mathew sigued, this couldn't be right, he obviously were more involved than she was, at least in his pretty head, in his head, the question he made, the ring he offered were rejected in the worse way, she just ignored everything as if it never happened, in his head she was drifting away slowly, and he was scared he'd end up hurt, yeah she was amazing when her life weren't pulling her away from him, but that was with good luck one weekend once in a while. still they never spoke as she promised, he didn't heard about her family again, and even the sisters were gone now, once, and only once Naia answered a call and only said they were busy, he never knew it was the day his father started drinking again and hit Peggy again, he never knew that her sisters were so scared of their father they called the police, he never knew they were all over the news about that, he never knew how much Naia and Lim wanted him close to help them and their sister, or how much Peggy cried wanting to call him but feeling both scared and ashamed of everything, as if it were her fault.
he wanted to talk to someone, and the first person in his list was Joseph, after all he was the one who knew Peggy more than anyone except Indira and Danny, but they just said it was Peggy's business.
'...but then.. call her... you cannot keep doing this to yourself' said Joseph while sucking a cigarrette with a serious face, worried about Peggy who asked for few days at hospital and ha hasn't heard of her at all, the phone was off, of course it was off, when his father hit her it fell so hard it was broken in three pieces by now, everyone too worried for her to care for a stupid phone.
'I'm not sure of what's happening' said Mathew with a sigh and rubbing his face 'she's never there anyways, there's always somewhere else, someone else, and i feel like I'm always begging for a moment of her time' and Joseph sighed
'Mathew, I know she's always busy, I know she's not...' snorted 'lets say emotionally avialable most of the time' Mathew barked a laugh 'but cut her some slack, she has a lot on her plate right now... med school is not easy at all dude'
'you think I don't know that? do you want to know how many nights I've seen her in the last month? three!!' Joseph made a face 'I know her career is important and that it takes lots of time, I know, but she left the hospital, this is not about her career, I tried to be patient but there's a limit for everything' Mathew laughed sarcastic ' and you... you're supposedly her friend, and you're telling me to dump her?' but dark eyes met his and the serious, mature boy spoke once again 'I'm saying you two should give each other some space, to be sure of what you two feel and to clear out other stuff, as example Allie... she's asking about you alot...' and his eyes were fix on Mathew's, trying to see his reaction, trying to see if Peggy going away had something to do with her 'I did nothing to make her think I'm interested...' said secure and turned to Joseph and his eyes boring into his own 'what? really! we did slept but that was before Peggy even accepted she liked me'
'do you know Danny?' said vaguely the shorter man looking at the door 'he said she only disapears like this when her life gets... when someone hurts her...'
'I did nothing!!' said getting angry 'who you think I am? I'd never hurt her!'
yes he did nothing... he did nothing
Peggy knew he did nothing, thou still had this text from a classmate with the line "Myth's ex and the new girl" and was the petite brunette she saw at his apartment once, and she felt something weird inside, in her head, the cold and objective Peggy tried to convince herself that was for the best, it was over two months now they couldn't even spend a night, and two months ago her mother didn't wanted to die, her sisters were, at least in her head, still virgins, her father was alcohol free, two months ago the punch her father gave her was an isolated event, that will never be repeated or spoke about, now, now she had two stitches on her lip, had a black eye and had bruises on her shoulders and back too, this wasn't one blow an angry drunk throwed, but even then she couldn't cry, not anymore.
five days latter, when the stitches were removed she finally went back to the hospital, when people asked about her bruises she blamed the Krav Maga lessons, only Joseph and Danny knew she wasn't taking them anymore, that night Danny cornered Mathew outside the Wake-Up Call Cafe, pushed him against a wall and punched him without any explanation
'What you did to her?' barked, then Mathew held his hand to fight back
'she's the one who left, leave me alone!' pushed DAnny back and kicked him down 'she left me!'
'she's hurt! someone hurt her!' got up and pushed Mathew again 'its the second time I see her with bruises on her face since she's with you...so tell me you did nothing.. wsa it because she left you?' Mathew stoped fighting right there, she was hurt, and he wasn't with her, Danny punched him again sending him to the floor 'tell me!!'
'I did nothing... I haven't seen her for at least ten days now...' from Danny's car Indira's voice called desperated
'Danny, Danny!!! my watter broke!!' and started panting, Danny turned around, desperated.
