he lazy one got suspended by Salazar, who asked me to go back to the hosp long after I was off to help him *I actually did most of the job* on surgery... Man I love being the Doctor's fav
and if they don't like it, too bad...
most of the residents don't like me, don't really care, for what I've heard they think is unfair that i had so much free time *which means I have no even sick days for the rest of my life...* then came back and be the perfect one, *whch I'm sure I'm not*.
is just me or envious people realy does exist... lol, I'm envius myself, this interns has so much more than they deserve and they're not even half good we were...
two weird things.
1) this morning woke me up the distant sound of an explossion, it was over the bridge and everything but I could hear it...
just like 9/11, I was in shock and still dead tired.
2) Last night I had the weirdest dream, I've died on an accident on 8th and was on the hospital nearby that street, dead... well the point is that I was so psised, having go throught so much for nothing, just one stupid accident, and was in dispair because I wasn't able to take care of my family, and was sad because I never again will be with my sisters. but was geting little by little used to the idea, then I woke up on my dream, and was on a bed, and was ok, I sighed thinking I was ok, it was all a dream but then noticed it wasn't, I was still dead, and in the morgue, my mother got there and we spoke, I told her to take care,to explain everyone I was ok now and that they have to be brave and if it was true that the ones on my side were able to take care of them I will. Gosh I'm almost crying I was in peace, for a sec i didn't needed anything anymore, but was sad thinking in all the things i don't want but I will never had the chance to decide or change my mind and have.
then I was outside a window watching how my family went with my sister to a hospital, and a guy who just picked up his son, and then he got trought the wall that was our door inside.
I followed him and only the cleaning lady could see me, and the man ofcourse, I went to the room of my sister but my family saw me, my knees went weak, in the weird burning painfull feeling of fear, and I reached my hand and hel my sisters arm, and I understood that I only could touch dead people like me. I sat up on bed and took me over an hour to fell asleep again, after touching my body to be sure to be alive lol.
enough, I keep ranting this days without a reason.
*half hour later*
I'm still trying to make thing out claear from my head.
there was too much..
I ended up my story about the internship, all in spanish, which is AMAZING!! Tito is still checking it out, if there's no big mistakes I'll post it here soon, and english version to the end of the month.. hopefully Stranger than you dreamt it, can you even bear to look, or dare to think of me?... This lonesome gargoyle who burns in hell but secretly yearns for heaven secretly, secretly but my love... fear can turn to love you'll learn to see to find the man behind the monster this... repulsive carcass that seems a beast but secretly dreams of beauty secretly, secretly... ( learn_to_be_lonely )
Song for today...
Angel of Music
because i'm still waiting for Raoul
Guy for today:
my Lord King Leonidas
MAN! he's geat