It was the weirdest thing in the world, Danny with a split brow and bleeding, Mathew covered in mud and with a bleeding nose and a cut on his cheekbone, holding an awburn haired girl in labour walking into ER 'she's in labor!!!' screamt the pair and everybody turned around, including Peggy's resident, they were back for OBGYN, Peggy's last rotation.
'what happened to you two' said the nurse carrying th wheel chair to the two guys 'were you deciding who will bring her to the hospital?' they asked for them to stay, Danny had to fill some forms while the doctor checked on her, indira, despite the pain was calling for Pegaiai, dialing on her phone 'Peggy, its time... I need your help we didn't brought aything...' and Mathew who was nervous couldn't process the fact that Peggy will be there in no time. someone sent him to ER again where another intern, one of Peggy's friends were cleaning his scratches, right next to Danny 'thanks for your help' said Danny humble, Mathew was the calmed one, the one who drove, the one who remembers how indira was supposed to breath, Danny was so nervous couldn't even focus on his bleeding brow, now was desperated to get free to go back to his girlfriend.
'nevermind...' said Mathew '...Peggy is hurt...' continued after a beat 'and I wasn't there for her...' Danny made a sound 'what you think happened to her?' and Peggy's friend shrugged.
'I have no idea, she never tells people about her life, never! but she's amazing... neither Indira or I would be here if it weren't for her...' said quietly 'she helped us alot, but her family... they're abusive, selfish bastards and bitches that give her for granted' finished 'I know...' was AMthew answer And Danny turned to see him 'you know?' Mathew nodded when the door opened with no time to say more about it
'D...' Peggy entered carrying a bag 'where's she? is she okay' is the baby already born?' and Danny motioned towards his right and Peggy saw him 'Mathew' gasped.
His name on those lips and everything went white, everything was right... yeah sure, until he focused on the marks, on her lip, there will be a mark forever, and the rest? there was black and blue spots on her neck too and her knuckles and her arms had few marks too, and she hid her arms suprised by his eyes, Danny held her hand took the bag and mumbled something about the room where Indira was and left.
Peggy waited for Mathew to be ready, mostly because her feet didn't let her move, and because needed to know if it was true, she couldn't make her mind, to be honest, she couldn't decide if she wanted to know, if she wanted to ignore it, if it was for the best or not, finally decided 'I'll finish the dressings if its okay for you...' she offered and moved closer, the intern left and Mathew spoke 'thought you were too busy for this' she smiled sad 'I'm never too busy for Indira and Danny, and for my future godson' snorted 'I always have time for responsability' chuckled the joke for herself, held something on his face and he felt something like a caress 'you're ready...'
'where were you? what happened?' she sighed and moved away 'who did this to you?' no answer, not even a glance 'Peggy... I need to know.. I need to... if there's gonna be a future for us I need to know' and Peggy gasped 'you mean this is over?' the fear broke her voice '... is for the best' sighed and frowned
'What? just like that?' Mathew was angry, and had all the right, he wanted and answer not an agreement 'that's all? not even an explanation?' and peggy shook no 'it might not be easy...' choked a sob 'but I never lied to you...' he moved closer and held her preventing from escaping 'I told you I'm too much trouble.. its okay if you want to have a different...' and he held her hands, and without thinking crushed her against his chest
'no, no don't even say that, I'm not saying I want something else...' kissed her hair, breathing deep into the fresh smell of her hair 'I just need an explanation, that's all' and Peggy sobbed like a child 'I thought... I was... I've heard how much of a trouble I am.. my whole life.. people just...' he held her face and looked into sad eyes 'I don't know what's your idea of me sweetheart, but I'm not going anywhere... I'm not like others, ad I'll be here,I just need some information to know what to expect...' and she kept crying held him close 'calm down' Mathew desperated tried to comfort her 'I'm fine, I'm fine... I just.. I'm so happy' kisssed his chest
'lets start then' Mathew caressed her hair 'tell me what happened to your face... and who I have to kill for that?' the door opened and a girl very very short entered "Myth? Danny is calling you..." mumbled and waited with the door open until they left, the whole crew were staring at them, the first time Myth showed some hint of human behavior, not reciting facts and data and running out like followed by the devil, the comments were that she only was nice to her patients "and just look who's she dating this days" said a snarly nurse.
The first both heard was the panting breathing of someone, for a second Mathew thought it was indira right there in the hall, but was Danny, holding the wall while controlling his nausea and Peggy laughed 'come on D, haven't you seen a woman in labor before?' he turned greenish face 'let me take care of this...' and to Mathew 'will you wait? please?' the words got lost, all he cared was the soft and warm hand in his, soft fingers caressing and pleading 'sure' fell from his mouth and she passed the door
Passing the door she saw her friend's face, desperated and in pain, almost crying 'now you're gonna tell me what you and Danny did to Mathew' and Indira Smiled 'I need to know why your future husband and my finacé were bleeding' Indira forgot the pain, forgot the baby 'fiancé?' screamt and Peggy laughed getting close finally 'too much pain sweetie?' and the baby choosed that moment to move causing Indira to breath deep in pain.
It took eight hours of torture to have the baby out, during those eight hours Danny finally got grave enough to be next to her, so Peggy and Mathew were waiting outside along with a bunch of friends and family, Peggy's cellphone rang twice while she was there, the hidden one, she checked the name the first time and ignored it, the second time she turned it off, was dad, wanting to say how sorry he was
'isn't that important?' asked Mathew in a whisper while holding her against him. it was already dawn and they were still there 'nahh its just my dad... wonder what he's going to give me this time... knowing him.. it'll be a Ferrari' snorted 'or a house in Los Angeles' laughed the joke for herself, her mother's dream house was there, so was the center where her father wanted to commit her, but her joke caused something to fell in place for Mathew, the first time she had marks, that Joseph mentioned marks she got the Lamborghini, and now... everything made sense 'your dad did that to you?' said surprised and hoping he was wrong, a little bit too loud and few persons there turned 'Shut UP!!' she sat 'you have no idea what are you talking about...' and moved away, to get back the next second 'do you remember when we met outside the coffee shop? when I told you about my car?' and Mathew nodded still stunned by the fact that she was finally talking 'well... he did something then...' sighed and rubbed her face 'think I have to go earlier than that' sighed 'my family has one particularity... my dad is kinda... you know wealthy...' and Mathew laughed 'really?' and she made a face, like not knowing if she should be hurt or not and he couldn't help it, seeing her unsure, made him hold her, tight, so tight it was awkward 'I'm sorry... I'm sorry' said kissing her head 'but that's nothing new, I've seen your house remember?' and she nodded from inside his arms, holding as tight as he 'you scared me you silly' said, then the door opened and a nurse came out telling them the baby was born and that one of them at the time could see the new mother and Peggy ran to the door even before Indira's mom.
After few minutes where Peggy cried her eyes out with the baby in her arms Mathew were asked by Danny to take her home, on the way Peggy fell asleep, but was a three hours ride to her parents home and Mathew really had to pee, parked and turned to her 'hey...' she stirred 'hey sleepy... I'll be right back okay?' and she sat scared, gasping.
'aren't we at the apartment?' asked confused and Mathew laughed 'no we're not.. why?' she moved closer to kiss him, and he frowned she wasn't like this, most of the time he was who started the love demonstrations ''cause I thought I was with you' mumbled setling down again 'I wish I could stay with you' she didn't even noticed where they were... for a second more 'is this a gas station? is something wrong with the car?' and sat, Mathew opened his door 'no, I just need to go to the bathroom' and she rolled her eyes 'you wouldn't make it in surgery...' he laughed and left 'bring me something!!' she screamt seeing Mathew enter the store and waving at her.
She had to make her mind, and had few minutes, they weren't far from home now, and she had less than 50 miles to tell him, and waited there, writing a story in her head, how to explain things, how to say things she kept for herself over the years, how to let out all the things she bottled in for almost 30 years now, and tears filled her eyes, she was about to accept in front of the one person she loved that she had no life, that she was selfish enough to leave her family... no matter if she came back, she left, she was about to face that she was no good, that her dad hit her because she wasn't good enough, because once again she disapointed them, and the tears rolled down her face.
A knot in her stomach started the second she saw mathew coming, his hair shining in the sun, shades on to cover his abused cheekbone and the black eye forming after his fight, the lip, still a little bloody and swallen was in display sadly, but the whole frame made him look perfect, of course he wasn't, he was too tall, and too pale, his hair a little bit too long and always wearing those crazy shirts nobody else would use, but she loved him, her cell was vibrating and she answered cleaning the tears from her face 'Lim!' said trying to sound calmed 'yeah I'm sorry sweetie, I had to stay at hospital, had a thing going on there' sighed 'but I'm coming home now' yeah, the girls never get to know about her life, her friends, her classes. her problems, were all for herself, the only thing she shared with them was Mathew
'wait there, give me twenty minutes and I'll be home' Lim had to go out, she'd be late and someone had to stay with mom, and for once, she felt it was unfair and started crying again, like back in the days, almost two years ago. and couldn't stop the tears, more fearing that she'd be left alone again at least you're fully rational now and this time there's nothing else happening to your body
told to herself, her boyfriend opened the door and sat next to her offering her a smile and a coffee 'your phone?' asks cold looking into her face, the "he's getting tired of this" bit her heart and nodded crying a little more, trying hard to control those tears, with her record with Mathew so far she'd end up drowning in them by the time they were done.
'okay...' said sighing 'lets finish once and for all...' held her coffee and started 'My mother's family has been wealthy always, but not my father's, when they met, my dad wanted to secure the money my mother represented and...' shy eyes darted to Mathew's face 'my mom's relatives thought he wasn't good enough for her... and they must be obbeyed...' and Mathew felt lost
'they think I'm not enough for you? is that why you keep pushing me aside and not letting me ...?' her hands traveled to held his hiding her eyes 'NO NO!!' and smiling 'I don't care about their opiinion, I never cared...' and sighing again 'but when my parents... they were important and... well... then something else happened, my aunt, Daniel's mom... my cousin, the lawyer... she got sick, doctors said it was a mental illness, dementia, and they think it runs in the family and...' she bites her lips waiting for the question "do you have it?" the one we called John asked that first of all, and didn't believed her, but the question never came, after a beat she added 'me and the girls.. we were tested... is not in us... but my mom... she's...' and Mathew felt how more stuff fell in place, the mood changes, the over dramatic responses, the pills once saw in Peggy's purse 'Mattie?' it was the first time she used that name for him '... you got enough?' offered her, she knew that, others just get that far...
'I was just thinking, many things make sense now...' he laughed 'but that's not gonna scare me' and she smiled again, sighed, made a face of relief, that onethat Mathew loved and she kept her story 'well... it started when Krinaia came, she started acting weird, she was the perfect mother before that, used to work as modern art teacher in... well... the same universitty we're in... but then, she started changing, at first, just coming home late, then started fighting with dad' and Peggy huffed 'he started traveling, and I had to take care of her, there was no one else... and I'm the oldest and...' shook her head 'it was my responsability... Naia was still in diapers when she took my dad's Porsche and went to rob stores, it was hilarious' and she snorted, once again one of those dry jokes she do to herself 'she came home with a bunch of cheap stuff like she were Indiana Jones, Naia and I were just kids... and we... we thought it was funny, but wihtout my dad there the police took her away, for over a year we stayed in a foster home, my mom's family think she's a disgrace, her mother said she couldn't take care of us, we were too much of a trouble fro an old lady like her, and my dad, he was living with this other lady...' barked a laugh 'Naia hardly remembers how bad it was, almost no food, always cold, always dirty, always scared... they used to punish us for everything, if we caused any trouble' and her eyes filled with tears 'coming home after that' and started crying 'coming home with Daniel's dad was like heaven, he was still very young too... and his mom died that summer, she killed herself, then we decided we will never let the police get involved again, I could not let them take the girls there... Naia.. she was still a baby and the baby's place was better... and bit her lips 'I was too scared... I didn't want to go back, I had to take care of them' Mathew caressed her arm and pulled her close but she shook no 'please let me finish'
'Dad came home for christmas, his new girlfriend cheated on him and was scared he got AIDS, I was like ten by that time, mom was happy to have him around again' bit her lip looking out the window 'I can remember when they told me I will have another sibling, they did it in... my birthday party, I let my baloon go away and mom... she grabbed me by the hair.. she didn't liked my hair clips, she said only sluts would like them' rubbed her nose with the back of her hand 'then she becane agresive, Naia used to come to my bedroom at nights, and we locked the door, sometimes she tried to open it... it scared us alot' scared eyes searched for his face, and she kept talking how while her third pregnancy she did everything in her hands to hurt her children, how her dad found another girlfriend got some more money and left, how when the moment came she was alone, how a neighbor had to help them 'after that I hired some staff, maides and a driver, for school and doctor appointments, my uncle helped me, but then he passed away' Mathew was surprised, he had this tinny bit of jealoussy about how easy must be life when you're loaded and you have servants and cars, and that house 'one night I heard something braking and went to see if it was mom, she was holding Lim, mmovign from over the crddle telling her she should go back to heaven and carrying her to a tub full of water, I had to take my sisters and we spent the whole night on the streets, I had to call my dad that night, and for once in his life he did the right thing and came home...' and sobbed 'my life has been like that all the time, until she got in new medication, and was doing great, so I thought I could go to college without fear, but my sisters need help, my dad is not very responsible... and mom...' sighed 'I'm giving you a easy way out... here'
'NO!' Mathew said 'that's not your fault, that's what you had to do, and I'm impressed of how strong you are, and how hard you fought for your family' got close 'what happened? why you went back?' and she smiled 'I fell inlove...' she said 'the perfect guy, so perfect' spat angry 'good family, his parents were excited he got a good family girl for wife, and I got pregnant...' swift look into Mathew's eyes, he wasn surprised, not mad 'but then, I told him... and he left, I lost my baby.. and' sobbed '... had to go back, mom was robbing stores again' huffed to control her tears, her cellphone rang again 'can we.. can we go home now? please?' Mathew nodded and started the car, Peggy was scratching distracted the rim of her coffee cup 'then you came to...'
'yeah started med and then we met' and smiled, Mathew had so much in his head at the moment, the rest of their trip was very quiet once they arrived he spoke, anger, and impotence mixed, he felt useless 'why you never told me' Peggy just shrugged, how he spent all that time with her and never payed atention to things that were so obvious! and he turned to Peggy 'you should put your mother into a hospital, and never again talk to your father... your sisters are old enough to take care for themselves now, is not your job, it never was!! is unfair...' and Peggy laughed loud getting out the car 'I know is unfair, but is my life...' and slammed the door 'I'll send someone to pick my car latter okay?' and she went into the house.
Mathew didn't understood what happened and followed her inside, she saw mom one inch apart of her face yelling her nails bared in front of Peggy's face, she needed something and nobody was there for her, dad was laughing and repeating how pathetic Peggy was, how weak since the girl was crying 'she's not alone...' he moved closer 'she's not alone, and you better start treating her with the respect she deserves, she's been in charge of you bunch of freaks her entire life, you have no right to ask her for more!!!' Dad got close 'this is a family affair boy, stay out of it' Mathew moved closer 'Family... you don't hurt your family, you don't mark your family's face, you protect them when they need you, you don't just ran out when things get complicated, you don't charge a child with so much and then mock her, that's not family' and turning to Peggy who was holding his hand begging for him to calm down 'you don't have to be here, come with me, be with me... you could be free of them, free to be with me' but Peggy shook no 'I love you Pegaiai, but you have to decide what you want in life' her parents kept quiet while he left, Mathew wanted to call, but she never answered the phone, wanted to visit her but what if her parents were there? after that there was no way they'll let him in the house, and then for another week a complete silence, so total that even Danny called to ask if he heard anythig about her.
Peggy finished her rotation and had one month free, she decided to take care of stuff, mother was violent again still in her good moments told how sorry she was, before starting tossing things to her head, Lim had her finals, Naia was packing already and they had to take care of her apartment at college and stuff like that, dad... dad was drinking again and being caustic with both mom and her, Peggy missed Mathew but he wanted her to give up on her family and that will never happen, she knew... or wanted to think they were over, but kept away from him, avoiding that final chat, hating him for his words 'is not your job, it never was!! is unfair...'
but it was, it was her job, it was her responsability, it was her life...
Mathew had a phonecall a sunday morning, a breif message from Lim 'we need to talk to you, we'll be at the coffee shop by noon' and they were, both Naia and Lim were there and they didn't even said hi 'What you did to Peggy?' asked blunt Naia 'she is crying and she never cries!!!' and Lim sat in front of him 'you better stay away from her if you're gonna hurt our sister' wartned the youngest
'I did nothing...' he said, the girls had changed to his eyes, they were flawed now, not the perfect angels Peggy said they were 'what about you kids? when was the last time you saw her doing something for herself?' and Lim huffed, the same gesture Peggy does all the time 'we're not perfect.' said Naia 'but she has all the rights in this world to do what she feels like' and Mathew snorted 'yeah right, because she doesn't have to take care of you two and your parents at all, right?' and Lim frowned 'she's not in charge of us...' answered after a beat
'Look, I like you' said Naia 'we like you, HELL! even my mom likes you, but if you're gonna make my sister cry, then you better leave her alone' Mathew lost his cool 'don't you see it? she's crying because she has a life she never asked for, responsabilities she's not supposed to have, she has to take care of so many things...' and Naia blinked 'are you calling us selfish or unconsireated?' Lim moved on her chair.
'I'm telling you two I love your sister, and I asked her to be my wife... but she rather stays with her family because all of you depend on her' Naia got up and Lim followed her, the oldest looked into his eyes 'I've been there too Mathew, she's not alone, she thinks she is but we've been there too, mom is sick for us too, and dad...'
'did your mom ever hurt you? did your dad hit you? 'cause she didn't said anything but I know... and I'm not doing anything about it... because she has to do it herself' Limnades sighed, another gesture copied from her oldest sister 'no, they never hurt us like they did with her' Naia looked into her sister's face 'if your dad ever ytouches her again, I'll kill him, even if that means you'd hate me' and then both Myth girls stormed out. Mathew braced himself for the storm, messing up with Pegaiai's girls was a huge mistake, she'd bite his head off, and he was sure this was over the seceond her sisters tell her.
Her sisters told her they had a coffee with Mathew 'he told us you told him...'said Naia 'that was your rule Pegs, nobody outside the family should know' and the eldest nodded 'I had to, he took so much time... and I had to...' shrugged 'I'll take care of that, don't worry' Lim huffed 'you always do that Peggy, you always take care of everything' Peggy smiled 'I have to' said as the most obvious thing ever, LIm turned to Naia's eyes before contiuing 'you don't have to, we're here too, is not your obligation, we can help you know? you don't have to give up on Mathew just because of this'
'I have to...'said Peggy with more conviction 'I need to focus on Mom and Dad and you... you're going to college in few months, and you...'Lim blinked 'you finally are doing great in school'
'when was the last time you did something for yourself?' asked Naia, and Peggy hardened her face 'that's not relevant...'
'Mathew told us he asked you to marry him...' said Lim 'you should... he's great' and Naia snorted before speaking 'or ask him to wait three years for me' all of them laughed 'the point Pegaiai, is that we want you to be with him, okay? trust us, we're no more the little kids you had to save from the crazy dragon and the demon of fire' that was the story she made for them, her mother was the dragon and every now and then saving them the dragon scratched Peggy, the demon of fire was their dad, when he was drunk and smoking the girls had to be quiet and hide, all a game for them not to notice the problems 'you should go to see Mathew... hurry!' said Lim gave him soemthing, the keys of her car a Mustang
'girls...' Peggy sighed 'he wants me to give up on you, he wants me to leave all this' Naia got close 'talk to him, not everybody is a monster, give him a chance' and Lim held her hand, and dragged her to the door.
She opened the door of the Wake-up call cafe shaking, not sure of what would happen there, Mathew was sitting on the counter, Jess giving him something 'so they told you?' he asked and Peggy didn't know what to say noticing how most of the staff was looking at them 'look, I'm sorry, I didn't meant to upset the girls, I just needed to make them understand...' she just stared at his face 'you got mewrong Pegaiai, I don't want you to bail your family, just... don't know get help, ask for help, accept help, I'm here, they're here, you don't have to be alone anymore' and Peggy got close and kissed him, Mathew gasped surprised 'they like you, and they like you even more now...' she said 'we... we were always alone...' Mathew covered her mouth 'not we, you, as Peggy, not as the family, what Peggy feels?' she snorted 'I was alone, all my life, even surrounded by people felt alone... until you' giggled like she never 'And I could handle it, being alone was okay, nobody hurts me, nobody scares me anymore, and... and I was scared...' caressed his face 'I was okay until I had a taste of how it feels to be loved, to be with someone, to be safe' and started crying
'It scared me at first, it scared me shitless to think on this, on US, when there's always being only me, it was just me, scared little thing, scared little thing full of obligations that will never be free to do whatever I feel like' and giggled again 'but lets go earlier than that, okay? lets go to christmas when we were going home and I choked, that was an important day for us...' giggled 'feels great an us instead of we' whispered for him and she got his hand 'Mathew, once you asked me something and I didn't know what to say...' he tried to speak 'now is my turn, would you marry me? 'cause I know now that I want to be yours for the rest of my life' he smiled wildly 'I know, NOW I want to be with you forever' he kissed her and parting while Jess came back from the office to give him something 'Is that a yes?' they said at the same time, Jess gave him a small box with a ring on it and he put the ring in Peggy's finger.
'YES' he saidInsainity_Epilogue
Started on 09/23/10 at 18:01,Edited again on 25/9/10 20:30, lets see when it'll be done... yet edited again on 27/09/10, yes, yet again edited on 28/09/10, guess what!! 29/09/10 twice, BTW just added paget and Vagn, once more updated 01/10/10
and again 02/10/10, and yet again, yes again in 04/10/10 again 06/10/10